sisir elektronik [McWoo, 2005]

hmm hari ni aku ada sejam extra.. aku ingat nak habiskan sejam tu ngan blogging. sebenarnya tak extra pun, sbb sejam tu mmg aku punya. cuma telah diambil masa tukar daylight saving hari tu.. dan dipulangkan kepada aku hari ni..today got 25hours u know!!! [hehehe] Summer is officially over. hmm jam kat blog ni merupakan jam kedua yg aku tukar.. jam yg first mesti la jam loceng aku! i wanted to blog last night, tapi mcwoo nak pinjam laptop sbb nak chat. so aku bagi la kat dia.. lagipun i was sooo tired last night. mc woo spend the night, chatting in my room and thats when the phrase 'sisir elektronik' kluar...referring to the curling thong owned by Laylee n currently bermastautin in my room. hehehe...another funny thing to remember about u babe!! not so funny compare to the lawak 'halia sebesar ibu jari'... but still funny...

err....[squeezing my dry brain for something to write..]... i have nothing much planned today.. except that we are going to a doctor's house for iftar.. and before that i planned to bake more cookies but im not sure i want to do any today. Gosh i miss having my sis while baking cookies.. she just take the burden away!! she didnt do much, but it is so much more fun doing it together than slaving urself alone.. [wwaaaa...only now i realize???] im in the middle between my mom n my sis..i usually get away from doing the remeh thing bcos it is usually assigned to my sis. so dispatching things from the cupboard to the table is usually done my sis. it saves u the energy from going back n forth from the table to the cupboard, getting what u need.. her duty include lining the tin with tracing paper, decorating the cookies, sapu telor on the tart, and also most of the stuff i dont like doing..etc etc. there was a year where i baked loads of cookies with my sis alone without my mom..that year, was the first year we celebrate raya in our current house. so many things happen that Ramadhan, the house was broke into... few hundreds gone...then, my dad was involved with an accident that literally crushed his car like kotak sabun [suprisingly, dad walk away with scratches only...how lucky!], mom was busy settling this and that, so i end up pestering my sister to help me baked the cookies alone. hehe.. nothing much, except now, mom knows we can do it on our own...hehe.. that was the last time i spent the whole ramadhan at home. now, i spend the whole ramadhan away from home..

hmm today im going to have dinner with a family..fully-functioned family, not like my malfunctioned family i have here in UK hehehe...i heard they have young children..yeay!! lama nyer tak main ngan budak2!! and today, i recieved an e-raya-card from abang Nuar n family...or most importantly from the girls.. Farihin, Farah, Fatihah, Farhanis n my favourite, FAZRIN!!!!! the F sisters...hehehe... gosh miss them so much!

hmm oklah..i have spend an hour writing this entree..with nothing much on my mind. hope i can write more tomorrow..Happy Hari Raya everyone...Maaf Zahir Batin! semua org dah start bercuti...esok ada kelas all day...waaaaaaaaa!!!!!

setibanya...

hmm semalam, parcel yg joe kirim dah sampai.. dalam tu ada CD lagu lagu raya..then ada kad raya untuk aku.. then ada kad jemputan kawin.. then ada sampul duit raya...yg abang aku telah dgn jayanya meninggalkan ianya kosong tak berisi...hampehnyer abang! sengaja la tu.. maka dgn tibanya cd lagu raya tu...makin meriah la raya kali ini... harapnyer begitulah.

hmm semakin hari semakin banyak blog yg bercerita ttg persiapan raya. hmm ishh yg aku ni plakk, tak terasa nak raya pun..mesti sbb dah excited sblm raya. ehh silap sebelum puasa.. hmm..k la...aku tulis la persiapan raya aku kat sini. baju raya aku mama dah hantar dari M'sia..kasut raya last week aku dah beli.. cd raya dah sampai.. and tadi, aku buat kuih raya. choc chip cookies.. n tart nenas [erkkk kalau leh dipanggil tart nenas la.. ABAH!! bila acuan nak sampai ni??? org nak buat gak tart tu... huh! tak raya aku..]. pastu hari ni ada pot luck lagi.. kat rumah sebelah.. tapi aku sgt2 penat skarang..malas nak pegi pun ada..

tadi call mama, tak buat kuih rupanya tahun ni kat rumah aku... hmm..adik malas katanya. apa punya adik daa.. takleh pakai langsung. aku dulu malas gak nak buat, tapi siap gak la kan choc chip ngan almond london ker...2/3 jenis tu boleh la. lebih2 malas la. PENATNYER... hmm sabarlah eqin...brapa minit jer lagi buka puasa. Aja pun dah balik...Joe balik malam ni. Waaa semua org dah ada kat rumah!!! aku tak la rasa nak balik.. tapi apa yg akan berlaku kalau aku takde? adakah sama je? or kurang meriah...hehe.. or lebih sadis lagi...lebih meriahkah tahun ni?? aku dapat rasakan kat rumah Mak..Kak Zura, Kak Zuri ngan Abang Ali mesti ada ngan anak2 sepupu aku!! pastu kat ruma Atok kat Pekan, mesti ada sate... ishh bestnyer..then, Asy mesti balik..Tina...Yus.. hmm tak cukup geng la korang tahun ni ekk aku takde! pastu kat rumah Wan kat Lanchang.. mesti ramai balik..mesti Pak Cik Din balik...wonder is Ira n Abang An ada.. lama tak jumpa diaorg, hows Fifi.. She should still be in UPM.. and the last time i met Adam was in 2003..masa tu dia still skolah lagi. hmm apa cerita la budak2 tu.. well i wasnt close to any of my cousin and super terrible in keeping in contact with them. the one n only cousin im in contact now is Tina..tu pun thru Friendster..

ok lah...i have nothing else to say. i cant think.. im tired..and its already time to break fast.. off i go..take care everyone.. malas la plak aku nak buat kuih lagi esok..

it makes no difference..

hahaha...with work piling up..i have decided to edit my list of blogs that i read. re think if i still think it is interesting. i move 7 blogs from the list...most as a results of not active.however.. i have added like another 14 blogs to my list to visit[duh!!!]. interesting ya.. how i like those blog.. nothing much special..it doesnt have to be complicated or extravaganva...i read an entree at random and decide if there is another entree worth reading. and usually if there is more than 1..it will go up in the list. ohh.. just make sure u do ur academic reading too ya.. [cant help me self to blogging n blog hopping..]. to me reading those blog is a cheap, fast, fun, and almost true-life-like way of having a peek in another's life...i am destinied to be a teacher so, a life of another will be interesting to know.. a life of those who are futhering their study to post-grad..hmm let see if it will inspire me to do the same. hehehe..we will see...

okeh...last night pot luck was very very lucky indeed.. we had nasi putih, bubur, nasi goreng n pulut kuning.. kari, ayam masak merah, sayur campur, and this... and that...ehh bnyk la. being the host for the night, i stand back and watch them clear the periuk n bowl [konon baek la tu...padahal 3 pinggan dah abes...], it look like a scene in pasar malam. ohh how i miss pasar malam!! so next pot-luck...Saturday[huh??? alamak...turn aku ke masak??? gagal...] next door, h34... pastu tinggal satu rumah jer lagi.. rumah watak jiran...hehehe. last sesi mengular-sawakan diri. i had too much last night. sbb semua pun sedap..best!!! pas ni leh raya... ohh.. today i want to cook the pineapple jam...for the pineapple tart. hmm this saturday... nak buat kuih raya. then on sunday, another teachers-to-be- and doctors gathering ...thanks to Fariza [oppsss ] Dr. Fariza....

