count your blessing...

Friends are the best blessings u get when u are 10 thousands miles away from family. i have tonnes of them. but these people are the best. and when i count my blessing i count them twice... sometimes thrice...

here are those i will cherish my whole life.. thanks for making the last 22 months of my life the best..

The original H33 members:
Sal [room B], Mc Woo [Room C], eQin [Room D], and Sophie [Room E]...

Thanks for all the great moments from the day we arrive till the day we fly back. never thought this day would come. huhu.. but all of us will be on the same flight. c u in Heathrow babes!


But of course i will never forget this....

the seven wonders. =)

and this...

i love this picture so much... 25th December 2005.
*Sophie-Woo-eQin-Laylee-Sal* Christmas in Oxford....=)


Some of the moments i truly love! =)

and this two lovely guys.. two of my favourite ever! i love u both like both my brothers!!! aaa cayang korang tau..

Dr. Faizan Ahmad and Mohd Amir Yuzaini Mohd Yussof

thanks for all the love and care. for looking after me like ur own sister. thanks for the great times we spend together. thanks for the birthday gifts. the bunny that i love so much and the lovely purple fan shape trinket box. life wouldnt be the same without the two of you.. =) Abah n Abang Ijan...sorry for everything k? halal makan minum. im going to miss both of u like hell.. balik Msia call me k? kawen jgn lupa jemput i tau...*hugs* hope to see u guys again...

and i swear that i will never eat another apple bcos of these two.. the coolest doctors ever! hehe..

me -Dr. Fariza - Dr Aisyah

Fariza, thanks for the love and care esp bila i demam. ur banana and strawberry smoothie is the best ubat demam ever! i will never forget that day. thanks alot dearie. and for those moments and wisdom you share with me. for picking me up when im down. for being with me when i am alone. love u soo much!!!!!!! take care dear.. nanti bila ur hubby nak bukak restoran call i k? hehe..

Aisyah.. short but sweet. brapa bulan jek kita kenal. kalau nak ikut buleh kira brapa kali kita jumpa. huhu.. but we click like sisters. aaa sayang u sangat! thanks for everything. nanti jgn lupa update i gossip2 terbaru in plymouth k? im counting on u!!!! hehehe.. take care of yourself and the other two doctors.. heh! cant wait to c u at ur wedding. i will make sure i will be there. insyAllah. =)

of course. what would i do without her. Sue. im sure im going to miss her. no one make my bed like she do. no one wipe my window like her. no one cleans my sink more squeaky than her. no one ever do what she did more than her. aaaaa nak import sue balik mesia skali buleh tak? huhu.. the thing is.. she never do what she did for me to others..hehe sbb tu la aku sayang giler kat makcik cleaner yg sorang nih!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaa Sue!!!!

My London Hero..

hehe..takleh aa nak reveal nama..kekeke... [mati ler aku...adeh2...abah tarik telinga aku.. huhu... abah...T_T last2..pasni tak wat dah...] Without u... aaa pengsan dah kot kat tangga victoria station tuh! hehehe... thanks cos i can always count on you. everytime without fail. friends like u are sooooo rare. and with your help.... it was washed away... turned over.. and recoloured. and bcos of that i cherish your friendship. i tried to return the favour to you. but what u did for me was unreturnable. so...

i make a wish for you..
hope it will come true..
life would be just be kind
to such a gentle mind..
if u loose ur way...
think back of yesterday..
remember me this way...=)

im sure someone will thank you for what you did for me. i will make sure that someone knows. anyway... All the Best to Panglima Tido London [kekeke...jgn marah aaa] yg sorang nih.. in your studies and your love and life.. [sorry la, kalau wat 3rd world war meletus..takde niat pun... huhu.. ] Thanks for all the things u did for me. thank you for the friendship and companion. and semestinya.. kawen nanti jgn lupa jemput aku...kekeke..and pastu nanti bila dah jadi angkasawan jgn lupa aku k? hehe...kalau jual burger pun jgn lupa aku gak aaa....wakakakaka...

aaa selama hidup ni.. aku takde la suka sgt kucing... tapi kucing ni spesel laaa...

