Sehari bersama Liz

.... i spend almost 4hours with Liz today.. huarghh~~ lebih bnyk jam dari aku spend dalam satu hari dengan woo atau sal atau leli atau julie atau sudi...atau... atau...T_T oh she is my bestfriend.. why the fuss... anyway she said im a good girl... (^_^) ...and didnt i tell u i love her?? [ok...kalau rasa nak muntah.. leh blah skarang.... huehuehue...]


anyway, thats not the point...


Language, Education and Development [LED for short] is one of the two subjects i took this term. i still cant see the relevence but there is alot of interesting things and facts.. 3hours [with Liz of course] class make you want to go home and hide under the duvet [lagi2 skarang ni sejuk giler..syok seh tido~~~] till dinner time. mainly its about many countries language policy and what it did to the country and its citizens. and i have an opinion about our Malaysian language policy in terms of Education... [can i still change my d***** topic??]


anyway, it was rediscovered... an issue back in year 2000, where this fella [dont even know who he is...not even in the education field i guess..] try to make a revamp by saying we should have back English [as the medium of instructions] schools like the old days before all the education bills ie penyata razak, penyata rahman talib etc etc.. published [which make the Malay Language as the medium as instruction in all national schools].

he said learning english does not make u less of a malay or less patriotic or less nationalist.. well i must say it does not.. [...walaupun BM aku masa SPM dulu dpt 3B jek...T_T...English leh plak dpt A..huhu]. after all this year..i must say i am still very much of a Malay... still makan pakai tangan k? [does a 2 year craving for Ikan Patin masak tempoyak make u believe me???]

i went to an English kindergarten for a year, then to a very-heavy-English-influenced national primary school [Methodist Girl School] before i went to you-are-an-alien-with-antenna-if-u-speak-English school... T_T nama jek SMART...hampeh! but the main reason why i improve my english was bcos during Year 6, i develop an interest in reading english novels.. [largely thanks to my friends].. thats how i develop my interest in the language. but you see, learning a language includes learning its culture because language is part of culture.. remember Siti's song Kurik Kundi? ;) when u learn english, you cant see much of its difference..but take an example of learning Nihon.. [aineee help plisss].... but im sure those people who took Jap are also interested in knowing its culture. dont get me started about how culture can bring a whole different meaning to the language... look what happen to Standard British English being turned into Malaysian English?? [read in Wikipedia...very very interesting]..please dont say thats not because of cultural influences...

contradic to my status now.. an English teacher to be...i am 100% against the idea of having an all English schools again..

1. it will further divide and continue to separate and congragate our society using the language status thingy...isnt it sad? for all the things we did to make people live together peacefully...why want to undo all that??? do u want chaos?
2. ...in the newspaper article, he said the decision made in Razak report to make Malay Language as the sole medium of instruction is a 'mistake of history'. now...isnt that like pot calling the kettle black?? it is not a mistake..the goverment did what they think best for the citizens at that time. it may not be the best now.. but who can predict the future? wat la weh~~~

half of the things he said is true.. English, being the Language of Wider Communication, is important. being able to speak, write, read well in English is crucial and becoming even more vital in the business world and information technology era. We must do something to increase the standard of English in Malaysia if we want to keep up with the rest of the world...

... and yes...at the moment..i can see many many flaws in our Education System.. and in regards to the standard of English in schools..


...why must we make the student suffer even more with Maths and Science in English? it was hard enough to understand it in Malay.. wat more in English..our second language..and to some a foreign language. Quoting the UK Minister of Education, 2003..he believes that lesson in the first language will help student succeed. I think its obvious...for eg how many Malaysian students are there in UK alone? All of us learn Maths n Science in Malay and many of us are engineering students... cant u see that simple connection???

and why...why... must we make the teachers [who are being undervalued... pressured... buried under tonnes of workload.. ] suffer even more and more??? haih~~ dah la kerja banyak..gaji sikit.. bagi lagi kerja extra...pastu bising2 kata cikgu tak buat keje?? malas mengajar? sapa nak buat kalau cam tuh?? tau tak apa itu motivation? extrinsic? intrinsic?? demmit! T_T ...even for me, trying to explain simple maths problem to a 9 year old in English is a problem [...i get A for maths in SPM as well ok?] with sufficient language and maths knowledge i couldnt possibly explain how to convert KG to g to an English child!!!! T_T [aku seorang yg gagal...]. its not as easy as it sound. FYI: Teachers DO have a life..they have families, kids and other resposibilities.. takde pasal la nak mengadap buku sepanjang masa weh~~

ok so u can see...im not 100% with that policy either.. and the implementation.... aduh la.. satu kegagalan tahap abadi...