makan untuk hidup or hidup untuk makan? for now it seems like the latter.. hehehe..wonder2 with food like that...how can i loose weight? hmm it makes no difference...

yahuuuuuuuuuu

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ok thats all that u can yahuuu about..the not-to-yahuu about is i got my assignment specification yesterday. anyway the due date is not until 16th Dec...but it is not a normal 1500 essay.. its a 3000 words equivalent material folio and 1000 word essay to justify my choice of materials n activity. uwwwaaaa there goes my autumn... huhuhuu.. sadis betul la! tak dapat la nak plan jalan2 with work piling up like this.. i havent got my IT assignment.. i have an exam paper for B.Ed Primary dept. huhuhu.... sadisnyer. nak raya pun tak de mood dah.. hmm its amazing how can i be so positive towards the assignment when we held the spec. my fellow friends all freak out [well some of them..3 cheers to the cool ones..]as if it is not achievable..not to say i can easily do a good job.. but daa..it is an assignment.. it is supposed to be hard work.. it is meant to be that way. duh!!! ohh ya...im having a micro-teaching session next month but i havent get the spec yet.. have to work on it fast!! so i better start my reading now! before i have all those books piling up n take over my room again..

this autumn weather is killing me.. i like autumn, it is beautiful..with all the yellow leaves falling. but the coldness is really bad for my asthma. im having terrible cough at night. i cant close the window bcos my room will be just burning hot.[thanks to the boiler next door n the central heater downstairs...] i will roast like a chicken in the oven..by the next day, they can eat me for dinner.. hehehehe.. anyway, i teman sophie to the doctor...and i have book an appointment for my self to get a Flu jab..that will be on the 23rd of NOV.. so does sophie. so remind me!!

malam ni its our house's turn to be the port for pot-luck.. lets see how lucky are we... laylee's turn to cook tonite. and she is cooking my fav mee goreng mamak...cyang laylee...muahhhh!!!!

berita jam 12

hmm...laporan hari ini. hari ni Isnin..takde kelas sbb minggu ni cuti half term. tapi esok aku ada kelas kat INTED. pastu tgh hari tadi, aku tolong sophie masak puding jagung. dah tu plak, aku sambung chat kat YM.. pas sorang2 aku chat.. tapi server plak gila. sakit hati tol la... dah pukul 4ptg. aku pun stop chat. turun la kat dapur kot2 la ada apa2 lagi yg aku leh buat.. sbb mlm ni ada dinner. Pegawai MSD datang lawat kitaorg.. hehehe..MASAK!!!! leh makan ramai2.. hmm 4.30ptg aku pun siap.. ngan baju kurung gitu... aku pun bawak la barang2 gi Private Dining Hall. tgk2 budak2 ni dah siap2 pun.. hmm lebih kurang kul 5.20 ptg Pegawai2 dari MSD pun sampai. so sementara nak berbuka puasa tu kitaorg pun tayang la slide show yg leli buat.. *cayala beb!! u mmg best la* ngam ngam jer abis..Azan Maghrib...buka puasa...pastu kitaorg pun makan la.. sedap betul budak2 ni masak. sekali lagi aku pun mengular-sawakan diri.. sambil2 makan tu aku pun jadi la waitress.. mujur aku decided to pakai cutlery untuk makan. takde la susah sgt nak pegi serve table tu. yg si abang ijan plak sgt2 la err....camne nak cakap ek.. sgt menjaga protokol..haa!!! thats the word. sebenarnya aku pun cam tu jugak...tapi dah takde arah la kan.. aku pun nak makan jugak. hehehe.. kalau bukan kerna aku lapor kebulur hari ni, aku dah serve dah table tu... bukan ramai pun.. takat 3org pegawai, driver MSD, abang ijan, abah, munir, ngan allen.. ala 8 org jer.. lagipun tak cakap nak serve.. aku leh siapkan table dgn maha cun nyer.. mana aku nak tau..lagipun table yg diaorg bagi tu kechik sgt..takat muat pinggan makan jer. nak letak pinggan kuih ngan air pun aku segan...tapi apa pun.. semuanya berjaya. dgn bestnyer... so around kul 9mlm, diaorg pun balik la.. aku ngan beberapa org lain pun hantar la diaorg kat porter lodge. tata!!! thanks for coming...lenkali datang lagi.. leh kitaorg makan free lagi..hehehe...

tapi malam ini tak berakhir di situ.. hehehe ada tayangan movie... skrin besor.. cerita lady boss.. *oii kerinting..jom balik... kalau takut dilambung ombak.. jgn tgk cerita ongbak..hehehehe* lawak gila laa..[status YM budak2 marjon pada waktu dan saat ini seme pasal cerita lady boss...cayalah korang!!!!] bila abis cerita tu...kitaorg pun mengemas la.. sambil2 tu...exco agama telah menghijack laptop exco multimedia dgn memasang lagu raya, serentak itu juga exco sukan telah merampas microphone dan mengkaraoke lagu2 raya... [nama2 exco terpaksa dirahsiakan...malu seh!!!!] ish2... budak2 ni.. dahsyat la korang! tapi takpe... modernisation doesnt mean westernisation... hehehe.. sila2...raya2...dah abis tu balik la..duk apa lagi kat situ.. tau la bilik tu best..

so malam aku tidak berakhir di situ.. aku sambung plak blog surfing malam ni.. baca entree2 terbaru kat blog2 fav aku. and sambil2 tu...menambah lagi list blog kat favorites aku.. dan aku terjumpa la satu blog page ni..nama nyer SentraalStation..list blog n blogger yg best!!! mmg best arr.. ada gak la one or two are in my fav list. Most blogger on the list are residing outside Malaysia.. studying or working... and some are Singaporean.. just check it out. i have requested to be on the list. hopefully approve la.. hehehe.. i have always envied those who have a circle of blogger friends.. bestnyer...

thats my day for today. it was raining cats n dogs today...cam kat m'sia plak.. lagi satu..baju Guess kat bilik aku ni...bila la tuan dia nak amek balik..aku buat reta sendiri baru tau..nangis!!!. k la i need to tuck in bed now..esok ada kelas ngan Prof Dr. Ansell..hehehe ala kelas TEYL ngan Steve... pagi lak tu..need to be in bed now!!! night everyone... take care n stay dry!! [musim ujan ni...]

movie night...

hmm its already 2.45am..AM..morning!! i can barely open my eyes.. but i still wanted to blog. gee..what a day.. 2 reasons. first reason, i bought 2pairs of shoes..yeay! dah ada kasut raya!!! and both ADIDAS... satu aku pilih...and satu lagi abang ijan pilihkan..malangnya dua-dua pasang aku kena bayar sendiri [wlaupun satu aku charge kat mama] WOW..!! [courtesy of watak jiran, Linda..hehehe] hehe..for the first time, Faizan did more shopping than me! wow!!! [again...] susah oo nak tgk mamat tu shopping banyak cam tu.. dahsyat ooo!! tapi dia shopping untuk family dia.. so kira ok la.. susah ek jadik anak sulung ni. abah pun nak kuar esok shopping untuk family.. tapi kalau nak kira.. aku pun shopping untuk family gak. slalu jer aku beli mcm2 kat mama, papa [err papa tak kot...], adik [esp adik..bnyk budak ni telan duit aku...mujur sorang jer adik aku.. kalau tak.. bankrap!!], abang aku yg dua ekor.. tok sah cakap la.. slalu jer diaorg pau duit aku [ehh ye ke? ke aku yg pau duit diaorg??? hmm...konpius.] hmm apapun bukan itu topik malam ni..

