back date...

My darling…

Ok first of all, my darling is not my boyfriend [just in case you think this is mushy love note for him. Nope. It is not. So u can keep on reading. BUT it is still a love note …just not for him… ;)]

Remember more than a year ago…I posted an entrée about the death of my darling..that was the time Julie called her boyfriend ‘darling’ too….on her YM status it said.. My Darling is coming… but on my YM status… My Darling is dead. Huhu…sad wasn’t it? That was a real slap on the face. I admit I didn’t actually care about darling health care. To be frank..that was the time I least care about myself, what more others or for that matter darling’s. But her death was upsetting. I was devastated. Sad. Mourning. Most of all, im Lost. A total lost.

In my [used to be] room there are two windows I can look out to the outside world…one with the beautiful view of the sky if u lie on my [used to be] bed. The other let me into the borderless world. Without darling. My walk-in-closet is so quiet. Too quiet till it scares me. Im just lost without her. Im not sure of what to do. I just freeze without her. Imagine if Mary lost her little lamb. That’s how. That was the time when I used to lie down on my bed till my heads get dizzy [I cant lie for a very long time…I get headaches and it spins and spins…8 good night sleep is enuf for me] When I get dizzy..i went out for a jog or walk. I start looking after myself. Make sure I get all the vitamins and other nutrition I need. I took multivitamins, vitamin C and calcium tablets everyday without fail. My gum was suffering bcos i lack of calcium [or some other vitamins that I’m not taking enough].

After a month or so…Darling was returned to me. All alive and kicking. Ready to keep me company for my [so I thought] lonely summer days. I appreciate darling a little more than I used to. We never know what we have till we lost it. Since then, its weekly spa session for darling… deep cleaning and detox… including full facial care..and I still do it for her till today! I truly care for darling at that time.. and my self too. she is there night n day…when springs turn to summer… keeps me busy thru the autumn gust…keeps me warm thru the winter.. gosh I love darling too much!

Life was lifeless without Darling. She is my everything. I don’t think I can live without her again.

But I was half wrong. Actually there are limited things I can do with darling without the other window. [to be honest I would like to have both windows back… cos the one with the beautiful view of the sky is replaced with an ugly view of a construction site..yikes!] the other window…is taken away from me [consequently my blog suffer bcos of that]. Thus limiting darling’s use to doing assignments, entertainment [music n movies mainly..], and freecell [lame. I know!]. my PSP is dead. Still looking for the CD to put it in Darling.

Nonetheless, I still love Darling like before. It doesn’t change a bit. I still care and darling still get her weekly spa session. *hugs* I do love darling so much. After all, if it is not bcos of her…me and my summer friend *wink* [the one who keep makes my summer not lonely as I thought it would be...] couldn’t possible stay up all night chatting till morning comes…can we? Hehehe… can’t wait to break our 6 hours straight chat session record after you are done with ur exam!!!! It will be more challenging bcos we have to accommodate the 7hours time difference. And of course, I shall prep Darling for the event…oh yesh…

Dearest Darling, although I once neglect you.. I hope with the endless care and love showered upon you now... you would be delighted to stand by me through thick and thin for years to come.. I love you so much Darling.. can never ever replace you. My one and only.. *hugs*

28 may 2007

itsss sooo not fair!!!!

...huhu...kenapa???? mengapa???? isk isk....jeles betul saya.... bandingkan 2 gambar ini dan bagi tau yg mana lebih menarik...

isk...tgk la graph2 tuh...kaler2... cantik plakk tuh....huhu

and this one....didnt it reminds u of your childhood days....wicked eh?

my dissie contain just words and one table...tu pun aku curik kat buku...huhu...but yours is sooo pretty... it should be call 'My Beautiful Dissertation' like Liz suggested for mine... huhu


nonetheless, i had fun proof reading it tho i had to literally guess which is the noun,verb, or adjective..huhu *pening*

u soooo owe me ice cream! ;)

My Official Summer Song [2007]

Last year, i posted an official summer song. Corrine Bailey Rae, Put your records on.