Beethoven Ford. or nama manja nyer John [sempena nama college. hehe.]
aku suka gak aa kat dia, walaupun dia penah gigit tangan aku..huh!

tgk ler.. camne le aku tak sayang...isk isk..comel nyer!!!!! bungkus bawak balik mesia baru tau..

yesh yesh.. this girl. im going to miss this pucuk pisang girl sooo much!!!!!

Ainee..my other babe!! thanks for the great moments. thanks for all the football matches. thanks for the berry picking. thanks for this, that and those too.. babe.. thanks for everything. u make it even much better. i love u soo much!!!! jaga my bf ok? jangan gaduh ngan dia k? blajar rajin2...buat dissie cepat2.. huhu... take care sayang.. kakak loves u!

especially when you are looking like this...

aaaa comelnyer adik aku nih...huhu

and of course. the fantastic four.

Huda-eQin-Sudi-Julie

thanks girls for being there for me. for sharing the experiences. the stories. and the wisdom which i learn so much from u girls. hehe... thanks for the wonderful outings. thanks for all the shopping spree. [you girls are the best shopping girlfrens i ever have!] and times spend together. those makan2. those day and night in/out.. those modelling sessions. hehe. thanks for everything. love u girls so much... [sorry la cannot spend so much time in London together.. hehe] i see u girls back in KL. =)

Last but not least. The guy who made it all different.

Mohammad Redzuan Abdul Rahman.

you were part of my dream that came true. you were there to witness the best experience ever. in fact you were part of it. if its not bcos of you i would regret ever going. you were there during those lonely summer days. you listen to all my whinings. you watched how Mr. D progress from 150 words to 11 500++ words. your words of encouragements keep me going. you make my autumn less dreadful. you make me enjoy doing my work. you warm up my winter. you make my final days in UK the best ever. you make sure my phone rings everyday.. =) well, you are just wonderful. bcos you are my boyfriend =) take care dearie.. study rajin2 k? i will wait for u to come back..

so there goes.. some of the main people who make my life here in UK a little more than just a dream come true.. a little bit more than just a fairy tale.. they are real people who touch my heart and soul...making the 22 months wonderful!

please eQin...never forget all this.. always look back and smile to this.. to this very day.. ..

this is most likely the last entree of the year. and the last entree before i go back home. im going to London in a few more hours. spending my last days in UK in my dream city with the guy that every girl dreams of =)

life will never be the same again. i was 20 then.. im 22 now. i have grown so much..i have learnt so much more.

Seasons change and fashion change…
what remains stay remained…
No matter where I go
With who I am
I am still the Nurul Yaqin u know…
Only changed to be a better person by day…

i am living the dream. the dream i never dare to dream. this dream has come to an end. time to go back to reality. get ready to live life to the fullest. again.

shall we meet again? someday. perhaps.

aaa balik..balik..

huhu...aku tetap tamau balik. tapi aku harus juga balik.

tanpa rela aku balik jua..

hmm tinggal kurang 48jam lagi aku di bumi plymouth yg permai ini. hidup sebagai Srikandi Selatan. =)

aaa lepas ni kena gugur aa title tuh? tamau!!!!!! aku suka nama tuh!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, aku baru jek gi borong chocolates tadi..hehe..syok gak ek..seperti biasa la aku. kena cukup syarat. 2 each. mana reti beli satu2 nih.. ngaaa...

selain itu. aku telah memborong tea twinnings sebanyak 3 kotak. yeah~~ betul tuh. 3 kotak. murah weh~ sepound jek sekotak. haih~ nasib baik le space limited. mau aku borong berkotak2 lagi.