no textbook... no coursebook... teachers not trainned.. help? aiyoo...far from easily available.. kalau masa tu la baru nak cetak buku...baru nak panggil cikgu pegi kursus 5hari [ingat 5 hari cukup ke?? huhu...] baru nak tubuh jawatankuasa untuk support cikgu2...hmm...tak kesian kat budak2 yg baru masuk skolah tuh??? T_T its not wrong.. maybe im not 100% with it.. it can be done...it can bring turmendous positive effect...but do it the correct way.. ni macam nak menghancurkan bangsa sendiri jek...amenda la..

above all...there is one more thing i couldnt understand.. why the fuss of trying to revive English schools and make Maths n Science being taught in English in order to increase the fluency of the English Language in our society...but there is NO major change done in the English Language Syllabus???? dah kenapa?? shouldnt that be the first one we looked at? Is our English Language Syllabus perfect? [haha]

...im amazed...


ok la.. enuf about the English Language status in Malaysia.. lenkali jek la aku sambung bab exam plak...T_T tu lagi satu la.. tolong la tukar segera... woi!! dengar tak nih??? tukar la exam system tuh... TUKAR...boleh tak?? tak berkesan langsung dah...

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penat dah...mau pegi tido wat keje.. saya ada 6200 lagi nak kena tulis...erk...yg ni leh masuk skali tak??...tapi cam tak masuk topic la...T_T...


...hujung minggu ni nak kena jadi cheerleader... tapi captain cheerleaders tgh demam..=P terpaksa la aku amik alih camnih..hehe...padan muka dia..ngahahaha...[woit..pegi mkn ubat la!!]


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reference:
Wikipedia article pasal Malaysian English...cari sendiri huahuahuahua....=P
Education History overview click here


disclaimer: feel free to correct me or argue or if u need further explaination...email me or put it in the comment box [i will be instantly notified by email]... but i am entitled to my opinion. anyway, what do i know... i am just a mere english teacher to be.. im going back to teach 7 year old kids how to say and write 'This is an apple'...[do remind me how hard can that be??? plisss...]... even after 4years of degree level learning and training...[sampai UK lak tuh... huhu] i am going to teach the same thing that Mrs Tan taught me 14years ago...only i hope to do it in a different way... =)

hiburan minggu ini

huahuahua....macam rancangan tb pojaan nenek aku laks...[sememangnyer nenek aku suka menonton rancangan itu...uhuk]

hehe...apa ada dengan internet...sudah dua hari aku tidak mengonlinekan diri~~

lebih 24jam aku tak online kat ym...
lebih 24jam aku tak masuk friendster
lebih 24jam aku tak check email
lebih 24jam aku tak bukak blog sendiri
lebih 24jam aku tak kenal apa itu internet~~


ni pun ehsan mc woo...laptop ku masih berkampong di drawing room... malas nak bawak naik.. aku malas nak dok bilik..*wink wink* i bet everybody loves raymond knows why.. huehuehue

konon2 nak buat keje tapi~~ huahuahua... *sengih sengih sengih lagi~~*

.....hari ni hari yg sangat indah.. hari ni mmg cerah..sgt cun...setelah semlm sangat foggy... misty...cam dok kat fairyland


ada 3 perkare yg buat hari ni sangat indah tak hengat~~~

1. aku telah mencekik nasi yg sangat banyak tak hengat...sampai aku sendiri plus kenkawan risau+takjub dgn kemampuan makan aku hari ini... [woo kata sbb aku dah start wat keje..cengini gemuk le aku..sbb lom buat lagi..baru konon buat jek...]
2. aku telah menglaundrykan baju2ku sebanyak 4 mesin.. huahua... aku budget sampai balik ar tak laundry dah...huahauhua...
3. ehem ehem.... project mega telah berlaku di bilik gerakan semalam...huehuehue

...baru tadi sal kata sekarang musim rambutan ek kat mesia~~~ biasanya kalau musim rambutan.. musim batuk ngan sakit tekak turut hadir sama....tapi nih...sampai ke UK musim sakit tekak.. batuk2...huahuahua...aku dah nak baik...tapi kawan2 baru nak kena...tu le..share lagi sudu mkn aiskrim ngan aku semlm...=P nasib baik tak kena HIV...huahuahuaa...