This year, although im in Malaysia...i would like to post this song as my official summer song 2007.

Lily Allen, LDN...

...sing along..

Riding through the city on my bike all day
Cause the filth took away my licenceIt doesn't get me down and I feel ok
Cause the sights that I'm seeing are priceless
Everything seems to look as it should
But I wonder what goes on behind doors

A fella looking dapper, and he's sittin with a slapper
Then I see it's a pimp and his crack whore
You might laugh you might frown
Walkin' round London town

Chorus
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ?
Would I wanna be anywhere else
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ?
Would I wanna be anywhere else

When you look with your eyes
Everything seems nice
But if you look twice you can see it's all lies

There was a little old lady, who was walkin down the road
She was struggling with bags from Tesco
There were people from the city havin lunch in the park
I believe that is called al fresco
Then a kid came along to offer a hand
But before she had time to accept it hits her over the head, doesn't care if she's dead
Cause he's got all her jewellery and wallet

You might laugh you might frown walkin round London town

Chorus
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why?
Would I wanna be anywhere else
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why?
Would I wanna be anywhere else

When you look with your eyes
Everything seems nice
But if you look twice you can see it's all lies
Life, yeah that's city life, yeah that's city life, yeah that's city life
Life, yeah that's city life, yeah that's city life, yeah that's city life


Chorus
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ?
Would I wanna be anywhere else
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ?
Would I wanna be anywhere else

When you look with your eyes
Everything seems nice
But if you look twice
You can see it's all lies
When you look with your eyes
Everything seems nice
But if you look twice
You can see its all lies



i know it actually shows the bad side of london but i dont care. london is still my favourite city. city of my dream. =) i love london sooo much!

sun in the sky why ohhh why would i want to be anywhere else....

OMG!!!!!

i actually survive my FIVE years training...huhu...i could not believe i have come to the end of it.


Thursday, 10.40am. My assessment in schools exam paper ended. and my days of being undergrad student actually ended for REAL!!!!! OMG OMG....im soooooo happy...

.....but then....no more student discount for me???!!!! alllaaaaaa.....huhuhuhu

aku nak merepek jek ni... lama tak online n blogging. hehehe...

18 june im going to school as a teacher in practice. no longer as teacher trainee. hehehe...naik pangkat sket..

k la my hunny is online..lama tak chatting...hehehe


adiossss!!

im going to announce my official summer song for this year..wait for it!

LTP

LTP

Linking Theory to Practice. My last coursework submitted was for that module. Im not here to babble about that module. I am here to talk about linking theory to practice in the real world, in other words, reflecting the latest trend in education system and the recent changes made to our education system and its effectiveness.

It has been sometime ago since I last write about educational stuff. One reason this issue came up in my mind is im preparing for my examination. Thus I had to read awful loads of stuff. Anyway for this term, I had to take 4 modules. Out of 4 I have to sit for 2 exam papers which is quite a lot for the last 2 and half years. Yikes…for the whole 2 years I was in UK I only sit for 5 [read: F.I.V.E] exam papers and 2 of it was seen paper. Hehehe… easy peasy lemon squeezy…

[that was just to warm me up for the real issue here…=) ]

For this term, the 4 modules were Curriculum Studies, Assessment in School, Professional Development, and Linking Theory to Practice. The exam papers are for the first 2 modules. The other 2 modules are fully assessed by courseworkSSS. [Sorry..had to emphasize the amount of work they gave us..huhu]

In reflecting the content of each module, I can conclude:

Curriculum Studies: moving towards Learner centred curriculum [Smart Schools, Cluster Schools..etc] ..i heard they revamp the curriculum again…(*_*) I wonder what’s new..hmm

Assessment in School: Alternatives assessments i.e. moving away from examination oriented [Smart School, Cluster Schools…]

Professional Development: Reflective Practitioner i.e teachers being more reflective towards their teaching practice. [One of the criteria in smart schools…]

For the countless essaySSS we did..i had only touched part of alternative assessment and none on reflective practitioner and only ¾ of moving towards learner centred curriculum.. Unlike Julie who did 2 out of the 3 issues...huhu [pergghhh Julie…kalau ko tak dapat A for AS and PD..keji aa diaorg nih…]

Ohh wait…Linking theory to practice: …..mainly I learn how to write scheme of work, lesson plans, micro teach my lesson plan and reflect on the whole process. That’s the classroom works I have to do as a teacher.