huhu tu la. aku pun tak tau le. mampukah aku membuat semua ini??? *sambil memandang ke kiri dan kanan* huhu mcm banyak jek aku nak kena wariskan pada aineee...huhu.. haih~ budak ni takde la plak... isk isk..

malam esok laptop ni nak kena bungkus dah~

sblm tuh aku akan blogging dulu.. nak say thanks to those who have make the last 22months in my life the best ever and ever...syok seh!

aaa nantikan kemunculannye esok. [kalau aku sempat nak packing sampai abis malam ni aa.. huhuhu...]

ohh Merry Christmas!

aku takde gaya nak balik...

hari pun takde gaya nak snow..=(

awak....saya tau awak baca. study la awak..tamau kawan baru tau.. =P

misteri kehilangan Vaseline

Monday, lepas maghrib, kul 4.30 ptg ye...T_T [puasa tak abis ganti lagi....rugi rugi...tsk tsk]

tetiba jek aku mencari Vaseline... teringat sebelum fly dulu..merengek rengek aku meminta vaseline tuh.. dahle beli yg besar gabak... aku budget2 2/3 bulan abis la pakai...huhu...T_T setelah 22bulan...luak sket jek.. [tak buleh nak kata luak pun sebenarnya...] mungkin cucu aku nanti pun sempat nak pakai..wakakakaka... tapi mana ek? keadaan bilik pada masa itu sgt le memeningkan.. tambah plak...otak aku cam takleh nak berfungsi masa tuh.

Do Not Touch Anything. Messiness is a sign of genius.
Tidying up could impact negatively on my mental development.

Bukan nak kata apa la...tapi that is sooo true! huhu... tak caya..pegi tanya ainee! ntah mana la pegi vaseline aku nih.. 'aa nanti la kemas...ada la tuh' aku biarkan fikiran itu disitu. [wah cam tulis cerita plak..huhu] fikiran aku beralih ke isu lain plak...

Tuesday, 1 tghhari..

aku sedang bersiap2 untuk ke ASDA.. tetiba rasa cam kering giler bibir..'hmm..mana ek Vaseline aku nih??? barang seme dah kemas..' sambil mata aku meng-scan rak dan meja study yg kosong.. dan atas bedside table aku juga kosong... sekilas aku memandang ke arah rak di sinki, yg sehari sebelum itu penuh dgn segala mcm jenis lotion dan alat solek aku.. [koleksi yg tak seberapa tuh...huhu] kini semuanya kosong... ahh kosongnya dunia ini...dunia kecil aku ini...*jiwang jap...*

sepanjang perjalanan ke ASDA, macam perkara dalam fikiran aku...termasuk la.. kemana pegi nyer vaseline aku tuh.. segabak2 vaseline tu buleh plak ilang... brooch yg kecik tuh jumpa plak.. huhuhu.. aahhh pening aku memikirkan.. dah lah tak tido semalaman..

Wednesday, 11pagi.
....aku hampir pasti, vaseline telah selamat dikotakkan... T_T tanpa relaku. kotak yg mana? aku tak tau.. huhu.. tanpa sedar aku letak jek kot dlm kotak yg ada. aaaaa otak aku takleh nak recall pun mana letaknyer vaseline itu untuk kali terakhir.. nak vaseline!!!!!!!!

betul la.. i cannot tidy up my room!!!!! it negatively impact my mental development.. T_T dahle mmg tak pandai.. makin tak pandai le aku pas ni...huhu

haaa ni sapa nak jawab nih??? bibir kering...kulit kering.. vaseline takde nih??? huhu...camne nak gi dating nih? (*_*)

....u say wat?

the last 36hours has been mad!

i havent slept for the past 28hours. otak weng giler dah nih..huhu..blood pressure cam roller coaster pun ye gak~~ jap rasa cam naik ke jungfrau...jap cam turun tamar valley~~ selagi ok jek..aku ok ler..

