when eQin is behind the wheels..

you see.. i just started driving in January 09. but i drove back to Kedaik at 5.30am a couple of times.. and every Friday back to Kuantan. So i can drive really fast too... and i have become really nasty... bad eQin!! but i can be nice too at times.. if u signal nicely, i let u go which ever way u want to.. [crap la...my blogging skill is sooo bloody berkarat] ...haih... let me cut the crap and straight to the point...

i went to ECM this afternoon. at this particular traficlight, it was a bloody long queue. i couldnt see what the heck is going on.. so i waited patiently. i notice the cars were going to the right lane so i signal to do the same. after waited for 3 bloody red lights i can see there is a car at the side of the road. it wasnt even on the road.. it was at the side!!!! i didnt see any other car.. so i dont think it was an accident.. i think it broke down... what piss me off was those other bloody cars had to slow down and look!!!!! Bloody hell!!! if you are not going to stop and help... dont slow down and look!!!! idiottt!!! i had to waste bloody 10 minutes waiting for u to slow down and pass by doing nothing.

so Malaysian, listen to me.. even if there has been a nasty accident. if u didnt even wish u want to help...PLEASE do not slow down to look! just drive straight.. u will be helping other people to get where they need to be in peace.. no swearing needed. if its that bad..u probably will end up reading about it in the newspaper.. or watch it in the news...huhuhu...

so now u know..

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ohh almost forgot...
and

HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY

to the brightest sunshine in my life

MY HUBBY

Mohammad Redzuan Abdul Rahman

I love u soooo much!

finding my way back

im back now... im trying hard to get back here to write again constantly. its difficult as i dont really have a lot to say now.. perhaps i no longer read like i used to... perhaps my 'SUNSHINE' is not around to directly shine on me...

well Sudie is pregnant... remember her?? the one who had a crush on rotiboy?? well..rotiboy who looks like Heath Ledger..hahaha... Julie has decided the baby is going to call her Mommy.. i want all my friends kiddies to call me the same name as my future kids... so i need to give it a thought.. hmmm...

i was in KL last week for 5 days... 3 days for a course. 2days in Gombak..the food heaven!! hehe.. while i was there.. i get to see julie for a few hours. and the hours seems to fly! babe.. i hope we can catch up again soon... there is so much to talked about.. love u to bits n pieces. which reminds me...i owe u some stuff.. hehhe..

im now short on cash. hubby's birthday coming up... wanted to buy him a new hp. but he havent decided on which one. he is picky...so i dont intend to do a suprise on the pressie.. huhuhu but then hubby's office is having their family day this saturday. so i want to turn up looking presentable. afterall we are going to be in centre stage.. cos we [actually him only..but im helping...] are going to organise the games... so i plan to get something new.huhu.. mayb a new shirt.. or a pair of sporty sandals. ...haih more shopping!

i realise this always. when i dont have the money...i always wanted to buy something. when i actually do have some extra cash.. i dont really want anything. so i actually need to be rich u know. to be able to stop buying anything...

i think thts about it...need to get some loving over the phone..

life as a weekend wife really sucks... (T_T)

it was particularly hard...

today is the 12th of April. at this moment, i am supposed to get ready my school stuff but as usual...i rather blog. and since hubby left for KL an hour ago, i am the least enthusiastic to go to school. although it is a different school. i no longer have to travel almost 2 hours to that bloody rural school. now im teaching a mere 7 mins drive away from home.. that includes 3 red lights.. satu lagu pun tak sempat abis

life as a weekend wife is hard. i wouldnt recommend it to anyone. it took every ounce of your strength. it started a week after the wedding. on the 3rd of november 2008, we drove back to Kuantan. and on the same day.. he drives back to KL. I cried. at that moment i thought it shouldnt be this hard saying goodbye to him every week. it will b easier week by week. and the next week it was alright. i didnt cry one single bit. then..it was year end holiday already... after 6 weeks...well i didnt get to transfer that time. so i cried and cried. the tears seems like no end. but after the first week back in skul, i was alright. Every sunday...around 5 or 6pm, i kiss his hand.. i get a peck on both cheek and we hug. and i bit gudbye.. i wasnt happy or anything.. but i seems to give in that he got to go back. the next day is monday. the day we both hate. and have to go to work.