....but babes...i know how we felt...but remember...revenge best serveD cold..... teeeheeeeheee...

sesungguhnye aku sangat menyanyangi kawan2 aku...korang mmg best tau~~cayang korang.. macam2 idea kuar...isk isk kalau la korang leh bagi idea untuk D***** [perkataan ini telah di ban dari blog aku..] kan lebih best...T_T
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isk...aku perlu kembali ke dunia sebenar...

amendalah aku ni...

merepek sungguh le...

disclaimer: blog ini ditulis dengan influence yg sungguh kuat dari project manager...huehue aku lah sexytary terhebat abad ini...huarrgghhhh~~~ *lari lari....budak2 ni kejor....*

this blog is not to be continueD~~~


kuang kuang...ni kang ada plak org nak kata aku copycat dia nih..

progress...

hiatus.. [go check own meaning la..malas sudah mau copy...dictionary.com]


no progress wat so ever~~~

huarghh

since last...erm....was it like last tuesday...i mean 17th of Oct...huhu...

at this rate~~ i might have to extend my degree another year~~

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otak flooded with kuah kacang~~~


apsal rasa cam nak mkn mcm2 nih...

huhu...




worst of all....



....im not feeling very well~~~


=(

[Emptiness]

[from dictionary.com]

1.containing nothing; having none of the usual or appropriate contents: an empty bottle.
2.vacant; unoccupied: an empty house.
3.without cargo or load: an empty wagon.
4.destitute of people or human activity: We walked along the empty streets of the city at night.
5.destitute of some quality or qualities; devoid (usually fol. by of): Theirs is a life now empty of happiness.
6.without force, effect, or significance; hollow; meaningless: empty compliments; empty pleasures.
7.not employed in useful activity or work; idle: empty summer days.
8.Mathematics. (of a set) containing no elements; null; void.
9.hungry: I'm feeling rather empty—let's have lunch.
10.without knowledge or sense; frivolous; foolish: an empty head.
11.completely spent of emotion: The experience had left him with an empty heart. –verb (used with object)
12.to make empty; deprive of contents; discharge the contents of: to empty a bucket.
13.to discharge (contents): to empty the water out of a bucket. –verb (used without object)
14.to become empty: The room emptied rapidly after the lecture.
15.to discharge contents, as a river: The river empties into the sea. –noun
16.Informal. something that is empty, as a box, bottle, or can: Throw the empties into the waste bin.


another a word a day...

right now..its emptiness.. everything except my room~ to be exact.. my room floor..is full of my baju2..huhu...tak kemas gak lagi~~haih~~~sepah...sepah...sepah lagi..sronok tol sepah2 barang nih...

kosong~~ empty..that includes..my bank account...my dissie..my heart and my mind... my everything...and my tummy too~~~ lapor~~~

pssst babes: sementara aku takde mood nak wat keje nih..meh le aku wat jump start project tuh..huhu...aku takle pandai...tapi leh le sket2..hehe.. ;))

huehuehue....

agak2 Liz impress tak kalau aku antor seme ni kat dia?


my life does not revolve around this...i have a life...my life is exciting...my life is great...my life is is for me to live...huarrghhh...this is taking too much of my time~~~ adios..

i have a party to attend tonite.. must get ready~~~

princess in green tonite...just like last year...T_T

Malam Raya 2006

its half past 9pm..im alone and im in Chopstix Bayswater in London...

wat the heck? huhuhuhu... kjap lagi nak tapau chopstix...leh wat supper..=P sambil baca buku eddie gravie...huhuhu...keje tak wat lagi....T_T

tghhari kuar ukur london...then buka puasa...then gi makan banana split..erk..apa kes malam raya makan banana split?? ikut le...budget nak layan ice kacang...takde plak...sian dia..nanti mlm kang ada jek yg tak tido~~huehuehue...=P

tadi aku dah dgr lagu raya...takbir raya...etc etc..tapi tak rasa pun cam raya...i guess wat makes it feels like festive season is the people around u.. =l

im sure the babes back in marjon are having a blast of time..simpan la makanan tuh untuk aku sket k?? love u babes soo much~~

....oh ye...London to Sheffield: cubaan membuat aku dengki dgn text2 menu oleh meal sponser ko tuh gagal ok?? huehueue....tak dengki pun...makan le..ohh makan kan la untuk aku skali..=P

ada 30min lagi...apa ek nak tulis...

takde apa dah eh nak tulis...kang aku tulis dissie baru ye..huhuhu... bila la aku nak jumpa liz nih..T_T raya pun aku terkenang kan dia... sedih siot..tu baru ye sedih.....

k le...saya mau balik ke bilik sudah~~ nak wat reading sket...hopefully ada le yg baik hati nak call aku malam nih...hehehe...free minit bnyk tuh...ribu2...tipon le...simpan wat pe..buang duit jek...abiskan meh..hehe =P

selamat hari raya semua...esok semayang raya kat MSD...and makan2 pun kat msd...then petang aku pulang ke plymouth...selasa keje..rabu bersedia tuk ngadap liz...T_T mampukah??...

aku tamau jumpa liz....

roger and out 9.50pm

my obligatory raya post [maafkan daku...]

