cuti

I read on fb, one friend wrote that 'my bonus at the end of every year is 6weeks of paid vacation'. which is absolutely true. but year after year after year, it never seems like having all 6 weeks to laze around n be lazy n be bored. There is always something to do n most of the time too much to do.. =( so it is not really a vacation. but more like you are being paid to catch up with other things that u didnt get to do while working... huhuhu

and believe it or not... i have tonnes of activity to do and so much more places to go.. i need to clear my room n get stuff here.. how am i supposed to fit all my clothes [3rails worth of baju kurung n shirt n blouse and everthing else] in the closet..I HAVE NO IDEA! huhuhu

I need to get some stocks here. I will have to bring alot more than last time. huhu.. ada org amik 20 and i was left like 4 pcs jer..huhu and i have to take this holiday time to start a new list to advertise n leave links everywhere. huhu. i really2 want to do a year end sale but as i dont have my stocks with me.. its really hard! huhui still have no where to put the stocks yet! owh i really need to find some space.. bawah katil penuh dgn hadiah kawen!!! perhaps getting a small short drawers to put by the window is good idea. we can put our lappie there..both of it and solve the problem of hiding my stocks n ayang's files.. owh he does have ALOT of files.. he is very good at filing. he takes it really seriously like filing everything very systematically. huhu.. me? i am the messy one remember?

i shall continue soon~~

change

For the umph-teen or million time, I want to get this out loud n clear. I hate change!

I am one of those human being that love to stay in my comfort zone. Changes scare me. Be it good or bad, it still scares me to the max.

At the moment there will be a lot of changes in the next coming months.. First I get to transfer to Gombak. The school is still a mystery. Hopefully I can get something closer to home so that I dont have to travel to far from home.

So that means I will move my laidback life in Kuantan to KL. I will be living in Gombak until our place in Selayang is ready. I dont really fancy the idea of living there..but what to do.. a wife's place is next to her husband. I am glad to be able to drop that weekend wife title. I long to get the chance to be able to kiss my hubby before he goes to work and give him a great big hug that could make his shirt all wrinkle up! heeee

Another thing that worries me is my business. How on earth I am going to continue it now? I need access to post office and more importantly some space for all my hooks. I can however find a small place to put limited stock like 2/3pcs of each colour/design...which really means I have to travel back to Kuantan to constantly replenish my stocks. Considering my situation n condition now...i dont think that is permisible.. [if there such a word.. hehehe]


I can't wait for the house to be ready. I can't wait to move in n have a normal life. I want to live like normal husband n wife. It will be hard work as I have to clean, cook n wash but I want it. If it is too much I can always ask for a maid rite..hehehehhe lazy lazy me!

Apart from that.. will i be happy with the school? will the friends be okay? will the kids be amazing like my year 3E? Will the teachers tolerate my laziness of everything? My messiness? I sort of pick what I want to do. I don't mind going all out with teaching n get the materials ready and stuff. But hey look at my class.. they had potential to be one of the pretiest class..but unfortunately they get Moi for the class teacher. Decorating n putting up all those knick knacks are certainly not my specialty. I dont really bother about making it a pretty class...just plain clean with shiny floors will do. I dont tolerate with messiness in the class tho.. just in my room n on my table. heeee..

There will be a lot more changes happening in months to come.. but I am not ready to spill here it yet. Just incase someone is reading. Tho I am pretty sure no one reads my blog anymore.. but just incase. I am not ready to face the situation yet again tho I pray hard that I don't have to. That it will be a wonderful journey for me n hubby...

speaking of hubby, I havent talk to him for the past 72 hours.. he is away for work.. i dont like it. but what can I do? for the past 2 nights n as i am typing this.. i still keep on trying to dial the number if I could get through the line. But the weather [ i guess] has a different plan. He was supposed to come back last Thursday..but something came up and he had to delay his return to Sunday. 2 nights away.. I think I can.. but I am not really sure I can.. huhuhu

A lot of thoughts has gone into this post.. I really am happy. Sometimes, when I feel sad or happy.. i read my old posts..it reminds me of the happier/sadder days I had in the past.. how i dealt with it..how i change my life.. It is really an eye opener.. and yes I am thankful and glad that I have this blog. I will be back soon..perhaps with some happy news...

friends

sometimes i think i have the craziest friends on earth. sometimes i feel that we are all sooooooooo different until i feel how on earth that we ever become friends. sometimes i feel that they are the weirdest bunch of people. sometimes i feel that they are the silliest 25+ years old in the world!

but  most times they are the people you can count on. Most of the times we are so similar that we are thinking about the same thing even we are at different places. most times i feel that they are the most normal human beings in this world. [really????] most times i think that they are the super genius and cleverest people in the whole wide world.

But hey at all times, I am the lucky one to have friends like you...