...but lately.. more than a couple of weeks back. i started to cry..on sunday afternoon. i felt like begging him not to go back. i was just being silly and difficult. but not intentionally. i didnt meant to act that way.. it got worse this last few weeks. it gets harder and harder... i wish sooo hard if he could stay one more night.

in the beginning he went back as early as 4pm... then he waited till after asar.. then he said latest 6pm. and since last week he waited till after maghrib. i am not happy with him driving the pitch darkness especially after the LPT.. the highhill slopes and turns. but im not willing to let him go back too early.

Today, 12th April...a year ago, we got engaged on this very day... and it was particularly hard for me to say good bye to him today. he just arrived home safely in gombak a few minutes ago... but till this very second i still wish he doesnt have to go back.. i wish he is still here with me now.. i wish we never have to this again..

Desire

My desire to blog has not yet vanishes into thin air. There have been too many times I deadly wanted to write but I couldn’t for various reasons. I haven’t share wit u my wedding pictures..what more my honeymoon pixs! Hahaha… u have to wait.

Life as a wife is wonderful. I am amaze with myself. I found myself trying to look pretty all the time..hahhaha.. well at least presentable. I cook. I clean up. I tidy up. I do all the things I didn’t like to do before I am a wife. Haha…and most of all.. I lipat my selimut every morning!!! Fuuuyoooo… =p say whatever u want. But it is universally acknowledged that I am one hell of a super ultimately unbelievable lazy ass. Like my brother always says ..’unta padang pasir pun tak malas cam ko’ huhu.. but then, I didn’t even know how malas those unta are..hehe…

I started living in my in law’s house on the 1st of December. That very same day, my parent in-laws went to stay at their other son’s house to baby sit his kiddies. So I was left alone..with no internet, no astro and nothing to do. My routine starts around 5.30am with the ultimate task to wake up my hubby. He is awake by that time, but he refuses to get up and ready to go to work. So I have to make sure he hits the shower before 5.45am or he will be late for work..Huhu.. around 6.15am, I go down to the kitchen to make some breakfast for him to take to work. After sending him off at 6.50am, I go back to bed ;) hehe and sleep on to my heart content! As soon as I wake up, I hang the clothes outside to dry. Then I go down and make my self some breakfast. I watch whatever on the telly and read every word in the newspaper including the obituaries. =S and its only 2pm. Huhu… Then, I plan what to cook for dinner and ransack the refrigerator for the things I need. Owh at 2.30pm I watch the Wonderpets! I love them… I really do! Then I start cooking slowly..taking my own sweet time to kupas bawang, masak nasi etc. Around 5pm or whatever time I finish cooking, I get ready to welcome hubby home. Just making sure he will recognize me as his wife not some crazy women with the hair like a lion’s mane. Usually I spent my time reading my book or watching the endless Indon’s sinetron on the telly. Around 6pm+, or depending on what time he left the office, he will arrive home. After a few hugs n kisses, I will prepare for dinner. Unlike at my own home, here there is some protocol as I have to set the table with plates and if required the cutlery. Everything is served on the table nicely.. and there will be bawang goreng or daun bawang or daun sup as garnish. So I tried to learn doing it as much as I can and hubby does loves his food served pretty. I don’t cook much but it seems he eats anything as if it is bloody delicious. And for that I really love him. =D After prayers, we usually watch the news on telly or lie in bed talking to each other. It seems there is no end on what to talk about. Then we will get ready for bed around 10pm, as he will get ready his work attire and I will settle the laundry. Usually, I insist him to sleep before 11pm. More hugs and kisses then we fell asleep.

My mom in law is particular about her kitchen. So I don’t really dare to mess it up. I tried very hard to do as what she does. Of course I am not the most desirable daughter in law, well..being lazy and don’t know how to cook, tidy up and all, but none the less she loves me like her own daughter. After almost 3 weeks on my own, they return home. Nothing much changes, but I do wake up earlier. Like 8.30am or 9 am.=D hehe and I don’t cook at all anymore. I left the cooking to the expert. I just stand there trying to be busy or something. huhuhu… but the rest left as it is. I still make my hubby’s breakfast tho.