topik kita malam ni ialah.. movie night [otak weng pun ada ati mau blogging]! malam ni, setelah meng-ular-sawa-kan diri skali lagi kat rumah 30 tadi [sedap ooo roti jala tadi...].. budak2 ni ajak tgk movie.. tgk la cerita melayu lagi. cerita Lady Boss.. best gak arr. aku suka la cerita ni.. sbb lawak dia best. n cerita dia ada la motif dan mesej nyer.. takde la lawak semata2. so best la. dan kemudiannya...movie kedua ialah Madagascar.. walaupun dah tgk masa malam besday Sal, kecuali Sophy.. sbb dia tak ikut malam tu, and Laylee plak telah mengconfess dia tgk cerita tu tiap2 hari masa dia balik m'sia ari tu sbb adik dia ada CD cerita tu.. kitaorg ttp gak tgk cerita tu.. sbb cerita tu mmg best!! best oo tgk movie malam2 cam ni.. ramai2. dgn sound system yg gempak [courtesy of Sophie...] apa cerita pun jadi best dgn sound sytem yg setaraf ngan sound system kat panggung!!!! dan dgn refreshment Kari kepala Ikan Salmon yg berukuran 24 inci yg telah dikerjakan oleh aku ngan Sophy... dicicah plak dgn roti [courtesy Abah...], dan di hidang dgn air kopi [abang ijan tolong buat..kopi sumbangan Laylee...] ohh ye... CD cerita madagascar telah di sumbangkan oleh Kak fiza [partner in crime Abah...hehehehe] wah hebat malam ni.. kalau macam ni slalu kan best.. sronok apa.. aku takde apa pun nak cerita sebenarnya. sekadar berkongsi kemeriahan malam ni.. best oo..

with friends like this.. u just treasure life better.. dont we, guys? agenda ujung minggu depan.. abah dah janji nak wat kuih raya!!! yeay... abah nak wat kuih raya!!!! yahuuuuuu...

k la aku nak masuk tido dulu la.. ngantuk la beb!..tak leh nak bukak mata dah ni.. dah la siang tadi aku ukur bandar ngan faizan.. huhuhu.. letih oo...

the other part of me...

or should i put it as the part of me that have been left behind.. ohh before i go on, i should say this.. just to make it clear. this entree is not in any way connected to 'aku pun nak jadi loser la..' it is a part of me that has been left behind... long before all that and all this is even in the picture..

once upon a time...in a far away land, there live a girl who live in her own world..She was ALONE, LOST & CONFUSED..but then she decide to close her life from other people. decide to live her life her way.. tho she was barely 15.. what kept her alive in this real world is unknown till this very day... but today she lives.. as a wonderful young lady who is eager to explore the real world.. tho sometimes, she slip back into the magical world of her own...

hahaha...it does seems like a fairy tale ek? i guess fairy tales do come true..only now the girl is still waiting for her prince charming to arrive on a white horse with sword in the air...wah!! cam cerita Pretty Woman la plakk....

whatever it is.. what happen then is history.. a lost history.. it was never written down.. no one really knows what happen...or how it happen..or what happen after that. hmm suddenly i remembered all that..

how she live in the cold dark days and nights.. those tears.. those silent cries...no one within reach.. no one to reach out.. ALONE!!!

she didnt even know where she was that time.. feel unwelcomed... no where to go. not even to the place that is supposed be the most safest place for lots of people.. LOST...

at one point, she tried to reach out.. only to find its the biggest mistake she has ever made. but she was told everytime and everywhere that..it is the right thing to do. but in reality its not.. CONFUSED...

but she never regret for what has happened. she learns.. and keep on learning. what it has made her today is wonderful..

yes she has left it all behind.. but never forgotten.. cause its a reminder what and how she has been thru all that.. and what it has make her today, nothing to some people but certainly something for her.. the strength to go on.. even when you are alone, lost n confused...

but i guess.. everyone has a part of them to be kept closed.. private and confidential.. she dont blame them. bcos she has learned to keep that part of her to herself as she has learned not to share it with another soul. she has been thru it all *alone*.. why share the experience of the cold harsh bitter side of life with those young and wild hearts? let them bite their own share... they will live.. she did.. wonderfully...

*ye la ye la...org quote la.. kang kata kita plagarise plakkk... hmm tajuk blog hari ni.. the other part of me [abah, 2005]. thanks abah for the inspiration today.. those who inspire me to write shines the most...

memoir of me...

8 months has passed since i left home and calling this small but happening 4-bedroom house HOME.. i can still remember how i look back from the car as Mama drove away..the last sight of HOME. i can still remember the smell of the morning, 5am to be exact.. to catch my flight to KL in the coldness of Subuh [walaupun tak sesejuk autumn ni....], i can still remember my last dinner in M'sia.. KFC!!! not to forget 3slices of pizza.. i can still remember the taste of Mama's air susu i drank for breakfast that morning [for the fact its nescafe with lots of susu tepung n gula.. dont know why Joe n Jaja call it air susu.. moi just follow..] its amazing how i can still remember that, i cant recall a single thing i learn in IT class this afternoon.. what were we doing? =D ngeeee.... gosh i have spend a almost a week doing my 8 months memoir.. only waiting to be burn on to a CD [thanks abah for the CD]. All those sleepless nights, all those supposed-doing-homework hours, all those burned- reading-hours.. all gone to the memoir.. but the results was heartwarming. A 15minutes show.. stretch over 18 fully-animated slides.. complete with 4 carefully-selected songs as background music. agak2 terharu tak bila tgk?? hmm i have put all my heart n misses to the show..kalau tak tersentuh gak tak tau la... this CD is the last piece of things im sending home this Raya. hope they will enjoy it. just a piece of me sent home for Raya..

anyway.. im still drown in other things. i havent give any moment thinking about what should i really write today. ohh maybe i should go out.. or maybe i should read more. life is full of maybeS... maybe for now what i should be doing is.. pegi semayang terawih!!! sbb pasni, aku janji nak lepak kat bilik Laylee... untuk buang masa...

tgk la kalau malam karang aku ada idea nak menulis.. semalam mereka bercerita mengenai kematangan.. tapi aku dah pernah menulis mengenainya. baru sgt lagi.. path of maturity. hmm we'll see...see how it goes.. take care everyone. good night all.. and thanks for the pot luck makan2 today ya... kenyang cam ular sawa aku!!! BOOAAAKKKK....Alhamdullilah...

thank you ladies n gentleman

it wasnt really my intention to skip class today.. usually i will automatically wake up around 9 to catch my 9.30class. i woke up around 6.45 for my subuh prayer. but i went back to sleep, only to find out i miss my class by half an hour. i was fairly sure i wanted to go to class today. will abah give that one-kind look if he finds out?hehehe semlm he already gave me the jeling for asking him 'abah..leh tak org tak nak gi kelas esok???' hehehehe... ntah eQin ni..camne nak dpt 1st class degree camni?? kelas pun tak mau gi..but i told u...it wasnt my intention to skip class today. sowee!! anyway.. i have a powerpoint slide to prepare for tomorrow. last 2weeks homework pun havent totally complete yet.. and i dont know what have i been doing lately.. lost in translation. weh... perangai cam ni? ada hati nak sambung master? kem salam je la eQin... and i just found out that the sis, the one who i really like her blog, is currently doing her PhD thesis... me have PhD too... wah Sophie! u r not alone la.. me with u hehehehe... ok enough crap now. got to get back to work.. siap kan homework darl... ishh budak ni..

waa....aku nak main gak!!!