As usual... when i feel there is one of us that need any other one of us..i blog about them. who is it this time?

love

I choose the title because the subject of today's post is someone that I truly love.

I couldnt pick up the phone and dare to ask her.. what is going on?

But looking at seeing her changing her blog name once in 24hours seriously bugs me. It may not be anything but I am genuinely worried.

SO darling...wats up? Anything u want to tell me? or Anything you want to say? I am here.. even at 3am. Give me a call. [Tho if u call me after 10pm, you may not get my full attention...because you get the sleepy me.. but hey..I am there..~~]

Love u to bits n pieces.. all 4 of you.

disturbed

I may claim that my 'kampung halaman' is the Great Britain. I may claim that I am 'British' jokingly. I may claim that 'andai aku dibuang dan tak diterima... andai aku disingkirkan... akan ku lari balik ke UK' hehehe..

but I love this country very much and try not to betray the very same government that give me the chance to be a whole lot better person. The only one chance to realise that there is soooo much more life has to offer!

But when a very respected relative who had a great education and respectable job and a healthy bank account which I assume to be so cultured with a very modern open minded person said something very shallow and ridiculous, it just blew me right away. It hit me straight away that tho I may not be even remotely eligible to be 'Negarawan' and I at any given day, be given the chance to live at another country and dump this teaching job, would definitely take it no question asked, but I still have the guts to at least respect the harmony of the racial integration and be thankful for the life that I have.

It bothers me how can someone so successful in life, living in a big house, working for a GLC company, has a daughter living abroad, siblings living abroad, look-up to by others including myself can utter something so obviously wrong. How on earth someone like that can say that the stupid guy namewee is brilliant?

We are cultured people... we are working toward a develop nation which will not happen overnight. If you are not happy towards something, there are proper channels on which you can express you unhappiness, there are ways you can complain and if all means fail. There is always the newspaper and televisions.. even calling up Karam Singh Walia is ten thousand million times better than trashing the very same country that you live in. The same government that provide the health care for your mom when you were born, the very same country that teach you how to read and write.

And there is another instance where I thought someone else who appears very religious could blame the same organisation that is giving them job and a good life. They say the organisation is not doing their job just because that I haven't been transfered to KL yet. I could say nothing but smile~~ I could say what I am about to write next but it is just not my style to do such thing.

I learned long ago that when things didn't happen the way I wanted them to be, there must be something better! We plan, but God has a better plan for us. After my wedding, I applied to be transfered to KL, and when it didn't happen, I cried and cried and cried non stop. I asked why did you want to see me suffer like that? Why would you waste a teacher who could do so much more than this? Little that we know I will be transfered to Kuantan soon after that to take care of my sister who is going to sit for her SPM n mom who was diagnosed with breast cancer that year. Imagine if I get the transfered to KL. How could I help my dad to send my sister here there and everywhere..  how can I help my mom when she was soo sick?

I believe that God has a lot in store for me. He may not give me what I want all the time...but i certainly get what I needed. I send in my application again this year.. but even if I did or didnt get it.. I know there is something good for me.


on a different note:
I long the company of friends who have the same wavelength and those who share the same 'maturity' with me.. but then, I wont meet these people who really scares me thinking what does the future society has to offer..  and I was again scared by the fact that my students are so unaware that there is another side of the world and there is soooo much more life has to offer...and they live in the very same borderless world!

It scares me...but I am selfish enough not to let the teaching consume my youth. I am destine to be so much more!

jumble-up

it has been a while since i last blog. since i put thoughts in my post into what i write. Many things had happened.

Since the last post.

Puasa

Mama n Papa pegi Mekah
Raya
Ayang worked offshore for almost 3weeks
Course in IPBA for 5days~
Reunion in Janda Baik
Bought my Chloe Paddington

That was a fun filled months...lots and lots of celebration and occasional tears. Owh that must happen to me. It will happen.

And school is going to be out really soon.. owh saya sudah rasa mood bercuti~~~ saya sungguh malas untuk mengajar~~~ and again my holiday will be filled with lots and lots of activities. I really really want to read the book i bought two years ago.

First I need really think about kitchen n interior design. I really have to start thinking about colours n patterns and deco. Owhh dear how fun~~ Floor n blinds n tiles n handles~ Hubby said that during this school holiday I will have to start sketching and collecting info about all things. As soon as the keys in our hands, we will start asking for quotation and buying things to move in. We are sooo sooo sooo excited about our new crib!

I did some thinking months ago.. kind da decided that I want calm n clean look. I want my house to look like showroom. Clean and streamline. My kitchen too. heee.. which really translate to no cooking at all. =p One or two colours with different shades. Really really wants to make this right.

Hubby n I really have the same idea and thoughts about decorating. Only he will have more say in it cos he is paying for it~~ I am soo going to make him pay for it. He has good taste n doesnt mind paying more for fancier stuff.

