change

For the umph-teen or million time, I want to get this out loud n clear. I hate change!

I am one of those human being that love to stay in my comfort zone. Changes scare me. Be it good or bad, it still scares me to the max.

At the moment there will be a lot of changes in the next coming months.. First I get to transfer to Gombak. The school is still a mystery. Hopefully I can get something closer to home so that I dont have to travel to far from home.

So that means I will move my laidback life in Kuantan to KL. I will be living in Gombak until our place in Selayang is ready. I dont really fancy the idea of living there..but what to do.. a wife's place is next to her husband. I am glad to be able to drop that weekend wife title. I long to get the chance to be able to kiss my hubby before he goes to work and give him a great big hug that could make his shirt all wrinkle up! heeee

Another thing that worries me is my business. How on earth I am going to continue it now? I need access to post office and more importantly some space for all my hooks. I can however find a small place to put limited stock like 2/3pcs of each colour/design...which really means I have to travel back to Kuantan to constantly replenish my stocks. Considering my situation n condition now...i dont think that is permisible.. [if there such a word.. hehehe]


I can't wait for the house to be ready. I can't wait to move in n have a normal life. I want to live like normal husband n wife. It will be hard work as I have to clean, cook n wash but I want it. If it is too much I can always ask for a maid rite..hehehehhe lazy lazy me!

Apart from that.. will i be happy with the school? will the friends be okay? will the kids be amazing like my year 3E? Will the teachers tolerate my laziness of everything? My messiness? I sort of pick what I want to do. I don't mind going all out with teaching n get the materials ready and stuff. But hey look at my class.. they had potential to be one of the pretiest class..but unfortunately they get Moi for the class teacher. Decorating n putting up all those knick knacks are certainly not my specialty. I dont really bother about making it a pretty class...just plain clean with shiny floors will do. I dont tolerate with messiness in the class tho.. just in my room n on my table. heeee..

There will be a lot more changes happening in months to come.. but I am not ready to spill here it yet. Just incase someone is reading. Tho I am pretty sure no one reads my blog anymore.. but just incase. I am not ready to face the situation yet again tho I pray hard that I don't have to. That it will be a wonderful journey for me n hubby...

speaking of hubby, I havent talk to him for the past 72 hours.. he is away for work.. i dont like it. but what can I do? for the past 2 nights n as i am typing this.. i still keep on trying to dial the number if I could get through the line. But the weather [ i guess] has a different plan. He was supposed to come back last Thursday..but something came up and he had to delay his return to Sunday. 2 nights away.. I think I can.. but I am not really sure I can.. huhuhu

A lot of thoughts has gone into this post.. I really am happy. Sometimes, when I feel sad or happy.. i read my old posts..it reminds me of the happier/sadder days I had in the past.. how i dealt with it..how i change my life.. It is really an eye opener.. and yes I am thankful and glad that I have this blog. I will be back soon..perhaps with some happy news...