Sabtu lepas..call rumah. Joe cakap Aja nak beli roket cam thn lepas lagi.. huhuhu.. bestnyer!!! Aku jeles…nak main gak… tahun lepas pun aku yg mintak.. sbb dulu kechik2 slalu main. Aku ingat lagi.. baju raya aku pernah terbakar ooo… sbb main bunga api. Tahun lepas aku siap beli sendiri sbb nak main punya pasal… pastu Joe cakap nak buat video cam thn lepas gak… waaa!!! Aku jeles…aku jeles… nak jugak!!! Pastu tgh hari sabtu lepas…Laylee n Sophie ajak aku pegi ASDA…pegi winter shopping. Aku malas..tapi aku teringat plakk aku nak kena cari jacket nak pakai winter ni. Baju2 winter lepas yg aku ada rasanyer cam nipis jekk.. so aku pun melangkah la ke ASDA… skali tu aku tgk kat ASDA ada sealmari bunga api n mercun di jual… WOW!!! Bestnyer… ehh kawan2 meh la kita borong satu almari!!!! Aku geram jer tgk roket2 tu.. murah lak tu.. 4 batang baru £2.47.. best wooo… kalau convert pun tak sampai rm20. pastu aku tgk bunga api yg cam aku slalu main.. sekotak 5 batang 47p..hmm aku sorang jer kena ada 2 kotak.. baru puas main.. baru puas ati…kalau takat bagi aku main sebatang..hmm buat lekat celah gigi jer..

Then tadi pas buka puasa budak2 ni ajak gi ASDA lagi.. hmm satu jer dlm otak aku..aku mmg target nak beli mercun yg satu set tu sekotak, roket 4batang, bunga api 2kotak. Pastu main kat padang.. kalau ujung minggu ni ker main..mesti bestkan. Pastu amik video, gambar bnyk2 pastu nanti burn dlm CD. Faizan balik m’sia nanti kirim je la kat dia.. suruh bagi kat Aja.. hehehe mesti Joe jeles gila tgk mercun aku muahahahahahahhaha… gelak evil.. tapi tadi tak dapat nak beli sbb dah lewat..dah lebih kul 10mlm. Waaaaaa……!!!!! Keciwa nyer aku…. Huhuhuhu… ikutkan hati aku esok aku nak balas dendam gi ASDA lagi pas kelas. Beli berkotak2..biar puas hati.. main sampai muak2..

wahhh… tak sabarnyer.. jom la.. kita beli mercun. Kita share la ramai2.. main sama2.. beli yg sekotak besar tu. Set super blast tu cam best jer.. pastu kita beli roket 4 batang. Pastu bunga api tu..suka ati la nak main banyk mana. Beli la 10 kotak pun aku tak heran.. Gian oo main benda ni.. dah main nak lagi…mesti gempak la kolej..silap ari bulan pakcik kat porter tu dtg plak join skali hehehehe… sbb tu la kena main time ujung minggu..takde org kat kolej. Baru syok… ishh korang..dont get me started ekk… aku antu sket bab2 raya ni.. dari baju raya, kuih raya, lagu raya, main mercun n bunga api..dont even let me say DUIT RAYA …aku tak kira.. Faizan must bagi kitaorg duit raya tahun ni. Haa abang Ijan [uweekkssss..yikes!!] jangan lupa ekk duit raya kitaorg..walaupun abang ijan terpaksa bertugas di pagi raya, duit raya kitaorg kena set aside awal2... hahahah.. sadis oo…sedih la plakk! Dah la kerja…siap ada on-call tu..sampai kul 9.30mlm. ada jer aku tunggu dia balik kerja mlm tu.. duit raya nyer pasal! Tapi cam keji la plak kan…bukan nak kirim rendang ngan ketupat.. nak rompak duit raya plakk ngan dia..hehehe..tapi bila lagi nak cari alasan nak merompak duit dia…kali ni je la.. silap ari bulan, thn depan dia dah kawin daa.. dah tak merasa nak kutip duit raya ngan abang ijan [camne la bleh panggil si faizan tu abang??? Huhuhu…kekurangan kasih sayang tul la..]

hmm I think that’s it for tonite. Esok ada kelas pagi. 3jam TEYL…mampus la aku. Sure petang besok aku crash dgn dahsyat nyer cam tadi.. dgn tanpa rasa bersalah..balik kelas tadi aku crash sampai la kul 6 ptg..bgn2 jer dah leh bukak puasa… hampeh tol la eQin ni..tak produktif langsung.. hmm takpe la. Esok jer la aku pikir lagi. Nak gi buat reading untuk esok.. then aku nak tuck in bed.. so good night abang ijan… good night abah.. good night laylee.. good night sally, good night awok.. good night sophie.. and sweet dream too… I love u guys all my heart!!

it is not enough....

argggghhhh.... stress stress!! i have dozens of things to do today. i did quite a handful of things.. such as winter shopping.. netball training.. call home.. not to mention cari gaduh ngan my brother [before i loose him to someone else....uiks...tak menahan.. just hoping no one will read this anyway..] i also berjaya dan dgn jayanya bangun lambat lagi today.. dan dgn tanpa rasa bersalahnyer mengadap laptop menyiapkan my memoir instead of doing the powerpoint homework, or the summary for TEYL.. or doing the little bit of reading.. or the list of other things that i should be doing are endless.. why do i choose to do that memoir even though it almost make me swear every other minute... why?? lets leave that hanging there.. let tuck in bed and hope to wake up tomorrow without the urge to switch on the laptop till after 2pm... lets hope for that...the only way i could get things done.. ok enough said. time to tuck in bed. good night eQin.. good morning M'sia..

sunshine isnt enough...

such a lovely day today! Lets go out n play!!!! but steve said: Ya..its a lovely day..lets not go out n play..cos we have some serious reading to do... ahh thats too bad!!! apapun..selepas 2 hari aku tak nampak cahaya matahari...hari ni it is shining so bright. and the wind is blowing just as hard. a great combination on an autumn day.. bright sunshine n cold winds. but sunshine isnt enough to give me what to write today. i have nothing in mind. absolutely nothing. i have been thinking n thinking about what to write. and it came back nothing. maybe... just maybe tomorrow could be a better day. maybe i could write more tomorrow.. after all i dont have class tomorrow... so to finish today's mental block here is a song from the movie Annie.. the story bout an orphan adopted by a rich man..

Tomorrow

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun

Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none

When I'm stuck with a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And grin,
And say,
Oh

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may

Tomorrow
Tomorrow
I love ya
Tomorrow

You're always
A day away

i can hear the sound of the blender.... and that means one mochachito from our very own *sabaq la starbak* is one the way... i can also smell the forever on demand cekodok ikan bilis from the kitchen...im off to the kitchen, serangan akan berlaku sebentar lagi..so till tomorrow... stay safe..b good.. semoga hari esok menjanjikan seribu lagi kebahagian.. good night UK n good morning M'sia... =( suddenly miss home so much...emails...feed me with emails from home...

aku pun nak jadik LOSER jugak la..

hmm kenapa ek..dah beberapa kali blog2 yg aku baca hari2, slalu menceritakan pasal menda2 yg sama. hari ni, skali lagi.. aku baca 2 blog yg isinyer hampir sama. padahal 2 blog tu langsung takde kaitan.. dan kenapa ek.. 2 blog yg aku baca tu sama dgn apa yg aku nak tulis mlm ni. seolah-olah memberi aku persediaan mental plak nak melalui hari esok. esok..13 Oktober.

kalau aku terus bercerita...ini kali ke3 aku bercerita mengenainya. aku tak pasti bila semua ini akan berakhir. tapi aku rasakan dan aku harapkan semua ini akan berakhir di sini. harapan aku setinggi langit, ini adalah kali terakhir aku menulis tentang dia. aku marah... usaha ku selama 3 bulan sia-sia dgn kehadiran sebaris ayat dlm email itu. satu ayat saja.. maka dgn itu, yg lain semua leh buang kat laut! kemudian dgn semudah itu juga dia pergi. aku marah lagi. *KO INGAT HIDUP AKU NI UNTUK KO KER??* tapi kehadiran hari esok merupakan satu lagi tarikh yg aku pilih sendiri..esok aku kena decide. untuk terus berharap atau biarkan ia berlalu pergi.