Q: ko ok tak nih?
A: aku ok jek...[apa yg ok or tak.. aku pun tak tau sebenarnya... T_T]

kotak telah siap dipenuhkan..ada 3 kesemuanya... dragon ball jek ada 7 bijik..huhu


i refuse to blog about wat happen yesterday morning.. about how my morning ended differently. so lets just say...something happen. the outcome are yet to be seen and discussed. =)

aku perlu buat sesuatu~~ actually mcm2 benda...just that aku dah settle my things to be shipped n luggage.. aaa aku happy le yg tu dah settle. just aku rasa cam nak masuk a few more things kat kotak so i can shopping2 lagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!! hehehe...

eQin!!!!!! i love u soooo much! (^_^) u r soooooooooooooooo clever!

10 short days to go....soo many things to do...soo many stuff to say.. too little time for all that! T_T

wat do i do without u?

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!



I hope you all have a lovely time during your last few weeks in England . Travel safely if you are doing some final exploring and enjoy the company of your friends over the holidays.
It seems only yesterday that I was waiting for you all to come through the gate at Heathrow and now I don’t really want to think about next year without your company –

I WILL MISS YOU!!!!!
Good luck in all you do in the future and please keep in touch.
With much love
Sarah

yesh it felt like yesterday. i have no freaking idea what would we do without u. u are the one we turn to for everything. anything at all.

if we are sick. you make the appointment with the GP
if there is no heating. you fight for us.
if we are having problems. you would do anything for us.
if we need a map. you get one for us.
if we didnt come to class. you check on us at home.
if we need the extension to one of our tutors. you get it for us.
if there is someone need to confirm anything about us. they speak to you.
if we want to go to somewhere. you arrange it for us.
if we need to make phone calls urgently. we can make it from your office.
if there is oppurtunity for anything good. you will let us know. like the time i get to volunteer. thanks.

and lastly before we go, we need a lift to Heathrow from college. you arrange it for us. thank you!

you prepare everything for us. you do your very best.

and the best of all, personally, when you call my mobile to check if me and my friends are ok during the London bombing thingy. im always proud to tell everyone, i get to know about the incident from my welfare officer who check on my safety during the summer holiday.

Dear Sarah,

what would we do without you? thanks. many many thanks. for making the last 22 months of my life the best! Happy Christmas. Hope to see u again!

with much love,
Yaqin

kenapa apakah?

demmit.nate.

tension tol aku. last nite, i was preparing for the exam. i read this soooo powerful article by Abbot 1992. it was soo inspiring that i want to write a blog entree. its just tooo good. but this bloody dashboard was down and could not be access. haih~ there goes another superb entree. abis da la...seme dah curah kat exam tadi. huhu... tho it wasnt really the thing i want to write and comment, i could still tell it here. but now... im too bloody full and tired.. from the sooo sedap salmon and the sesi modelling with the girls.. hehe.

...aaaa...apa nak wat nih?

ohh..hehe.. biasanya for exam orang wish 'Good Luck'.. All the best.. may the force be with you.. and usually i will say 'all my best wishes and prayers are with you!' but this is the best pre-exam wish i ever get.. hehe.. nasib baik dpt tau lepas exam..kalau tak mau aku gelak sorang2 dlm exam hall tuh..huhu...

selamat menempuh alam peperiksaan mistikus yg penoh pancaroba dan apokalips.... harapan kami seluruh 22 juta rakyat mesia terletak di bahu anda untuk menagngkat martabat ibu pertiwi di mata dunia dengan kejayaan yang gilang,terbilang dan gemilang.... andai kamu gugur, kami akan tabur bunga diatas pusara...sekian, dari sheffield, utk plymouth, ke mesia..

thanks for all the wishes and prayers. very much appreciated.

dengan ini saya mengumumkan pengajian tahun 3 B. Ed TESL tamat dengan rasminya! yahuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!

huhu.. nak gi library cam dah tak logic.

eh.. logic2!! nak pulang buku and posing dlm library.. kekeke.. aku nak gambar cam shanu ari tu k? =P
*pandang kiri kanan* kenapa aku rasa cam tak logic jek nak kemas seme barang aku... mampukah?

hmm tu jek la. i have tonnes to do...and spend as much as possible with the people im going to left behind....spend the precious last moments here...