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase...






.... ini pilihan aku...aku tahu...ramai yg berkecik hati dengan pilihan aku...





Q:eQin...are u ok?
A: No I am not ok.




im so sorry... for those who feel hurt for what i choose.. bukan la niat nak meminggirkan... sekadar mencari ruang untuk bernafas...

maafkan aku...


Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin


buat Mama, Papa, Aja, Joe, Kak Yan, Adik..and my unborn niece/nephew~~ cant wait to raya with u =) pray for my health success, and safety...

buat warga rumah33... teman2 seMarjon...teman2 sePlymouth dan mereka di seluruh UK... London, Cardiff, Soton, Manchester, Sheffield, Notts, Birm, Leeds, Ireland, etc etc...eh ramai le plak...

mereka di Ausie and NZ...sempat ke korang balik raya kat rumah??~~~ isk isk..tak aci betul

mereka di serata Malaysia...nantikan kepulangan aku~~~

buat para blogger sekalian~~~ maka aktiviti blogging akan terhenti selama seminggu~~~ flooded wit rendang

and buat semua pembaca nurulyaqin.blogspot.com...

~~ Terima Kasih kerana sudi melawat~~

special to Fariza and Shahril: Selamat Pengantin Baru... ;)

tahun ni saya raya makan rendang Dissertation jek...nanti minggu depan saya bawak rendang tu ngan ketupat untuk Liz...sambil mkn leh ckp2 pasal dissie kan liz kan..kan?? T_T

'small but biG, fake but real, crazy but nice, retarded but awesome family'

.... dear heart.......please heal...

[hen party + 2 guys]

hehe...

bride-to-be: nak ajak sapa lagi ek?
me: lor...its ur party... up to u..
bride-to-be: kita ajak the guys skali la..
me: huh?? mana ada hen party ajak guys weh..
bride-to-be: ala...takpe la... ramai sket
me: huhu...ikut le...T_T

and so...it became hen party + 2 guys.. huehuehue...but it was 2 cool guys~~~ngaaaaaa

hehe...and setting the date was a nightmare~~~~ ada jek tak kena..

i have to work la...
i keje sampai malam...
i on call...
ala...i plak on call
i kena buat day take...
aku ada social night le...
ada game la weh...
im going to the sub that nite..
i have make other arrangements..

T_T pening aku dibuatnya~~

but it was all settled... at the last minute the date was changed to Wednesday the 18th of October..

me as the so-called-organiser...went out buying some stuff on the saturday before...abis satu pekan aku pusing~~

reservation was made at the venue chosen by the Bride-to-be.. superbly fine choice! and a cool table too~~~

hehe...but it was all worth it~~

Date: 18th October

Venue: Yukisan ~~ a japanese restaurant

Time: 8.30pm

Attire: choose your own theme

here are some of the pictures of the marvelous night out~~

check out the food~~~ oh bebeh~~superb!!

and check out the babes wit their fancy antenna~~~

and of course... the two guys~~aih~~comel la plak T_T sorry la guys...tak beli untuk korang

tentu skali bila food dah abis~~~

when the bill comes~~


ok...brapa ribu??? semua berdebar jek~~huehuehue...


£ 107.55


but it was all worth it~~

*faizan~lex~eQin~fariza~aisyah~sal*

u know what guys~~ we should do this more often u know...

mogok

tamau~~~


aku tamau....


dah kata tamau tu tamau la

tralalala....tamau~~~

[baru jek kena bebel ngan Sue..u only got two lesson a week....no excuses!!! *sambil geleng2 kepala..*]

huhu mana nak cari mak cik cleaner cam dia nih...T_T

huhu....


i have to throw tantrums again~~ its the only thing that keep me sane~~ it makes me happy!

must throw tantrums~~~ must throw tantrums~~~ must~~ need~~ NEED to throw tantrums~~


cant wait for my weekend away


semalam...parcel raya sampai...