8bulan lalu aku pernah memilih untuk biarkan ia berlalu pergi. semakin hari, aku semakin pening memikirkannya. adakah esok aku akan membuat keputusan yg sama? mampukah aku melalui keadaan itu skali lagi? 8bulan dulu mungkin lebih mudah bagi ku. aku memulakan hidup baru. tempat baru. keluarga baru. teman2 baru. tiada satu pun yg mengingatkan aku tentang dia. tapi hari ini, dan esok juga...aku akan terus menatap skrin ini. skrin yg menjadi penghubung aku dgn dia. buat seketika. skrin ini telah menjadi saksi aliran air mata ku.. betapa kejamnya dia. aku menangis bukan kerana aku sedih akan kehilangan dia, tapi sbb aku marah. itu sahaja yg aku mampu buat. *LOSER!!!!!* aku selalu memikirkan dia. mengenepikan perasaan aku. memudahkan hidup dia. aku tahu dia pun marah pada aku. tapi ini keputusan aku. mengenepikan perasaan aku dan mungkin juga perasaan dia. kadang2 aku terfikir. aku kah yg kejam? aku kah yg degil? tapi sebenarnya aku yg takut. skali lagi *LOSER!!!!!*. takut untuk hadapi semua itu sekali lagi. lebih rela hidup dalam safe zone aku. *SUPER LOSER!!!!!!!*

tapi aku rasa, cukuplah setakat ini. takperlu lah aku berharap lagi. dah banyak kali aku merekodkan yg keputusan aku buat tu betul. yg keputusan aku buat itu adalah yg terbaik untuk aku dan dia. untuk semua orang. tapi sebanyak kali itu jugalah aku mencabar keputusan aku sendiri. what if...? what if...? sudahlah! semua itu kehidupan seorang LOSER!! dan kali ini skali lagi aku membuat keputusan, yg mana di saat ini, skali lagi aku masih tidak pasti, akan kebijaksanaan keputusan aku ini. tapi aku tahu...bila tiba masanya nanti, aku akan pasti bersyukur inilah yg terbaik. dan pastinya aku tidak akan menyesal. mungkin hari ni, saat ini, aku belum pasti akan semua itu. tapi aku tahu...dan pasti, masanya akan tiba.

janji ku kali ini..ini yg terakhir. sekadar refleksi masa lalu. bukan untuk menyesali. buat peringatan masa depan. janji ku kali ini...

Kiroro- Miraie (The Future)

Look, watch your step
This is your path
Look, watch in front of you
That is your future

Mother gave me so much kindness
Holding on to love, I refrained as I walked
At that time I was still young and didn't know the meaning
She grabbed the innocent me tightly
and walked together

Since dream is always high up in the sky
I am afraid of not reaching it, however I continue to pursue it
Her own story, because of it, I don't want to give up
When I felt anxious, she grabbed me tightly
and walked together

That kind of kindness, sometimes I dislike
I cannot be docile to my separated mother

Look, watch your step
This is your path
Look, watch in front of you
That is your future

That kind of kindness, sometimes I dislike
I cannot be docile to my separated mother

Look, watch your step
This is your path
Look, watch in front of you
That is your future

Look, watch your step
This is your path
Look, watch in front of you
That is your future
Facing the future
Walk slowly toward it

the cry of an unsecure heart

their GA is cute..but our GD is even cuter...

boy boy... today is Sal's first match with Marjon's team. and being supportive n sporty.. some of us come and cheer... so did i. we lost..but it was a good game. i cant help notice that the other team's GA is comel [faizan think so too...hehehe] but of course our dear GD [proud to say it is SAL!!!!!]is even comel-er.. and the GA wasnt in the team bcos of her good look [she could be in the cheerleading] she plays well..good infact! and our GD wasnt in the team bcos of her good look too... hehe when Sal's was guarding her.. the GA didnt even touch the ball. Good play Sal!! and the best thing to notice. Sal didnt even give her a single inch to move...*hahahah evil laugh* rapat gila!! she was outrage i think...and the best part of cheering.. PELUK DIA SAL!! TARIK JE RAMBUT DIA MEK SAL!! CUCUK MATA DIA!!! hehehe... and Faizan was cheering too... SAYANG BOLA!!!! hehehe Sudi's bit was AIM ELOK2 BOLA TU!! gosh people people!!! we are not in M'sia!!! but i think all that was just part of us being supportive to Marjon's team n most of all to SAL.. ya.. i hope we could come to every game from now on. it is just an hour really.. that much i could do for a friend. So..thats it. a review of the first match of the season! hope more to come!!

today was a very stressful day..bad weather. cloudy wet dark misty n cold. again for no obvious reason i choose to crawl under the duvet instead of doing my reading. but i think it is what i should do. for some reason... taking a nap this afternoon save me alot of unwanted outrage n stress. glad!

and today for no obvious reason.. i added more blog to my read list. ohh... how i wish i could do that with my reading for academic stuff. willingly adding more and more things to read.. but ya as i said.. i read what pleasures me.

and as i am typing this, i am listening to a song about friendship. and having a doctor as a friend does have a plus point. hehhehe.. today he brought more medication for us... thanks dude! kalau aku tau la, duk kat UK ni akan dpt kawan ngan dokter...takde nyer aku nak angkut satu farmasi tu dtg UK!! huh.... i dont like taking medication..but there is certain medication i cant live without.. vicks, tiger balm, minyak gamat n minyak angin cap kapak. other than that i try to avoid using or even getting near it.

hmm... today, more good food! sedap weh...and i am not talking about any of it anymore. hahaha it will just getting better n better. *yawn* another big yawn... and another.. better be in bed now if i want to go to class tommorow. 9.30am Language support with the daughter of ayah pin. gosh she is a nightmare!! time to tuck in bed now..nice n warm.. good night ppl. stay safe n take care!!