..before i left and leave all this behind as the best 22 months in my life...

and i have just one thing i could left here as an appreciation to those who have coloured the last 22 months in my life.. =)

Do I really have to go back? T_T

My Christmas Shopping!

ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... =D

suka tau...

sama sibuk ngan orang putih...

My Christmas Shopping Episods

its starts in London....where i spend almost £150 for souveniers only!!!!
...huhu..nasib baik le aku balik mesia skali jek. that was on the 26th of November. just after i submit Mr D!

it was then continued to the 2nd Episod with Julie.. was it on the 2nd of December?
Julie took me crystal shopping.. we bought Royal Doultan crystal glass! it was soooo cheap.. i bought some too..hehe.. aaa lagi..i bought some baju for my baby boy.. ADAM ALIF! other than that...i cant remember! but Julie bought some stuff for her too.. sungguh syok!

then it was continued again.. 3rd Episod. i went out again today with Julie... she is looking for her dinner party dress. we found one in BHS.. it is soooooooo pretty. great bargain too! then i feel like i want to buy those crystal glass.. skali nampak plak barang Nina Ricci..waaa... going for £3 and £5.. huhu.. wanted to get the pallete..but then found Max Factor gift box going for £8.. ada blusher, eyeshadow and lip pallete. hehe.. i did say i wanted to buy blusher kan? kalau beli kat Body Shop..sama jek £8.. but dpt blusher jek la. and its Max Factor.. kekekeke.. then i saw this bag.. waaa sungguh comel! last week i wanted to get a bag to use as my hand luggage. its so cute n comel.. kaler pink of course. and its only £10! haha.. suka! last week i wanted to get one in Sports World. tapi tak berapa berkenan pun. then i went up.. and beli another 2 boxes of Royal Doultan crystal glass. hehe.. yg minggu lepas for mama. this one is for my own use.. ngaaaa! kesimpulannya itu jek la i bought.. hehe.. happy sgt!

ok then. tinggal perfumes jek. that one save untuk shopping nanti kat London after christmas. yea!

thats why i love christmas and everything about it. its lights. its decoration. its spirit. and most of all its shopping! time to be happy and merry...

oh!! just one more wish!

PLEASE SNOW!!!!!

semakin hampir~~

...tinggal 3 minggu 4 hari..[menurut counter aku yg kat bawah tuh!]

the clock is ticking.. fast..

rasa cam nak abiskan assignment cepat2...
rasa cam nak study siap2 untuk exam..

biar semua cepat berlalu...

tapi nanti..

kena start packing barang..
kena terima kenyataan..
kena kembali ke realiti..
kena jadi adult.. [dok UK buleh jadi kanak2 ok?]
kena fikir masa depan..
kena buat pilihan yg tidak pasti..

kesimpulannya...

aku memang tak suka ketidakpastian. aku benci memikirkan yg tidak pasti.

when can i get your confirmation stamp?

the reason Sudi loves to go to ASDA!

Friday 1st of December. well, December is a magical month. with the festive spirits. the beautiful decorations. the christmas lights. isnt it great? and today, 11am, we went up to Inted to help them decorate the office. the tree was just great. and an emergency meeting was held regarding the ticket. i got my flight time including my connecting flight to Kuantan. T_T and i dont think anybody could send me off...

anyway, today isnt that bad.. hehe.. the four of us decide to go to Asda.. i need to pick up a few things as well. nak beli baju untuk baby boy saya!!!! =) realising ada beberapa hari jek lagi before we are leaving, maka sesi bergambar menjadi lebih intensif..

the craze starts when i was wondering around the bread and confectionery aisle searching for scones. tetiba jek..