ada tart nenas yg separuh nyer dah jadi tepung balik...tetap sedap walaupun kena mkn pakai sudu...huehuehue

pastu ada kurma yg besor gabok...manis gila~~~

pastu..hehe...ada kad raya!! uuuu....tiga lagi...hehehe...tima kacih!!! cayang korang ni tau!!!

from left..from papa..adik and mama

pastu....the best skali....terhebat abad ini.... hehe

kesukaan masa skolah2 dulu...hehe...tima kacih mama~~ u r definately the BEST!!!! (^_^) sedap oo...satu wat berbuka.... satu lagi wat sahur~~~ maka terubat la rindu ku pada roti krim yg harga nyer 50sen nih...ke naik harga dah????

see...mana ada kita makan yg posh-posh jek...huhu...i appreciate good food ok? ada ke kata BnJ Choc Fudge Brownie tuh pahit..isk isk...apa le...


haaaa.....korang cuba teka....

apakah bendanya ini???

hihihihihi....im sure it taste good~~~ wish i could have a bite..=P

demmit

huhu..ntah brapa kali dahle guna tajuk nih~~~ tapi kali ni version kelate..=P

DEMMIT

what ever it is.. ni la luahan hati aku..sempena nak raya nih..huhu

honestly there is alot going on.. aku sgt letih sekarang mentally, physically, emotionally, financially, socially, academically, psychologically,.... ehh semua la...

macam2 masalah ada...nak luahkan satu2 ..malas la aku nak pk semua tuh...yg kesiannyer kawan2 aku le..esp mereka [sorang jek sebenor nyer...sorang lagi jarang2 ada..busy memanjang~~~] yg slalu berada di alam siber nih~~ sorry~~ slalu jek menjadi mangsa keadaan. nanti kalau rasa cam takleh handle tuh...sila talipon tele-dera k? huhu... maap le....and tima kacih le sbb slalu jek dgr ..baca kot...bebelan aku tuh~~ hari2 le dok ngadu..mcm2 le.. and aku pun satu...wat korang cam takde masalah jek...padahal semua org busy...pening dgn mcm2 hal gak.. isk isk..what kind of fren am i? T_T not a good one at all i guess...


mentally~~~ resulting from all of below~~~

physically...basically sbb kesana kemari...dan tido pun tak nyenyak..banyak benda dlm kepala nih...bgn awal pagi yada yada...tido tak cukup..menambahkan kepenatan aku...

emotionally~~ banyak la...aku ni kalau aku takleh handle atau things go out of hands..aku mudah stress... and bila aku gagal menjalankan sesuatu tuh..aku tension la.. pastu mula la nak moody...abis le org tegur pun kena sembur~~~ huhu maap le...saya sememangnyer begini T_T huhu...tu yg sorang tuh...sorry tau hari tu...silap time le~~~ ampun ya!

pasal financial...tak yah kata le..busan dah aku cerita~~

socially~~ wah...busy sungguh le kawan2 aku nih...ada jek aktiviti...mcm2 le.. penat aku nak ngikut seme..isk isk..tu le korang..cuti summer balik mesia..tinggal aku sorang2 sangap kat rumah...ni baru la nak luangkan masa ngan aku...huhu...teruk tau korang nih...nasib baik sayang kat aku..hehe..

academically~~ baru jek last friday jumpa dean...huhu..takde apa le..kitaorg ni dept kecik jek..so dean pun kenal semua org..satu dept tuh dia kenal...=D tu aku sembang2 ngan dia..dia kata aku ni ok jek..balance la antara exam and assignment..yada yada...and aku mmg slalu le dpt markah border line.. [antara second upper and second lower k?? bukan takat nak lulus jek..huhu takde la teruk cenggitu..tau le saya ni pemalas tahap gaban] so dia cam nak push aku naik le..pastu dia ckp la kat aku...cubala..bcos aku pernah buat skali dulu..markah cam impressive~~skali jekla tapi...dan 'macam' jek la...sebenarnya tak impressive pun~~ dan best fren aku si Liz Robbins tuh...demanding gila la...nak tgk vygotsky, bruner, piaget, skinner, maslow, rogers, etc etc dalam dissie aku.. huhu.. pening ok!

psychologically~~~ walaupun aku dok baca buku psychology for language teachers...aku still tak tau apa makna sebenornya perkataan itu..so abaikan jek la..rasa cam best jek kalau ada masalah psychology nih.. huhu...leh arr test skill~~~=P

ok le sekian luahan hati kali ini...sekali lagi blog telah menjadi tempat aku merapu...maap le..semakin hari blog ini semakin kurang value...huhu...bila le nak jadi prolific blogger balik nih??