My blog should be PURPLE

so it says. just bcos i am expressive off beat blogger that writes about anything n everything n all about myself [which is very true i must say..remember..i am a 7 yr old girl who is very ego centric! my world revolves around me..not u!]. but ya..i have the colour purple in mind when i build this site.. i cant deny the fact that it is still dominated by pink. but what the heck...what do i care.. its my blog. and i can cry if i want to.. [im sensing a kind of pattern here.. when i am angry or pissed off..i tend to express my rage n anger, then i cool down saying what the heck...hehehe]

i have a number of issues/ideas to write about today...but most of it just passing thru my mind. im having a severe headache as we speak[i feel burning hot..all inside me..literally! nak demamkah aku?] so i cant really recall half of my thoughts. but i was bloghopping or blogsurfing this afternoon.. two of the few blogs [the numbers just keep growing by day..] was talking about food. u remember i told u about the brit living in m'sia..he was writing about pasar malam [the thing that i miss the most of all good things in M'sia..] or as the occasion arrises, pasar ramadhan. the best n biggest n endless source of superbly delicious food! he was talking about some of my personal favourites that are beyond our kitchen capability. *sob sob*. or in other words i cant possibly beg Sophy or Sal to make it for me.. huhuhu

someone in madrid.. another blogger i have been stalking..hehee..is feeling exactly the same kind of feelings i have now. MALAS. yesterday, lepas balik dari ASDA, i dont feel a bit sleepy.. after a while, sitting in front of the laptop, i shut my window skrin, i crawl into my duvet, hug my lion, and drift away...and i was asleep for an hour. then i woke up, i cant believe i was turning n tossing in bed for another half an hour, feeling so dreadfully lazy to wake up. and this morning it was even worse, i manage to wake up at 7am. jump out of bed as soon as i open my eyes. quickly brush my teeth n perform my subuh prayer. then i attend to my schoolwork. then at 8am, although i know i have class at 9, i almost very conviniently crawl back under the duvet for half an hour.. then drag my self to maths class and pretend to pay 100% attention by nodding n writing notes ocasianally, though half of the times i dont even listen to what she is saying...then later to science class[we did a pin-hole camera today] and in the afternoon.. to english class, where we can act our shoe size again. [yeay!!] hopping tommorow will be a better day...

today the parcel from mama has arrived. i have realised that i need to be careful with what i tell my mom n now i figure out why half of the time i tell her nothing bout my life [esp what happen in skool, when i was in KL and even now when i am here in UK]. bcos everytime i open my mouth about something..usually im complaining, she will do everything she can to attend to me. even to the extend, sending me an umbrella all the way to UK, as i was saying i dont have one.. MOM!! gosh i need to keep my mouth shut! and ya eQin, u cant possibly use ur status as mama's princess to get away with everything ya.. u need to be more responsible ya!! be more reasonable too.. [erghh!! kenapa? kenapa? kenapa? kenapa mesti sekarang baru nak mintak this n that???kenapa tak dulu??? huhu bcos i know mom is spending her last cent towards Joe's wedding... huhuhu denying the fact i am jealous!! waaaaaa T_T] face it eQin..u r far far away from home! u cant possibly get mama to send eveything to u.. u terrible girl! it cost alot darling...

overwhelmed..too many thoughts but nothing significant to really talk about! ohh ya.. hehe congrats and a pat for myself for finishing my homework before blogging today. and today, i was given another source of motivation to work even harder. abah get an A for his folio!! and there was like only other 3 ppl get an A too.. CONGRATS abah!! u r such brilliant [huhu as oppose to me who is half of the time is not sure about my spelling]. with such severe headache i manage to write this long and i am still finding things to cramp into this entree bcos im so much in love with 'bila abah balik nanti' entree just bcos its long n full of things that happen in my life. another reason i want it to be long bcos i have a couple of non valid entree...hehehe [another excuse..] i am sooo addicted to blogging now..

hmm suddenly remembered, when i was still blogging in friendster, when i was still addicted to ebay, i was searching for something else to occupy me, or amuse me as i like to put it, and now i have found it. BLOG: reading and writing! why do i write? well, most of the time, i write to share about my life, although i am fairly almost very sure no one reads my blog more religiously than me myself [well no suprise about me being self obsess!!]. the reason i really love bloghopping or blogsurfing is i like to read. i like to read what pleasures me.. not and nothing about what wallace have to say about classroom investigation. it has been awhile since i last held a good book. its easy to get away from reading a good book when u have a nice good pile of very entertaining dvds. need to get back, need to read more!

since i have ran out of colour, i shall make this my last paragraph before concluding. and i shall think of something, one thing really significant about to write. and i have decided to talk about the food we have today. Alhamdullilah [tho it should be at the top of the entree..], we have so much to eat today. thanks to Sophy who endlessly try so many different kind of cooking in order to extend her cullinary skills with me in the background lurking around to find what next to eat or at least squeezing my brain to think for something else for her to try..hehehehe.. VERY VERY MUCH APPRECIATED GURL!! sedap sedap sedap!! and back to the topic, its my turn to cook today, and after a great nasi ayam presentation by mc woo yesterday, my tom yam today was under-rated. nowhere near... and ya.. not forgetting the pulut panggang version plymouth-cooked under the grill, wrapped with aluminium foil- then the seri muka.. taste as good as the one sold in pasar malam or pasar ramadhan. puding jagung in susu. a treat from house30. many thanks!!! baked pasta or i-dont-know-whats-the italian-name nicely done by laylee, and last but not least, begedil orang malas..made from self minced chicken fillet n instant mashed potato -prepared by ME [sapa lagi yg malas dlm rumah ni???] and it was all washed down by current obssesion n outrage n revenge [for not having starbuck outlet in plymouth], ice blended mocha [nescafe+cadbury hot choc+milk]topped with profesionally done whipped cream made in our very own sabaq la starbak! NICE!!!

and so thats it. my day for today. i have took more than 2hours to write this entree including 2 trips to the loo..2 short chats and gulping down 2 bottles of tap water [when i say tap water..i really mean tap water.. org UK tak masak air. minum jer terus dari paip. well, i put it in my drinking bottles] hehe...homework done. blogging done. time to be in bed. till then, take care everyone. stay safe be good..n good night!

this cant be true...TIPU!!!!

i get this from a blog i have been stalking for the past few days...hehehe.. try it... tho i think its not true..

how can i act older than i am..im 21..and im supposed to act like im 12, well thats if, im not acting my shoe size, which is 7, anyway here goes...how old i am really...

You Are 22 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

warghhh jeles!! jeles...

waaaaaa.... nak masuk paper jugak!!! waaa....tadi tgk salam perantauan. tak aci la.. kak has n kak faizah dah masuk paper...kita nak jugak!! laylee...bila gambar kita nak kluar?? hmm kita tak nak hantar satu rumah nyer ker? meh la amek gambar.. gambar kita 7 org!! leh masuk paper.. huhhuhuhu...

saya ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya kepada mama n papa, abang-abang, serta adik di kuantan.. warghhh!! jeles2...jeles tahap abadi!!!!

seperti yg ku duga.. wahahahaha... bgn lambat..till this moment, aku masih menatap skrin laptop ni.. so skarang aku nak pegi menyusun kertas2 yg masih berterabur dari sem lepas..selepas aku campakkan semuanyer ke bawah meja ini... tak sanggup lagi ku melihat kertas2 itu setelah assignment sem lepas aku hantar!! so.. tiba lah masa nyer untuk kertas2 itu bermastautin dlm file2 yg berkenaan...adios..aku masih jeles...JOM LA KORANG!!!!! amek gambar petang ni jugak...!!!!!!

Dari jauh ku pohon maaf.. [lagu raya peberet tahun ini...]

Dalam dingin subuh hatiku terusik, [dingin autumn more likely]
Kenang nasib diri di rantauan,
Bergema takbir raya,
menitis air mata,
Terbayang suasana permai desa, [kampung kat marjon ni permai jugakk....]

Rindu hati ini inginku kembali,
Pada ayah bonda dan saudara,
Tetapi aku harus mencari rezeki, [i wonder??? more like perabih rezeki jerr...]
Membela nasib kita bersama... [membela nasib anak bangsa..ahaks!!!]

( korus )
Hanya ku sampaikan doa dan kiriman tulus ikhlas, [check kat utusan...kot2 la ada muka aku..ehek!!]
Dari jauh kupohonkan ampun maaf,
Jangan sedih pagi ini tak dapat kita bersama,
Meraikan aidil fitri yang mulia... [makan bersama more likely]
Restu ayah bonda kuharap selalu,
Hingga aku pulang kepadamu...