All 3 issues are the current trend in education systems around the world and we are not really far behind in terms of putting it on to paper to be implemented into practice. *wooohooo…way to go Malaysia!!* However…the real concern here is the rate of these changes reflected in the classroom and to practice. It is no longer the government has to make the changes to the education system. It is now the amount of practice in our classroom in reflecting the changes made.

Since I left school, the amount of changes geared to modern education system is huge. However, I could see that Malaysian [inc its government] do not have the patience in making these changes. Everything must be bold and big. Massive. And not to forget it brings instant results like 2minute noodles. And in case you don’t realise, we are dealing with human beings, small children who practically hate changes and love routine, teachers who have been trained with long held believe, supported by 30 years experience of teaching and none of her student fail any exam, and parents who of course detest the idea of their children for being the guinea pigs of the system.

Yo people! How about small changes that brings results. No more mega projects that brings nothing but frustration, which gets us nowhere that is…not to mention costs like millions!

So *clap clap* for realising the importance of moving towards learner centred curriculum and alternative assessments...a little late though, but better late than never.

Tell those things to the public, educate them. Tell them its okay if ur child does not have any English homework for a day and it does not mean that the teacher is not teaching. Tell them getting all those belas2 A’s means nothing if the child learns nothing. Route learning is waaaayyy back dated. Meaningful learning is here to stay. Tell them to give more concern about the child education not just leaving it to the teachers. Teachers should do more parenting and parents should do more teaching [quoted, can’t remember where or when].

Tell the teachers the advantages of learner centred curriculum. Teach them how to practice it classroom. Don’t tell them to ditch what they have been doing. Tell them how they can do it differently. Show them the effect of learner centred curriculum. Train the teachers to be reliable assessor to conduct valid assessments. Value classroom assessments as well as national level examinations, not just give it pass/fail credit. Tell the teachers the effect of being a reflective practitioner and the effect it has on the students and themselves in being professional. Show them how they could do it.

And accept the fact that these changes take time. The changes you made now won’t show the results tomorrow, next month, or that same year. Haven’t we learned? We change the medium of instruction in 1970’s to BM and the results? Students are lack of English competency in 1990’s. Can’t we see that? Simple cause and effect relationships have tremendous effect to the community and nation. It took 20years to show the results of what we believe a good change. It is good that we are making changes to our education system. It shows that we are reflecting ourselves, and want to stay current. Don’t just ditch the ideas just because it doesn’t show any results instantly. And start a new one. And the cycle of failed plans will starts.

I’m sitting for my final exams on 8th n 10th of May. After the mid year school holiday, 122 of us will be going to schools for practical and test all that we had learnt for the past 5 years. June 2002- June 2007. I wonder if 120 fully trained teachers could give new impacts in implementing the changes in our education system. I would give it 5 years to start see the effect… and I hope our 4 cohorts of juniors are able to continue what we are about to start. And I hope it will be continued by those joining the 3rd cycle of twinning programme in training TESL teachers [they get to study abroad for 3 years and one of the uni is Portsmouth!!!! Aaaaa Not fair!!! Portsmouth is the shopping heaven! JELES!!!!!!!!]

Anyway, I haven’t really digested the fact that starting January 2008, I am going to be a fully licensed highly trained teacher.

From now, my mantra will be ‘I am a Teacher. As a teacher my job is to teach…’ for 5years!

…Sayang…you said ok already aaa…after 5 years, saya berenti keje..dok rumah ok?

…tapi dok rumah jek busan aaa…Huhu…….sambung blajar le eQin…amik young children psychology… hehehe…perhaps the practice instead of theory…*wink*