T_T


isnin 16hb oktober 2006~~

sungguh banyak benda nak kena wat hari nih~~ busy busy days ahead...

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sebenarnya...

saya rindu

saya sungguh rindu~~~~rindu sgt sgt...

...rindu akan warna pelangi

yg pernah hadir..walaupun hanya bagai pelangi petang

rindu akan kehidupan saat ditemani pelangi

ahh...

rindunya...

sungguh indah pelangi itu...

tapi semua itu memori

memori silam...

hidup kini tanpa pelangi

walau kadang kala...

ada warna pelangi hadir melawat..

membuat daku tersenyum sendiri...

merindui warna2 pelangi yg tiada lagi..

rindu~~~~

aku tersenyum lagi~~

terus merindui~~

sudah ku bilang...

huhu....kan aku dah kata....i told u so.. tu la...org dah kata..tamau dengar..


i knew it! i knew this could happen...


haa! sekarang sapa mau tanggung??? adeh la..


T_T


huhu...now i have to wait till i get back to Malaysia..


now its all ur fault...


its all ur fault...u said it wont happen..


but i knew it..i knew better!


camne nih?


i told u i always want that one...the exact one.. no substitutes...


and right now...


i want to wear that particular chocolate brown big layer skirt i bought in Glasgow last winter to next wednesday party...


and that skirt...


is now packed safely in the sealed box ready to be shipped today...

huargghhhhh.....abis aku nak pakai apa nih?????


tamau pegi la...


tatau nak pakai apa nih...


nak skirt tuh!!!!!


T_T


kalau organiser tak pegi the party she organised leh tak?


boleh la boleh laa...


huhu..do i really have to go?....


but i have nothing to wear!!!!!!


huhu....


and that devil wears prada.... eh zara.. =P


....i dont have anything to wear....


T_T now cannot do work..


must think of wat to wear.....

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me the impossible...always want what i cant have... me and my childish tantrums... please forgive the silly me...

[junks]

there is alot going on right now.

Last 2 weeks, the main topic of discussion: Dissertation. each and everytime we meet, doesnt matter where or when, on the way pegi kelas, hantar makanan kat rumah sebelah or belakang, selisih kat department, or even tgh tunggu bus pegi ASDA, huhu..its going to be 'camne Dissertation ko? brapa ribu dah?' its like the English talking about weather, 'Lovely day today..' or 'Awful rain isnt it?' huhu... in 5 weeks time. its all going to end.. come on guys.. 5 minggu jek lagi... T_T and i have another 8000 to write..

tomorrow, 13th of Oct..(^_^) im not going to write why its a special date..hehe.. it has been 3 years now.. officially it ended 3 years ago...but the matters keep coming up and go.. repeatedly.. till it worn me out and it all ended, FINALLY, not too long ago. i am so sick of it already... even tried running away and it keeps running back to me. until i found a friend, who really help me put an end to it. thanks. very much appreciated. my world now, bcos of u, is a better place to be. thank you very much. (^_^) wish i can repay u..

now i must help my other friends [a.k.a. babes] make their world a better place to be. trust me babes... i know its not easy..but we will hold hands...i will walk you through.. *hugs* no worries ;) its going to be a better place. things will get better.

ceh macam terror jek...huhu

anyway, i have nothing much to say...betul la. im always occupied tau.. here there everywhere... busy busy...

haih~~ apa saja la yg aku merapu nih...huhu..

My Raya plan is a bit wobbly rite now..isk isk...takleh cerita...kalau cerita tak suprise la hehe...
tapi tunggu le kemunculan aku di Hari Raya.. hehe...

k ler...saya menunggu mereka online..sementara itu saya mahu membuang masa dgn mengemas kertas2 yg bersepah nih...keje tak wat gak lagi...

the great 8000....mana mau cari nih...T_T

busy kah aku? (^_^)

Rendezvous [a noun] means...

1. an agreement between two or more persons to meet at a certain time and place.
2. the meeting itself.
3. a place designated for a meeting or assembling, esp. of troops or ships.
4. a meeting of two or more spacecraft in outer space.
5. a favorite or popular gathering place. –verb (used with object), verb (used without object)
6. to assemble at an agreed time and place.

when i said 'aku nak gi rendezvous', it does mean that ok? huhu.... apa le korang nih! isk isk.. tak baik buruk sangka bulan pose nih.. (^_^) ehek!


and the reason i didnt update this few days were because i have nothing to say...and all the things that i would like to say are just plain emotional.. after all i should make myself busy typing my dissertation not blogging...ahaks i still have to find another 1000 words to write..T_T boleh ke aku wat malam nih...isk isk..

im off to the library.... adieu! a bientot!