Sudi: eQin!!!! [sambil meng-grab tangan aku...dan terlompat2...]
me: wat???!!!!
Sudi: dia ada....[muka dok sengih2 cam kerang busuk..]
me: haa..jom lalu...[ikhlas siot....]
Sudi: gila ko...tamau aaa [...eleh malu2 plak pempuan nih]
me: laaa....jom la.. meh aku teman.. [aku dah offer tamau plak..isk...ikhlas lak tuh...huh!]

then, kitaorg teruskan memborong sekitar ASDA..

..Frijj Brownie baru distok..aku telah memborong sebanyak 4 botol..kat mesia ada tak ek?

setelah membeli...kitaorg decide nak pegi minum2 kat Cafe atas tuh.. diaorg tak penah lepak kat situ lagi..so kitaorg pun naik la..table yg kitaorg pilih tuh, view dia cam cun arr ke aisle roti.. nampak plak mamat Heath Ledger tuh..clear nak mampus plak tuh... haih~~ maka tersengih le cik puteri Sudiana yg suka makan telur tuh..[hehehe..mati aku tak mkn malam nih..]

Maka dengan hikmat kamera sakti tuan puteri jula Julie...beberapa keping gambar mamat tuh telah disnap secara Huda-razzi..[explaination later k?]..disebabkan aku yg dok paling tepi..aku try la amik.. tapi gagal le..sbb muka mamat tuh cam tersembunyi disebalik biscotti2 n broiche2.. maap le Sudi..saya seorang yg gagal..T_T tapi dok tergelak2 dah kat situ...and mamat tuh dok perasan.. abis kantoi2..(*_*)

kemudian.. aku ngan Julie turun untuk pegi beli Julie nyer CD..aisle Cd sebelah aisle roti...maka aku ngan julie cuba la nak amik gambar mamat tuh...dah mcm2 cara dah kitaorg try.. hehe..

Julie: Roti yg ini ke eQin? [sambil cuba curi ambil gambar mamat tuh dari celah2 roti...]
me: haaaa...roti ni la yg aku cari...[...tu bukan roti la...tu waffle...huhu]

..kesian roti tuh..

Julie: ehh tadi aku ada nampak buku record2 tuh..mana ek..
me:...??
Julie: haaa tuh dia.. [sambil mengambil buku tuh untuk mengcover camera sakti nyer..]
me:...erk [kalau dlm anime..sure muka aku dah ilang dah...]

ni hasil trick Julie..

aku dah tak larat nak gelak dah.. kitaorg pun naik la ke cafe tuh balik. memang dah kantoi abis tahap gaban dah. memang mamat tuh dah tau..dok pandang2..bila tengok aku ngan julie..dia terus jek pandang huda n sudi kat atas..pastu dok bergelak sakan kat table tuh lagi...skali Yg teramat hebat lagi berkaliber Huda-razzi mengoffer diri..

Huda: ko nak aku gi amik gambar dia depan2 pastu blah?
me: serius huda?
Julie: dah2...jom la weh...balik weh..
Sudi: ....[aku tau sudi nak..tapi malu nak cakap....Mahu tapi malu =P cheesy gila ok?]
Huda: serius ni..kalau nak meh aku gi..
me: ok..kalau gitu...ko gi..kitaorg tunggu kat depan..aku malu dah. dia mmg dah spot aku.


seme pun bangun... bersedia untuk saat genting.. turun, sort barang, aku pun dengan segera menolak troli ke arah pintu depan..

Sudi n Julie telah pergi mengendap...hehe.. mana la tau huda tetiba pengsan ke..

aku dgn leisurely menolak troli sambil berkira2 apakah yg akan terjadi.. sampai kat aisle salad.. tetiba aku nampak huda straight jek ke arah aku..dan nampak sudi n julie dok gelak2 kat blakang..

huda: dah2 balik...
me: apa terjadi???
Julie: ko tau.. si huda tuh..pegi mintak permission nak amik gambar dia..
me: O M G!!!!! hudaaa.....[huda ngan sudi checking out the outcome..]
Sudi: aaa aaa.. comey nnyerrr...
Huda: ok dah. malu dah..balik..