It has been delightful and bliss being able to sleep in his arms all night and wake up next to him. To be able to pray together with him, recite the quran, prepare dinner and talk about future together. When I get to know that I have to return back to that school, I cannot help but to cry and cry. Knowing that I can only be with him over the weekend for 2 nights a week, I cry even more. It’s hard to go back. Knowing that I won’t be back in near time makes it harder for me.

back dated: 18 of January 2009

A million gazzilion thanks

To those who made it possible
To those who were there to witness it
To those who came all the way to be there
To those who make it all special
To those who share it with me
To those who send their warmest wishes

Thank you thank you thank you… I couldn’t thank you enough…

Especially…..

Mama and papa

Jaja and Kak Fiza

Joe and Kak Yan

My Silly Sister Imani

My Darling Boy Adam Alif
….selingan…satu dua tiga lekuk…ahaks…tapi baju tetap cun…

My In laws

And of course

My girls




*I love this pix soooo much as much as I love the girls in it*
Thanks for being there and being those who adds

Top row left…a little serenity, a little charm, a little laughter, a little sexiness, a little magic, a little gorgeousness, a little dreamy,
2nd row left: a little excitement, a little mystery, a little thrill, a little glamour,
3rd row: a little noise…ohh I mean a lot of noise…bcos there is two of them hehe..


Love u girls heaps and heaps and heaps...Thank you so much for all you have done for me. Couldn’t possibly pay u girls in anyway…Do remember… we are married to each other long before we are married to them…*hugs*

Every bits and pieces

Every bits and pieces I love every bits and pieces of it. There is nothing, not a single thing; I want to change about it. For that I thank the Lord for a very blessed and happy day and hope it will be blessed and happy the whole way…. What is it? My Wedding of course. First and foremost, I love it because I did it all by myself. Well with my mom, my sis and my cousins and aunts =)…all done within my budget and to my heart desire… I love it sooooo much! If u see anything u like, and would like to borrow it for ur wedding/engagement...ask me!

My room…

Theme: The land where we met…
Inspiration: English countryside
Duvet cover + duvet: £24 + £ 8 from Dunelm + Primark UK
Mattress cover +pillow cover: RM80 from Parkson
4 Pillows: RM 120 from Parkson/Akemi
Candles by bedside: RM30 from IKEA
Photo frame: RM8 Parkson
Flowers by bedside: fresh flowers RM i-don’t-know-cos-mom-paid-for-it.
Curtains: total RM 300+ from Parkson and kedai kain Berjaya =p
Mosquito Net: RM60 from Giant (shh!! Don’t tell anyone…its babies nyer mosquito net…hehehe) the rose buds are glued by hand! My hand that is… =P
Bed + bedside tables: FOC… turun temurun…huehue

…so penaja utama bilik pengantin: PARKSON *clapclap*

My Pelamin

Theme: Pelamin dalam taman…
Inspiration: Garden Wedding
Chair: RM 500 from Small Garden Shop
Cushion: RM i-don’t-know-cos-mom-paid-for-it. custom made
Kipas Tekad: RM 45 from a shop in Jalan Besar
Ribbon: RM 10 from Small Garden Shop
Pink Roses: RM 60 from Small Garden Shop
Wood stand by the chair: mom’s own
Bunga Telor: RM 120 from Super Cowboy
Red Carpet: Rm 20 from Super Cowboy
White picket Fence: RM 60 from Arked Jalan Gambut
Pot Flowers: RM 200 for 20 pots specially ordered from a private nursery
Colourful Pots: RM 7 for 5 pots from Parkson
Flower curtain: RM i-don’t-know-cos-mom-paid-for-it. Kedai Kain Sharrif Jalan Besar
(mom did went to the shop 3 times before she really decide to buy it. I think it looks very lovely….good choice!)