I have back n forth thoughts about continuing my business. Not that it is not rewarding. It really is and it is paying for my Chloe at the moment which is equal amount to almost 3months pay. huhuhu.. But i make a mistake and it is not really fun anymore. I make 2 mistakes. huhu I learn but it is not fun when  u have to pay for it for a very long time. Plus I might be get transferred to KL which will be a really troublesome to continue. First I need space to put all the hooks. 2nd posting will be a lot of trouble unless I can figure it out. But I can really put it to good use and I can join loads of different bazaar. I really want to make a lot of sales during the holidays. I really want to get the words out.. I really need to do something.

I think thats about it for tonite. I must must must put my thoughts here.. every since facebook came into my life..blogging really has taken a back seat. Not fun!!!

Not again

once again we are in a lot of mess. 2nd Oct is the date to look forward to. but it seems faraway. it seems like forever. it seems like an eternity.

Dearest, please hold on. I am not able to be there fully as I am not whole myself. But lets hold hands in our hearts so that we could go through this in one piece. Love u loads more than i ever love myself.

-less

I am always the kind who took a while to digest in changes. It is a little hard to poke into my thick skull. I took my own sweet time to adjust my feelings to the changes.. be it good or bad.. its the same.

then when i start to warm up to the idea.. getting excited to jump into it. It hit me with the thing that I hate the most. Uncertainty. When things are uncertain.. i refuse to talk, do or even think about it. I hate it when people say what i should or i should not do about things i myself not sure. i hate it even more have to deal with people asking me what happen... so i just sit there, be quiet and pretend nothing happen, until i figure it out. It scares me..its like determining something which could be the other way round..

Even so when things go the less favourable way...i am glad that not many people know about it. I am glad that i dont have to tell lots of people the bad news.. i dont like to disappoint others.. i feel guilty. I feel that what ever happen is my fault.

When i don't have to talk about it.. i don't have to think about it.. i won't feel sad.. its easier to go back to the state before anything change.. i just slip back to my old life. forget that this part ever happens. bury deep in my hearts where no one can ever reach and bring it to the surface again. only I will remember it at the back of my mind.

Let me be the only one who have to face what come may.. those who knows just be on the side lines. pray for me. those who dont know just leave them in the dark. if they dont need to know then...they certainly dont need to know now.


Now I know that I like to keep my private life...very much indeed private.

Haywire

A few months back one of us broke up from a 9 years relationship.

We tried to be together try to support each other.. try our best. But our biggest enemy is our commitment. and distance for most of us. Tho my school is just a shout away from her house.. we barely see each other. We are stuck with work. The rest of us.. KL/Bandar Tenggara/ Penang- Kuantan is just too far to convey a comforting hug, some wisdom words.

To her.. it is hard.. it is painful.. but you have to be strong. you have to show that you are above him. you are the bigger person. Dont let him toy with your feelings.. Dont let him conquer your mind. You can cry...cry with us.. dont cry to him. Cry..cry your heart out.. Please don't let him know that you are crying. Pour...pour everything to us.. Not him. Cos he won't make you feel better... You will make him feel better.. We will try our best to make you feel better.

Due to this situation, one of us invite her to tag along to a vacation trip over the long weekend. So they are going to a peaceful calm and serene place. Hopefully it will help her to clear her head. Make her realise how strong she is than she thinks she is..

But.. fate has its funny way to test us..

This morning, when they are all excited to meet up and chat all night long.. The vacation girl get a phone call.. Her mom is diagnose of breast cancer and immediately scheduled for surgery on the very same day. She obviously drop everything and drive back to her hometown.

If you haven't know.. my mom was diagnose with a breast cancer a year and a half ago. I know exactly how she feels.. I just hope she is okay. I just hope her mom is okay.

Things are so haywire now.. this is a test of our 5points relationship. Married with a child, In a relationship, Just broke up, [sorry babe...] unknown.. and me.. just Married for now.

It is sad for me...when I have a news to tell...they are in deep sadness.. its like fate prevent them from being happy for me..

This is not the first time.. sedih kan.

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crap

Sorry for yet another negative title. I am still obssesed with having a one word title.

On Monday, I apply for a day off this Friday, the reason was to attend my cousins wedding in Kulim, Kedah. about 12pm, I get a phone call saying that my day off was not approved. Gila apa tak lulus???

So I went to face the HeadMaster. [I hate him by the way] I ask what is the reason.. he said because we have an activity that day. This Friday, the kids are going to 'Larian Merentas Desa' or Merentas Taman Perumahan more like it. So, the school needs me to do whatever. I dont know whats the reason. He is crazy.. and then he said in this exact words 'kalau saya bagi awak cuti...apa pulak orang lain kata...' I was like...what ever?? orang nak cakap apa.. its not like I took leave and MC every week. I dont think people care...and plus they dont even have to replace me for my classes..the kids are out running anyway..