...beware...

haih~~~ macam ni teruk la... no one can survive kalau cam ni...

go away....

... im not good

...very very low threshold....

...i mean super low....

do not mess with me.

or i will bite you.

and you will regret you know me.

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right now. i need Ben and Jerry.

if you are not Ben or Jerry. buzz off.

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you know what???






i hate PMS!!!!!!

Mall Review: Drake Circus [DC for short...;) ]

this post is best read with this song in the background. video dia buruk sgt...so buh lagu jek..

Gwen Stefani Lyrics

Gwen Stefani Music Codes

Rich Girl Gwen Stefani

Drake Circus. i have been waiting for its opening since the first day i arrive in Plymouth. ;) and its open today...yeay!!! and with it..loads of exciting shops..hehe...

Plymouth is just a small town. and i live 20mins away from city centre. huhu...jauh ok? leh tido dulu naik bus.. gadis desa tau selama nih...dah le dok kat kampung baru marjon nih.. T_T haih~~

anyway.. since we have no class today.. Julie, Sudi and me decided to check the new mall ;) even though im broke...broke to the max...like brokeback mountain kinda broke.. T_T..

whatever.... here is the review.

The Building: located at the rear end of the city. first thing u see if coming from Mutley Plain. kinda pretty building. modern architectural touch..a bit arty. =P

Size: haih~~~ sedih tau...cannot compare it to Midvalley..huhu...kecik jek..2storey.. good size le

Entrance: have a few entrances.. ok jek..takde la grand ke apa ke..

Feel: it feels like in KLCC..sbb dia cam bulat sket..huhu..of course cannot compare it to KLCC...T_T

Best Stores:

First Place: NEXT... 2 storey weh...huge!! best..home department pun huge gila!!!

Second Place: Starbucks...besar ok.. spacious gila...nanti pas raya...kita lepak sana ek?

Third place: New Look....pun besar gak...much more better than the old store..fuyooo...

Favourite Pick: Primark..;) hehe...best value for money...need i say more?

Worth mentioning: Zara, River Island, H&M, Hotel Chocolat, Boots yg besar gabak..and it has a food court on the top floor.. looks like good stuff..worth to check it out..ada Moose outlet for smoothie fan like me...;) murah jek..£1.89 for 3 ingredients..nasib baik pose tadik..isk isk

Favourite Highlight: New Look's Shoe Department....fuyoo...best gila..yeah sure the colour is flashing fluorescent green that could blind u... but trust me babes..its soo cool!!! i mean the design is just perfect...

The store i could spend most money: NEXT

Why?: im a big fan of their formal shirt. to date...i have 2 Next shirt i have yet to wear and one still have its tag. BNWT (^_^) ..and i just saw my perfect suit...it cost £100..T_T Zara dont do suits like that.. nak yg tu la..tamau dah suit zara...

Highlight of the day: Zara's Red Coat...its soooo cun......and it cost £129...T_T

.......nak £500 for duit raya buleh???

a series of BB & B.

a series of Bad Boyfriends and Bitches. ode to my girlfriends.

hehe. truly inspired by wat happen today and lately. let me share my piece. ohh where do i begin...so many things to tell...

Bad Boyfriends.

boyfriends are neat. some can be pretty great, so im not here to bash all of them. well, in a barrel of apples, there must be some bad apples. same goes to boyfriends. some are just bad. horribly bad. to mention, i have found one*gulp*. and at the moment, there are another 2 gone up the list. *erghhh* well, arent u just glad u met. fell in love. things go wrong. then broke up? imagine u have to live with that im-not-sure-if-we-could-call-him-half-man? imagine u have to put up with it when u are 35? with 2 or 3 wonderful kids unlucky enuf to have that-not-even-half-man as a father ? [ouch...harsh!! plisss excuse my french!] arent u just glad you dont have to take care of that useless prat? cook for him. wash his clothes. yada yada. well take it this way, there is now another person to do all that instead of u. arent u glad? shouldnt u be thanking God now?? shooh now..go..say ur thanks to the Big Guy. more importantly, arent u just glad u will find a more wonderful guy to be with?? who will adore u and loves u unconditionally? take it this way girls.. u r plain lucky to know that now. instead of 5 years or 10years in the future. at least i am. ;) well, maybe not now...but i promise you will..



my oh my...i havent even started yet.



have i mention that im a beautiful.intelligent.talented.cool.honey? hehe...here goes another part..