So Penaja utama pelamin: Small Garden Shop *clapclap*


*My Wedding Cake

3 tier cakes decorated with fresh red roses

Theme: …continuation to my garden themed wedding
Inspiration: a picture in In trend October issue
>Top tier: Carrot cake
>2nd tier: Mocha cake
>3rd tier: Chocolate moist cake
Baked by: Intan’s Oven
Cost: RM250

*My banner and bunting

Theme: past for future…
Inspiration: …saje buh gambar time baby cos…lebih comel…ahaksss
Design: Stika point
Cost: 1 banner and 6 bunting RM250

*My wedding arch
Theme: Dreamland…
Inspiration: my dreamland UK…
Designer: My aunt…Mak De
Cost: RM 50++


My 27 Dresses

*My Akad Nikah Attire :
Inspiration: childhood dream
Theme: …something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue….
Tudung: had it for a long time…..
White Baju Kurung with Embroidery: RM 200 bride’s own
Head accessories: borrowed from next door neighbour
Selendang: Mom-in-law’s gift on engagement day
>>>>>What is the blue thing u asked? …shhh secret! =P
White Baju Melayu: RM 150 groom’s own
Songkok: groom’s own
Sampin: Kanda owned.. my 1st bro in law.. or his brother laa..aiyoo..

* Lafaz Sakinah Attire:
Bride’s Green Dress: Kak Noni’s..my biras..she wore it on her wedding day.
Groom’s Green Baju Melayu: Kanda’s …Kak noni’s hubby

*Groom’s reception attire:
Bride’s gold baju kurung: bride’s own RM 150
Groom’s Baju melayu: Groom’s own Rm150
Accessories: various people’s own
Make up: Kay RM 200 – hubby paid for it!!! Yipeee…




And finally….

*My Wedding Dress

It was a very long, mad, tiring and exhausting process. It started back in July… which I had the green colour in mind..then I change it to purplish red/maroon.. then I change it to blood red… then I finally get Wan to agree to wear pink! So I flip through all the magazines I can to find the design and hell crazy running around looking for somebody to make it …run around town again, skip school (ooppss) trying to find the kain…gave it to the tailor on the 13th of Oct which gave her 10 days to make it. On the 23rd of Oct I text her, ‘ Kak sue, baju yaqin dah siap ke?’ and almost instantly she replied ‘ Belum lagi. Ni baru nak start’ Imagine that!???!!! I felt like drop and die… but at 7pm the same day she called my mom and said the dress is ready. However the sleeves were way too long and it was a little big ‘as I lost some weight mind you’. So I send it back to her on 24th Oct morning to be fitted. I got back the dress later that same day…And finally, my dream dress that just cost me RM 350… I am so damn very happy to the max!!!!

Theme: Princess gone haywire….
Inspiration: COSRY
The dress: 6m of pink lace, 2.5m of plain pink chiffon, 4m of white satin. RM 230
…..the pink lace just arrived at the shop the day I bought it. So the pakcik had to dig it from the box at the back of the store…thank you so much pakcik!!! Jasa mu dikenang!
Tailor: Kak sue of First Impression…gorgeous baju!!!! Thanks kak sue!
Tailoring cost: RM 120

My Wedding Attire:
My wedding dress: as stated above
Groom’s white baju melayu: groom’s own
Hand bouquet: Fresh red roses RM40
Groom’s and Bride’s Accessories - selendang, tudung, tiara, necklace, sampin, tanjak and rantai etc: Amy’s Wedding Collection RM 100
Make up artist: Amy RM 180 –bridesmaid aku pun dia tolong touch up sekali…hehe

That is basically what makes up the most perfect day in my life…I love every second of it. Wish it last forever….

And if I have to do it all over again… there is no way I will change this one tiny detail…

The groom…




Love him muchos

…every bits and pieces. He’s my nachos!!!!

im back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

im back home not just for a moment but for good.. yipeee

and now im back here again hopefully for a longgggggg time. i have been neglecting my blog for too long now.. and im coming back on regular basis now.. i will post some past posts that i have typed earlier. and i will update on my wedding pixs etc etc...and yesh i am married now. but only on the weekends.. hehe..

owh cant wait to come back here like i used to...=)


welcome home baby