( ulang korus )
Restu ayah bonda kuharap selalu,
Demi anakmu yang kini jauh... [jauh ooo...merentas benua...waaaa!!!!!]

tu la...sapa suruh tido siang???

its 3 am...and im typing this away while chatting wit Honey in aussie. nothing much.. just some catching up. she is doing good there.. i cant sleep n im hungry..but im too lazy to go to the kitchen to see if there is still mashed potato i made [stir more likely..] for dinner. ishh lapor la plakk...

jam sophie dah berbunyi..and jap lagi dia bgn la tu untuk sahur.. aku? muffin blueberry ada seketol lagi.. tak di lupakan coklat, kacang n air paip!!

kenapa la aku bijak pandai sgt pegi tido petang tadi...kan ke dok nganga kat sini... jap lagi, aku nak turun..buat coffee in my double mug. biar tak tido sampai mlm besok!! hmm another lesson well learned: jgn tido petang unless penat nak mati!!!

on 2nd thought...aku dah mula ngantuk...hmm sahur je la. pastu masuk tido...kul 7 bangun! we got alot to do tomorrow.. one whole long list... so good night everyone! take care..n sleep tight!! stay safe... i couldnt type properly..another sign that i have to be in bed NOW!!!!

bila abah balik nanti...

spontan jer ayat tu kluar... tapi itula buktinya..how we felt as a family [yeay im not alone...], yesterday was enriching, we took a picture together..all 7 of us. 7 wonders of the world... ehek! it certainly will be one picture i am going to love forever.. i will definately print it and frame it...big!!! sometimes i wonder. how can we click like that? how can we just molded into one.. its a mystery.. an unsolved mystery!

but thats not the reason i write today..it is an amusement that has to end this morning... the night before, woo suddenly find something that amuse her to the max.. u know, when u sit cross leg, u hit ur knee with something, it will somehow reflex? its something about ur reflexes n nerves...[ayo..ada betoi ka aku eja ini???]. it all started the night before, after dikir practice, and goes on till yesterday evening before the show..and because laylee had to return the instrument, the amusement had to stop too.. anyway, they found it so amusing...and they were laughing n laughing n laughing..and they get me to laugh with them.. and it soon affected to abah n faizan too.. and we all laugh!! im amuse to find that it amuse them that much!! it has been long since i heard woo laugh that happy!! it was totally fun...

last night was the third international night.. we decided to recycle the dikir barat show. and as ussual, we rock the show!! no suprise.. nada!!and today..

i totally enjoy steve's class today..we are working on stories. we get to act, we get to draw, we get to tell stories.. it was fun. we went out again.. we acted out the Giant Potato Story and Martyn was laughing at us from his window..but i decided to spend my whole afternoon..SLEEPING!!! im not sure why, no matter how much sleep, it seem i never get enough. i wasn't this lazy to drag my self out of bed even during my summer holidays.. is the quality of my sleep is decreasing? what happen? is the fact that im no longer pyhsically active effect my sleep quality? my ankle still hurt sometime.. it has been so long now. i need to get back on track..

well speaking of my latest addiction.. blog: reading n writing, i found a few that really make my day.. i cant remember how i landed on their blog.. but this particularly one wrote by a sis..lives here in britain. she writes about her everyday lives..what really happen n why.. i like it bcos i can relate to it. there is another one wrote by a guy living in m'sia, he is good too. gives me the touch back home.. and another one wrote by a brit who is living in m'sia. another perspective living abroad.. and of course, my all time favourites are the ones wrote by my friends.. a small window to what has been going on in their mind. but sometimes.. this addiction takes up alot of my time. i need to allocate time to blog.. unlike some ppl, i can blog whenever i want to.. i dont have to wait till certain time. which i think is bad! bcos i end up blogging instead of doing the thing that im supposed to.. and diciplines isnt my best department [my best department is: bazir duit n masa..ehek!!=p] ok then, put it on my to do list...which reminds me that i have a whole long list to catch up this weekend!!!

first thing to do tomorrow morning [i mean, 8am..not 11am ekk eQin dearie!!!], paste up TEYL assignment results as a source of motivation.. WORK WORK WORK!!! WORK HARD!!! it pays..not in ££££ [too bad...if not i would sure worked harder than ever...] hmm..bank account: critical condition... nothing! kering kontang! kemarau! yada nada!! yelek.. please bank in my money sooonn!! pleaseeeeeeeeeeee....nak beli baju raya!! nak beli coat winter....

something to look forward tomorrow! parcel from mama!! baju raya!!!!! yeay yeay yeay...love u mama!!! thanks..

Learning space...its MY space..

Voila..... im pretty impressed with what the college have on the net right now for the student.. what i am not impressed is..we are not part of it.. GOSH!! terrible... how come we are not enrolled to any course??? hmm im not complaining or anything.. but what they have there is pretty cool..its like another friendster account..or myspace account [only i dont have one] only to be more... academic. online. private. organised. u know, im good at organising with things on the net or if it requires me to sit infront of the computer putting things at the right place..... conventional way! and it is a totally different case when it comes to organise the clutter on the table =p. [excuse, excuse, excuse n more excuse..hheheheh]

gosh terrible2 eQin...bila tah nak organise all those papers n all... goodness eQin. u need to get organise!! where is Sue?? she usually complain about my stuff lying around on the floor cos she cant vacuum the carpet properly. usually i will clear up the clutter. only recently, i have no intention, what so ever, to do anything about my life... nothing!! well it is pretty busy transition week. i have started to wake up earlier by day. only i have a meeting with Paul Gentle, my DEAN!! at 9.30am tomorrow morning. i better get some sleep now.. and bad move eQin..u know u have IT homework [thats the main reason u went to Learning Space!!!!], but all u did was typing this blog entree n now u r telling me u r going to sleep??? one word answer: YUP!!! accompany with a big grin!

so..nite nite everyone!! take care...tommorow ada international night! i have tonnes of work to do... still good night!!

Mengapa harus cinta...

Mendungnya pagi ini bagai memahami erti lambaian rambutmu bisakah kita hatiku nak bersatu kasih pun terbina namun cita membawamu oh jauh dariku ~c/o: mengapa harus cinta perlu ada yang berpisah oh tak ku mungkin mengerti mengapa harus kasih pastikan jua berakhir sayang tak sanggup ku menanggung pilu ini ~masih di fikiran getarmu mata bertemu di hati terasa oh debaran cinta keayuan wajahmu merdunya suara kini tinggal oh kenangan hingga ke akhirnya ~ulang c/o ikhlas ku berdoa pada yang Esa kan ku kenang apa erti selamanya...

hari tu tgk cerita lawak best kat rumah Dr. Fariza... Sembilu 2005 -lawak gila tahap cipan bukit bertapa 8 bulan 2minggu 11hari punya...tak berhenti2 gelak. tapi aku akui... cerita tu ada la mesej nyer walaupun aku masih kecewa dgn kualiti filem melayu. walau camne skali pun...aku nak cerita pasal lagu2 vince yg jadik soundtrack cerita tu...tetiba sedap la plakk lagu2 pakcik vince ni... one of it is this one MENGAPA HARUS CINTA.. anyway this song make me feel what i have done before is right..so now, i can move on without worrying. *sigh of relief...*

hmm 6hb ni besday kawan kita!!! eQin..jgn lupa wish dia!! hmm selain tu, puasa sehari semlm ok jer.. cuma lepas berbuka tu baru la terasa ke-dehydrate-an.. kekurangan air tahap maksimum.. ye la, hari biasa aku telan air sampai 10botol...mana taknyer! semlm mmg dahsyat gak la..sampai takleh nak tido.. hmm...hari plakk aku ok jer. cuma its my turn to cook today..n dgn bestnyer budak2 ajak Mr. Ng n Hj Kamar dtg makan kat umah!!!! waaaa...camne kalau aku masak tak jadi? tak sedap ker hangus ker...haa....kan ke payah tu!!! ishh korang ni... terpaksa la aku menipu sedikit sebanyak.. hehehe.. mlm ni kita mkn instant dinner ekk. dinner in bottles! tuang jer..pastu jadik la dia..tambah la garam secukup rasa... mashed potato pun aku wat yg instant nyer..