Some of the teachers know what happen to me.. I told them just to vent out the bitterness and anger inside me.
And to make things worse..TODAY, I saw on the board another teacher is going to be on leave that very same FRIDAY. She is kindda close to me, so I asked her nicely why is she going on leave and I told her my story.. I was not angry at her but that guy is STUPID and CRAZY!  She understand why I am angry and she asked me to go and see him again today.. but he is not around. He is sooooo bloody crazy!

Apa saya kata kalau orang lain boleh cuti pada hari yang sama dan saya tak boleh?

The other teachers say '..amik MC je qin.. dia nak cakap apa..' but I am more than that..I am going to just leave.. cakap la apa dia nak..haha.. Do I look like I care?

I dont like you...please make sure you approve my transfer..

on a more positive note, tomorrow is hubby's birthday. Why do I have to be this bitter this week? urgghhh

Sad T_T

 And they say bad things happens three times in a row..

first: I have school this Saturday! sucksss

second: I cannot go to Bukit Gambang wit hubby cos its a closed event. Teambuilding. Not Family day affair. NOT FUNNNN!!

third: Our baby got hurt! huhu....sangat sedeyyy... Tho it was not his fault n just a minor accident. That tiny accident make hubby could not come back to me tonite!!!! owhhhh bertambah sedeyy....

too sad to do anything now... i am so sickly sad.. this is soooo not fun!

crazy

hello...i have a crazy crazy life now... im sooo crazy...

ohh btw, does anyone can answer these questions

1. What the fucking hell is 'Elephant Talk'?
2. What is the exact number of years i have to serve the goverment?
3. How do I apply to do masters FULL TIME at my own cost while im still working?

help please..thanks in advanced!

gorgeousness.

I am gorgeous. I am soooo gorgeous until I can take anything that came to me. Any amount of work at any time in any way. I am sooooooo blooooody gorgeous.

books to mark
35 books each class times 4 classess. = 140books. [tuh baru E1..blom E2 and E3...kalau mau tanda semua aku kena amik cuti sebulan. ]


That was just the real thing that I have to do everyday. not counting other stuff.. need I to list it all down.. I might have to amik cuti tanpa gaji setahun kotttt....


and what i hate the most... my post-praktikum portfolio. all the gorgeous lesson plan and write up...

GREAT!!! I just love all that....

I know that there will be alot more to come my way... but as I have said... I am soooooooooo blooody gorgeous I can take anything they throw at me.

revisited.

I am still in love with having one-word title. I just feel its nice. short and sweet. precise.

Back to the title above. It was all revisited. what we did for 2 semester years ago, we are redoing it in just 8days. 7months and 8days. well not really 8 days minus the afternoon sessions where I cant stop yawning and Huda n I played bingo totally ignoring what they are saying or what was on the screen.

I am talking about Teaching English to Young Learners. and suddenly I can feel Steve Ansell is standing behind me looking at me n Huda playing BINGO. huhu..scaryyyy

I mean. its a repeat. yeah but it never hurts to relearn good things.

[ada lagi...but lost because of silly internet connection all the feelings bottled up dah abis...huhu. perhaps tomorrow i can continue]

to be continued. perhaps.

none

I took a loooooooooooooong time to really plan my lessons. Usually these lessons are very effective as i really give it a good tought. I admit that I did not do it for every lesson, but I usually try to at least do it for 3 lessons a week for each of the class I am teaching.

Now that I am teaching 4 English classes make it even harder to do it. I took a looong time to get to know the children and get into a rhythm of teaching them. Switching classes 3weeks before exams are crazy stuff for me. I know I dont live in an ideal world, but I would like to make the world I am living an ideal place for me. I want to give the kids the best English lessons on a regular basis.

But when you have to deal with 2 fire drills, fire fighting demo, safety talk, rehearsals for Hari Anugerah, then Bengkel Menjawab Soalan in the evening ALL in the SAME day. It is hard for me to give my best to my kids.

This week is crazy mad. There are soooo much activities in one week that I have not done any teaching yet these week. NOT A SINGLE LESSON! I don't know what to write in my record book. I don't think I can teach tomorrow. I have prepared many handsout for the kids. and I feel soooo sad.


Teachers are told to teach the kids as if they are teaching their own kids. You dont have to tell me that. I know it. I have been teaching them because they are  my own kids. I am not a super woman. I cannot come home at 5pm everyday and be in school the next morning fresh, full of energy and life to teach these kids when I did not prepare anything for the lesson.

When the Year 1 kids are performing, the teachers who trained them are even more excited than the kids. Biasalahhh cikgu lebey dari budakk... huhu. Cikgu gaya lebih dari budak..hahaha. But thats how it should be! Teachers are required to do more than the kids are doing. They won't get 100% of what we do. So we have to show to them 200% of what they are supposed to do. Then they will get the 100% that we want to see.. Thats why teachers are so tired. We go all out to make sure the kids are good.