Balik la...tunggu bus.. sambil2 tuh..

me:aku rasa cam tamau gi ASDA dah pasni..

huda: pun sama!

Julie:aku mungkin akan pegi..tapi bukan ngan Sudi..

sekali Sudi buat announcement...

Sudi: nanti kalau dia nampak kat Marjon nanti...kata jek it wasnt me..
me: nampak kat marjon???
Sudi: ye ar dia kan budak marjon..
Me, Julie, Huda: SUDIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!! huarghhh~~~~~

..camne la plak kitaorg tak ingat yg mamat tuh blajar kat Marjon... (O_0)

Malu abis dah nih.

anyway, Sudi...tolong la bagi Christmas card kat mamat tuh.. bukannyer kita jumpa dah dia pas nih.. bagi tau jek la.. kalau ko malu nak bagi.. meh..aku sanggup jek...hehe..

it must be the best Christmas ever for him..=) and for us too...

...ye la...nak ke kat mesia ko gi amik muka mamat yg susun roti kat carefour midvalley tuh? huhu.takde gila nyer nak wat camtuh!

haih~~susun roti pun susun roti laaa

...janji muka cam Heath Ledger...(*_*)

ps: tolong la sudi....tolong la ngorat mamat tuh!

...thank.you.very.much!

aaaaaaa....

jangan sapa2 remind aku dah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


huarghhh!


T_T


berapa kali nak cakap


orang tamau balik la!


TAMAU TAMAU TAMAU...


kalau aku balik, Sue nak membebel kat sapa..

kalau aku balik, sapa nak gaduh ngan Michelle kat Inted nanti?

kalau aku [+budak2 kelas aku] balik, maka akan sunyi la Inted. T_T


semua orang ingat aku happy sbb nak balik dah. tak. aku tak happy. aku tamau balik. balik IPBA plak tuh. lagi la tamau. semua org kata aku looking forward to go home. no! infact it would b great if i dont have to go home yet!

tadi...aku terfikir..for the last 20months, my life did change. but its not a different world here. its just a different place. i still do what i did. but i do did so much more la.. nothing has change that much. i am still the same me. perhaps, hopefully, better. well travelled for sure. and much more cultured.

living abroad sure bring much more than just studying abroad. but im still very much protected. have not really taste real life yet.

...balik mesia dok IPBA. curfew kul 11pm.

...praktikal. mungkin kena dok hostel gak.

...posting. mama suruh dok Kuantan. T_T


kalau dah Princess tuh.. Princess gak la.. tak kemana la aku nih... T_T

...for now. i just want to enjoy wat i have. yes. an assignment and an exam paper. a few more days to spend with my favourite doctors *hugs* ... a few more days to hang out with my other babe, Ainee *hugs*, a few more days to spend with unlimited access to internet for chatting *virtual hugs to my chat buddies* , and for blogging *virtual hugs too for my bloggers n beloved blog* [bersawang le blog aku pas nih...], a few more days to wake u up every morning, having somebody to wake me up for class, and somebody to wish good nite and sweet dreams before bed...[yesh u...T_T].

the fact is. i enjoy this kind of life. many many times. i have said. this is like a fairy tale. living in a fairyland. u know.. when it gets up all foggy n misty.. it feels like u r on a cloud? its kind of depressing sometimes. but yeah i actually like it. when you look out of my window, it does feel like u r on a cloud..

when you get back to Malaysia. its like returning to reality. which is sucks really. its like the real world. which since i was 14, reality bites, cruel world, harsh life. thats what being told to me. tho i dont really experience it. but yeah, i dont intend to. thankyouverymuch.

living here is much more than just being away. its not really a different world. just a different place. and i have less than a month to living the dream...