sehari dua ni cam takde idea nak menulis...hmm better put my head to focus on my studies. no more holiday.. enuf fun.. time to get seriyes.... i need to get back to my eQin's Day In time table.. the rewards come after u have worked hard darling!!! it shows... but first of all, i need to drag myself to wake up at 7am every morning!!! gosh!! terrible eQin.. lazy lass!! hmm i think thats all i can think of at the moment.. i got my assignment back today. havent really look at it.. planning to do it soon. really soon. ok. gtg... need to cook dinner today! take care, stay safe everyone!!

jasa muffin blueberry n air paip...

so hari ni warga Muslim kat UK ni dah start puasa...hehehe...aku pun skali la tu! dan dgn jayanyer seblm tido semlm aku telan muffin blueberry ngan minum air paip sebotol... maka itulah sahur aku untuk hari pertama puasa ini....

SLAMAT PUASA!!!! HAPPY RAMADHAN!!

apart from that, i have nothing else to report...tho we had a welcoming dinner for our lecturers from IPBA... Laylee wrote a wonderful report on it... click click! hmm...looking forward to today's buka puasa...

apart from that, i called home today, mama said baju raya dah siap!!! yeay!! gosh..cant wait! mama will post it tomorrow as she said. M'sia will start fasting on Wednesday.. [jari ku masih berbalut...walaupun its getting alot better...the bruise is no longer blue n scary, but its still there..] she promise to include some of my favourite raya cookies recipes...yeay!!! MOM u dont know how much i love you!!!!!!! im planning to bake some cookies for raya...just a pinch of home brought over. maybe over the weekend ker, ajak abah, laylee n faizan buat kuih raya!!. hmm bila nak gi beli baju raya ek? [cet..duit pun takde...lagi mau beli baju ker?]. gosh...eQin...get a life!! live in the reality....u havent done ur homework...n u have class like in an hour???

so thats it..terrible bad server n homework! got to go...c ya!! happy fasting guys!!! jangan ponteng ekk...hehehehe.. =p

kek lemon yg konpius...

kesian plakk bila aku terkenang kek lemon yg ada identiti krisis tu...hahaha...kek lemon tu actually rasa cam kek pisang! erk... ada cerita di sebalik kenapa kek tu jadi cam kek pisang.. satunyer sbb kena sumpah ngan doreen. masa tgh buat kek tu.. doreen dtg rumah, tgh makan pisang, pastu dia pun cakap..why not use this pisang?... so malam ni, doreen's dream come true... hahaha!!! anyway, its Allen's birthday cake... which was like a month ago... we didnt get the chance to celebrate it bcos he was on kelana convoy. so today is the ganti...

and the trick to actually ajak him to the house was cruel...we use such dirty method, manipulate his kindness n care for us...and of all ppl we pick SAL!!!! laylee n wok ran to the laundry room and ask him to take a look at Sal sbb dia sesak nafas...of all ppl, Sal? sesak nafas? but ya...it could happen... n i saw allen was running down the stairs... hey this is allen, we are talking about, he would jump to anything ..he will come running to anyone! we know u care..thats why the dirty trick..hehehe...hope u love it dude!!!

of all nights, if was particularly hard to find him tonite...we called his handphone 3times, called his house, we actually called almost every house to find him...gosh he is in the laundry room.. and as laylee had mention it...the laundry room look like guys changing room tonite.. [damn!!! i should have been there!!!] but ya...it was all for fun!! i really hope u love it allen!!

and i have to jump n run to my homework now...i will write again tommorow...

and to a friend, if u r reading this...im sorry cos i raised my voice to u today! sorry...i didnt mean it... i love u all my heart.. SORRY!!

warna warni hidup ku hari ini...

waduh...[erghh susah plak nak menaip setelah jari aku kena balut dek si doktor faizan ni tadi...] dari pagi tadi... perasaan yg ku lalui berubah2... dari malas... rajin... happy.. stress... sedih.. riang ria.. insaf.. nyesal.. alone... syukur.. semua ada! cukup!!nak recall semua cam malas plak...tapi kesimpulannya itu la hari ini... penuh dgn warna2 kehidupan...

macam2 yg berlaku...macam2 yg kitaorg buat...macam2 cerita yg kluar.. macam2 jenis orang datang rumah... macam2 kenangan yg tercipta..

hari ini, buat kali pertama aku meluahkan sesuatu yg terpendam... sejak2 aku meneruskan karier blogging aku kat blogspot ni, aku semakin kehilangan inspirasi untuk terus menulis.. nak kata aku kehilangan source...masih ada.. masih bersinar.. those who inspire me to write are still around n still shining.. and im still stealing a bit of their sunshine...

aku masih ada hati untuk terus menulis...cuma aku kehilangan arah kemana hasilnya tulisan aku ini..kerana aku percaya, blog ini umpama peta hidup aku.. apa yg terjadi hari ini, dan apa yg tertulis semalam, merupakan bayangan hari esok.. insyAllah..20thn lagi blog ini masih di sini...seboleh-bolehnya aku tak mahu aktiviti blogging ini terhenti..atas apa sbb jua. selama ini bnyk benda yg aku buat, terhenti separuh jalan...terlalu bnyk alasan kenapa ia berhenti.. kadang alasan tu aku yg create! memang betula la kata mama, aku ni mmg pandai..pandai cari alasan!! ada je yg tak kena. contohnyer sekarang, internet tgh gila dan aku bukan penyabar orangnyer.. ikutkan hati aku, esok je la aku sambung entree ni... tapi masih bnyk lagi aku nak cerita...

hmm esok aku nak mulakan minggu baru dgn hidup yg lebih teratur.. no more sesi bermalas-malasan..FOCUS!! kelas dah start…aku masih lagi dalam mode holiday.. insaf la wahai NURUL YAQIN!!! tak sedar2 lagi ker?? ntahla eQin... bila tah perempuan gila tak sedar diri nak bgn dari mimpi2nyer...

lagi beberapa hari jer lagi nak puasa..i hope on the first day puasa nanti, bukan aku yg kena masak... tak sanggup aku!! kalau tak jadi..kesian kat semua org..i hope on the first day puasa nanti, kitaorg leh buka puasa sama2. hmm..baru tadi cakap... i never felt this close to people... its true.. i never felt this belong to, calling its mine, and proud that im apart of it... the friend just smile n nodd.. no word came out..but i know, our hearts beat together, we are on the same wavelength...we felt the same way... i hope everyone else feel what we felt..

hmm...panjang plak entree ni..ingat nak tulis sket jer, dalam pada jari berbalut ni, leh plakk aku taip entree panjang2.. ehek!! takde alasan la tak leh taip assignment lenkali...=P k la..semua orang sayang eQin...tapi eQin sayang tak pada diri sendiri?? soalan yg perlu di tanya pada diri setiap malam sebelum tido... bermula malam ini..=) semoga hari ini permulaan untuk hidup yg lebih baik...semoga hari esok menjanjikan seribu lagi kebahagiaan..k c ya..take care..stay safe!