Thats why we can only work 5days a week, officially from 7.30am to 1.30pm. because we need those extra hours to recover from the day, to finish what we could not finish before 1.30pm, to plan for tomorrow, to get ahead of the kids, to make sure we are up fresh, full of energy, and life to run the show once again.

Teachers are actors and actresess. Good ones.

cheated.

on Wednesday, I went out with my gorgeous bestfren Julie. We went sofa hunting and bought one gorgeous candy stripe Lshape sofa... uhhh cant wait to crash on it!!! heee then we went to minum2 at starbuck before going to our spa session. then lapar already and we have dinner at TGIF. yumm... then balik oredi. both of us just beli a couple of things...sooooooooooooooo unlike us!! hahaha

Then Thursday, I went out around 2.30..approaching KLCC at 3pm. I asked hubby if he is coming back late and he said yes. So I asked if i could go and jalan2 to Jalan TAR..only 2 things in my mind.. black velvet pouch and tudung!! after searching up and down..i couldnt find any black velvet pouch. So i turn my attention to my hard to find tudung. I go in and out, up and down the lane, nooks and crannies... haha.. and i found quite a few..but not really to my heart desire. i am now wearing the shawl with awning kind..not really the one in trend so its really hard to find. but nonetheless, i bought 10 new gorgeous ones...=D

almost 4.45pm i must avoid the back home rush. so i went straight to KLCC. one reason only to be there. Kak Dilla's Mark & Spencer panties. huhu..susah le kawan ngan orang2 posh nih... panties pun beli kat MS. aku pakai yang SMARTPRICE ASDA jek dulu...huhuhu... skarang pun beli kat JUSCO jek.

huhu So to kill time. and i have been dying to get my nails done. I went straight to Nail Parlour. Just my basic manicure n pedicure with buffing. The manucurist did say that I have to add RM 10 for buffing so I said yes. no problem. So did my pedicure first. Not much complain but sikit giler scrub walaupun pakai scrub St Ives. Then buat manicure..okay first she cut my nails too short. Okla..i didnt say to her not to cut too short. I just let go.. then she did my nails. She filed the wrong way and not to wat I said pun. I want square but she filed according to the original shape of my nails! WTH?????? dah file pun..so i just diam je la.

Pay time.
Trademark Manicure: RM40
Trademark Pedicure: RM50
Buffing Mani & Pedi: RM20

Total: RM110
Mahal nak MAMPUS!!! huh...I dont mind paying if the results are gorgeous and satisfying. Better do it at BremMall in Kepong. RM 70 both Mani n Pedi plus buffing. The shine last for 3weeks ++ Thats the best so far. If not do it in Kuantan also Okay. Same price jugak.

I feel so cheated.

Then I wanted to have a glass of juice. I went to the foodcourt at level 2. Signature kot.. So i ordered a large glass of juice. Orange+Watermelon. Yummm rite??? Yeah....cos the price is RM10!!! weh..baik aku beli kat Juice Works kat bawah tuh... RM8.90 jek...lagi banyak buah campur2..

Oh cheated again!!!!! Marahnyer sayaaaaaaaaaaaa....

damn. i learn my lesson.

K I mau cari tiket untuk terbang...

stealing

not just sunshine. but now i have to steal time. i am so bloody late to go back to skul. i have an entry to type.

title: cheated. bila mau type? tunggu expired dulu..huuuuuuuuuu

adeh la.

MAD

This is crazily MAD.

I am marking my year 4 exam papers. Paper 2 to be exact. About 5days including weekends before the exam, we did sentence construction exercise in class. I manage to stress the fact that it might come out in the exam regardless that I have no idea how the paper looks like. It turns out to be a few phrases that we did in class appear in the exam paper. Nonetheless these kids fail to use it correctly.

Her sister is a reading book. not just one kid. but more than 5 of them.
Ani listenig radio. again not just one kid.

In the exercise, the sentence was 'A woman is listening to the radio at home'. I did not dictate but i ask questions. Is it a man/woman/boy or girl? How many person? What is he/she doing? Where?  That is the base of simple sentences i teach these kids..

...i am not done yet. with the pictures, there are 10 helping words to help the kids. words like bedroom, listening, girls, reading, book etc etc.. kalau salin pun salah. aku nak marah kot mana tuh???? huhu..

now i understand why there is a learning objective in the Curiculum Spec which says

able to copy correctly.

apparently, it is hard to aquire the ability to copy correctly. T_T
this is driving me mad. grrrr....to top it up..the house next door is renovating. the sound of the workers drills is drilling a hole in my head!!! tension den!!!!

huhu..but to take it from one of my favourite lecturer back in IPBA. If one student make a mistake, he might misunderstood you. But if there are a few, you should ask yourself.

WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG?????

God give me the strength to go on...

randomness

again. hehehe

1st random topic.

It came to a point.. when I was sitting at the balcony, I felt how I felt when I was in UK. It almost felt like Summer of '06. The feeling was almost the same.. guess, it was the thing that make me happy. The blissful life that I secretly adore..


2nd random topic

Tomorrow is the SPM results. I am berdebar for my sister as if its my results. I am ssooooooo hoping she will get gud results and off she goes to some good college preferbly overseas ones. well so I can visit her every year!!! hehehe... UK would be lovely, but anywhere on earth would be just as great. hahahaha

3rd random topic

I watched Alice in Wonderland 3D today.. hehe.. fun I must say. one of the rare moments that I went for a movie. hehe

4th random topic

It was openly talked about in FB when one of my friend wrote:

Akmal Farid: Funny when you read your teacher friends' statuses, you come to realise: what is to become of Malaysian school bosses?

me: go to hell with the bosses. what is to become of our education system??? Memperkasakan sekolah kebangsaan??? in your dreams... when all thats left are the teachers who come to school to gossip, kiss ass, go in and out of class for the sake of it etc etc.. when all the great minds are gone their own way..


I came to realise that soon, in less than 2 years time, our education system will be deprived of great teachers.. I know these people. I am [hope] one of them. all 120+ of us.
 
How sad..

alone

the fact:

I am at the balcony of a gorgeous big fancy hotel room with a broadband service facing the sea and pool waiting for my lunch ordered through room service.

Lucky me? i guess. never in my life i thought i would be able to enjoy such luxury. i have stayed in many hotels before, as my dad n mum always took us on a trip everywhere during school holidays. But the hotels where we stayed was purely for sleeping arrangment. definately not luxury. as a child i have been secretly wishing to be able to call the room service and order what i fancy to eat..although the charge will be outrages! the first time i was able to do that was on my honeymoon at Jerejak Resort and Spa.

never in my life i thought that will be the first to many more.. since then, i have been lucky enough to stay in posh hotels enjoying life little perks.

*Gorgeous view of the sea from my balcony.*

I have heard many stories about a life of a wife to Petronas Executive. I have met a few too.

one of the first story was told by Laylee. there was one teacher in her school where she did her practical who is so bergaya, with her gorgeous baju kurung, matching bag and shoes, her long necklaces adorning below her gorgeous tudung. Laylee said She sees me in the future like that..  

Mom told me that she was given a leather handbag by a friend who share the wifey-title as mine.

This particular story is my favourite. I have been wishing secretly that one day it will be me!

she is a regular teacher [like me!] she took unpaid leave to follow her hubby everywhere around the world. Australia, UK and now US! ohh dear...that i wouldnt mind.. I want THAT life! okay side-tracked.

Last Night's Dinner: Club Sandwich

Today's lunch: Nasi Goreng Istimewa.

but you see, I am all alone since morning. I watched TV and I surf the net all day.

Hubby is busy working. He is in Kemaman 30 minutes away, over looking his first big project. His current project involve a big ship and 2 other small ship lease by petronas for their used at their oil rigs and platform. He went to Singapore/Batam twice to oversee the progress of the ship in the making. He is responsible in making sure the ship sail smoothly from Batam and safely arrived yesterday morning in Kemaman. He has to make sure that their contractor abide to all the contract requirement before he approved that Petronas agree to accept the ship. He approved all the marine n catering crew onboard and he has to make sure they have their safety passport which is required by Petronas. He is in Kemaman to make sure everything is in order. Last night, he ordered 800tonne of oil to be supplied to his ship. Today, I am not really sure what he is doing, but i think all the marine n catering crew will be boarding the ship and it will sail out to serve at a platform offshore. 

He is tired most of the time but he seems happy. I should be happy. but I am not.

Dreams do come true. I am a princess now, but trapped in the ivory tower.

At least this girl is happy to have a brother in law working with Petronas.

My lil sis taking a dip in the hotel pool yesterday.

its almost 3pm now. only 5 more hours to go before he comes back. (*_*)

Craziness

Mesyuarat Guru Kali -2

Mula: 3pm

Tamat: 6pm.

... aku pegi spa pun tak lama cam nih.. =S

crazy.

darkness

well future days seems dark n bleak..

first of all Hubby is soo bloody busy and his attention for me is definately lacking. so it is going to be boring.


second my school days will be long and painful. we have a new HM and so far he is nothing but trouble. the teachers at school is definately fidgeting as we make fun to all things and everyone is masking the feeling with laughter and jokes. there is not short of jokes and laughter to keep the ball rolling and steam off...

third my hands are still dark n black n burned regardless of the amount of Nivea Whitening Body Lotion.
thats including RM 165 for the 3 hour SPA session which include berendam dalam susu and whitening body mask...grrrrr

When will everything turn brighter? When will my sunshine come back?

owh babe...i dont even know what i need now. a breakaway is a definate no at the moment. workload is amounting and its seems like never ending story..

things are piling up so does hurting. but there is absolutely no time to mend even my own hurting heart. =(

burned!

Im so black even the charcoal looks fairer than me! haha

it was a great fun 4days of holiday.

Saturday. Wake up early to go visit my cousin who is flying back to London and went to kenduri in Kuala Selangor tho we were stucked in the jam for about 40mins. duh.. it was a bloody hot day. Then we went straight to Aqilah and Athirah's house. Went back to Gombak about 9pm. huhu.. long long day..

Sunday. Home alone. about 11am. We went out to OU. The road was clear..as soon as we arrived in OU we know why.. haha.. half of OU is close due to the CNY. Had brunch in Chilis and walk around OU to find me a watch. couldnt find any. huhu.. Went visiting hubby's fren Bujal. he had an awful accident that broke his leg n shoulder. dahsyat ok.. ngeri aku tgk xray dia.. tulang patah mcm polistrin jahhhh... huhu Then we went to Ewin's house.. lepak2 jap. Then mama n babah arrive with Aqilah n Athirah. Then about 8pm we went home. Make a quick stop at the giant to buy stuff for tomorrow! another long long day..

Monday. Wake up super early to get ready to go PICNIC!!! yippppeeeee... help mama to cook and cook. Arrived at Serendah waterfall about 10am The sun was scorching HOT. SUPER SUPER HOT! but i didnt bother..had so much fun with my gorgeous pink hat. haha.. eat so bloody much.. Nasi Lemak 3 pinggan!!spend hours in the water.. splash spalsh with the kids all day long.. about 4.30pm pack up and go home.. once arrived, i just realise that i am darker and my skin hurts like bloody hell.. OH NO!!! im burned! that night, sleep like a baby. so penat..and my body is aching..

Tuesday. Wake up feeling like orang tua..my back hurts like hell..and my knee too..OMG!! kemas2 and do alot of things.. tho my body is killing me!! by 2pm..both of us sudah tersadai di depan TV and while watching Wonderpets..both of us dozz off to sleep..hahaha.. at about 4pm we went out to run some errands and get something for our back..and Mama asked us to go to Kanda's house bcos everybody is goimg to be there.. hehe.. so off we go! went back to Gombak at about 9pm.. and once again we sleep like little babies.. huhu..

Wednesday.. half of the day was spent in the super bloody slow bus! then i am covered in cold calamine lotion for the rest of the day...

cant wait for another long weekend.. had tonnes of fun tho i was burned darker than charcoal. and tomorrow, i have already made an appointment to go berendam dalam susu..hoping to return to pre-burn state..hahaha

oh darling..you wish!

silly

gosh.. i didnt remember that the long break after SPM cud slow down ur brain to this level.. hahaha..she was quite pandai when i think about it. her exam results were good.. better than mine at least..but this is badd...

I am talking about my sister. I kesian tgk dia had to terperap kat rumah doing nothing. she work for me n mom doing odd chores but thats about it. at least she got the internet..and astro! i didn't.

Today, i was desprate to get something done at ECM, so i drag her along so that she could buka mata and melihat dunia..hahaha.. while i get my things done, i gave her RM20 and asked her to get me a copy of February CLEO.. yada yada yada.. later we met at a cafe.. i saw her reading a mag..so i know she bought it. and proudly she said

Adik: Kakak...tgk! its just RM2.50!!!
 .........puzzeled! and i saw that it was partially covered by the price tag..
Kakak: haaa...memang la RM2.50..ni February 2009!!!! adoi laa....
Adik: ...tercengang2..
Kakak: hahaha..benggong betul la...pegi beli yang lain..i want February 2010 la dik oiii..
Adik: ..ha ye la..

haiiihhhh... what a silly sister i have... huhu.. need to get her to college ASAP. kalau tak she will be brain dead soon enough!

HAHAHAHA.. im still laughing about it.

sick

im still sick. still had the cough. but feeling better. hopefully due to the long weekend i will fully recovered.

but there is something else that make me feel sick.

liars. maybe not. pretenders i suppose. or they just dont want to admit that they do the very same thing that they say they WONT do. pretend to be the person they are not. even in their own blog. trying to implicate self pity so others will feel pity for her.

to me, blog is very personal. you dont do it to gain popularity. i dont care if not many people reads my blog. but i appreciate any of you who do reads.. =) not like people used to do in chatrooms, when IRC was the only way to chat, when YM still does not exist! people pretend on the internet to gain popularity. to be someone they are not.

maybe people who don't know you personally would say.. 'WOW..so and so did this and that..'
but i who know you very personally in reality knows that a lie! or you would just pretend that you are not doing what you are doing..

...im very hostile to this kind of people. this behaviour kills my love and care towards a person. i look down on you. no longer have my respect. sorry babe..



now i have to pretend i still care. ...eat my own words! hate it.

ponteng

im not in skul today. for the 1st time. i just give myself a day off. and its the day i hate the most. thursday!

honestly, its not really ponteng. i have not been 100% healthy for the past 3 weeks. my cough n asthma is really bad. especially this week. it hurts everytime i cough. and to add to it.. my head is really spinning atm. so i cant drive to the clinic.

i want ayang. now. really bad.

same

same or similar.

people say opposite attracts. up to a certain point i agree. but this has been going on between us since we were still studying before UK and during UK times. its one thing that both of us love and enjoy...

which really translate to we did and enjoy this waaaaayyyyy before we know one another. tho we call it differently, i must say its the same thing. i was n still am really treasure the weekends.

Hubby calls it 'Mendap'
i just call it.. 'My Weekend'.

it refers to waking up late. taking time to have breakfast, make a mug of coffee drink 2 sips and reheat it a couple of time until u finish it, do nothing but lay infront of the TV, stare at the laptop screen while clicking at different buttons [eBay, blog, or now MafiaWars]. have your morning shower after 3pm but not later than 4pm or just dont bother to shower at all. wear a fresh baju tido. then wonder what to do for the rest of the days or just continue staring at the laptop screen. before going to bed again, regret that you have just wasted a day, but secretly adores it to the max.

Last week, i went back to KL. He just got back from Singapore, so i decided we should not to go anywhere but enjoy the weekend. plus there is no one at home than just the 2 of us. ahhh bliss~~~~

its the same for me, KL/Plymouth/Kuantan.Single/Couple/Married.GuruPelatih/InternationalStudent/Teacher.

Saturday/Sunday. My kind of weekend.

having hubby to share it with makes it all worth while...


Loving it!

am i?

BFF: where are you?
me: at home..
BFF: Home in Kuantan?
me: ha ler..its mid week..where else i would be? heh..
BFF: mana la tau..u seems like the break-the-law kind..ye la..selamba je ponteng meeting.aku tgk rilek jek..
me: weh...that was 1 time. and i was in KL..takde pasal aku nak balik Kuantan just to attend the meeting.and they dont bother too..hehe..

do i look like break-the-law kind? am i?

Funny you...

HeadCrack

well, dont blame me for a no show last week. blame the stupid idiot head crack!! i mean headcount. i have no idea what is the use of head count other than raising our blood pressure and make us drown under piles of work load. simply madness. idiot.

i rather plan a good lesson than do all those paperwork. i can still b a good teacher without doing any of those stupid things. i dont have to write 3pages lesson plan but still can carry out a good lesson. why should i waste alot of time writing garbage?

life is alot of messy things. hubby is on his way to singapore..for a day. thank God! he will b back tomorrow. tho a little later than he should be. but as long as he is back in my arms.

my face is a breeding ground now for more than a week. =(
dont know what happen. huhu. headcrack perhaps.

teaching otherwise is okay.. i like my classes except that i have to teach music...

...the hills are alive....with the sound of music...trallalalala....

gilo apo? huhu.. saya yang menurut perintah.

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holidays

its not yet even a week in school. but it will be tomorrow. so i am allowed for this post.

so far, school is okay. except that i am not so happy with my messy timetable. hurrhghghgh

Back to business.

I have mentioned that i went to Sabah for 5 days. Me n hubby had tonnes of fun, we want to go on holidays again!


I am looking for a cruise. One that depart from Malaysia. KL/ Penang / Kuantan. going to anywhere..

e.g. Thailand / Hong Kong / Vietnam

However, after searching on the net, i only find a few which cruse IN malaysia. The ones going to other places depart outside from Malaysia.

So I would like to ask for help.

How do i look for 1?
What do i look for?
When is the best time to go crusing?

Gosh.. i really want to go.

too many projects..so little money.... so little time!!!!!

*NEW*

it took me 4 days to get my ass to type this down. haha.. talk to me about being lazy. My school holidays pass in a blink. even tho they say i cuti sakan..but i felt it wasnt enuf. must make sure future years i stay home and be a good wife. =P without other extra activities.

Brand new year. Do i have a new year resolution? Do i?

i certainly want to loose the extra weight. hhuhu..

be a better teacher.

be the best wife.

and stop eating and shopping too much!

...i certainly did during the holidays. aaahhhh blisss..


anyway, i really wanted to whine about hubby had to work on weekends. For the last 2 sundays, he had to go to work. On the first Sunday..he let me go on a shopping spree in KLCC and Pavillion but he 'forgot' to give me the money to shop with! but i ask julie to join me..hehe..

and last sunday, he left me at 5.30am with tears running down my cheek to go back straight to the office. I cried and cried and cried.

well it hurts. T_T