Bitches.

there are 2 types of Bitches.

Type A: the A-class, posh, lead-own-freaking-life, dont-mess-with-me-or-i-will-mess-with-you-and-you-will-regret-you-ever-know-me.. can be generally nice, fun to be with, very very cool. HOTNESS: thats the word! usually, this type As comes in a package. they usually hang around with their kind only. *wink wink* government health warning: Do Not Mess With Them. or you wish you never ever met her at all... and she will start speaking spanish ...or french..*erk...hehe...*

Type B: the ever so wannabe of type A, couldnt even get close, so start messing with others life and if she is unlucky [or perhaps lucky] enuf she will regret everything she did when she mess with the REAL type A bitches's life.. ouch baby.. you step on the wrong foot! oppss!! 3 words of wisdom to this kind: GET A LIFE!!!! thats it. just bcos they cant have it. they have to mess with it. so nobody cant have what they cant have. sorry la girl. you got to do better than that. life isnt that simple. no simple life here. [or for that matter blind stars. ehek] now. kids. go get some education. or do i have to chase u around like a kid? get my point? KID!!!???

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in life, at some point, we have to meet with this series of people. its this people who will force you to grow and mature. realise that life isnt a fairy tale. cruel. harsh. bitter.nasty world. and soon you will be flying high like a beautiful angel.



take it this way.
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its ok to be broken. bcos if you are..from now on, you can only unbroken.
its ok to be lying there. bcos if you are.. from now on..you can only get up..
its ok to be meaningless. bcos if you are...from now on, meaningless can only be filled with meaning to make it meaningful
its ok to be bleeding inside. bcos if you are...from now on, it can only heal.
its ok to be unloved. bcos if you feel you are...hey look..you have so many people care for u..loves u!! *duh...at least me??!!!*
its ok to be saying nonsense. bcos if you are.. you can always learn and be a better person who will only speak of wisdom.
its ok to be sooo unsure. bcos if you are.. you can start thinking about how to be sure.

if things are at their worse. look at it this way.. things can only get better. if they are at the lowest level...they can only go up. there is no point whining over it. cry. get it out. move on. life is soooo wonderful. oh wait! you dont need me to tell you that... you knew.. dont u?

imagine..

if you are happy now. tomorrow you might be sad.
if you are laughing now. tomorrow you might be crying.
if you are enjoying things as it is now. tomorrow you might be suffering.
if you are standing now. tomorrow you might be lying dead.
if you are shining today. tomorrow you might be gloomy...[talk about weather...soo English..]
if you are sharing things today. tomorrow you might be alone.

scary isnt it?

well, what goes around, comes around...what goes up must come down.... we can only deal with it. =) dont be so sure you are the top now. for all you know...you might be going downwards now.




now.... now...look who's talking.....what do i know..ignore me. plisss. i beg u. im just a mere kid. educate me. yea...mari skolahkan saya! ehek.




free education for all.



hicks.



[almost 900 words...if only that bloody dissertation is as easy as this..T_T]


now where is my B.I.T.C.H name tag...(^_^)

The Shoe.

it still amaze me how i can walk half thru town in this... yes this! well...something like this.. killer heels...sexy and strappy...*drool*

honestly, its true. when i was 17, after school, i wear this 3and half inch stilettoes to hang out with my girlfriends. even when i get to KL by mid 2002, i still wear this and went shopping in Midvalley... huhu....seriusly i did.. well, obviously, balik tuh kena rendam kaki in hot water of course. but i did it..

then, next years, the height of my heels gone down by an inch every year.. by end 2004/5, it was an inch for daily wear... 2 and half inch for presentation purposes.. [confidence booster] and i save the black-strappy-sexy-diamante-killer heels for functions.

2005..move to UK, too bloody cold to be wearing sandals and slipper... my turquoise adidas running shoe become my best friend. and with the amount of walking i did..couldnt possibly imagine how i could walk in those heels. it amaze me even more...not that i need an extra inch.. hey, layak jadi model k? im tall enough thank.you.very.much. anyway, they are called stiletto for a reason... =P

i did bought a pair of high heels..and wore it once to last year's May Ball. thats it. im taking it home with me. even, when i had to buy a new shoe... i bought another adidas...well two of it..*gulp* [no...not sponsered...just couldnt find a good decent nike or sketchers.. or anything else..]..and so..since last november..my feet has seen nothing but adidas..=p

not till summer came.. Flats has become so popular..and cute..

....too cute to be ignored by me. hiding behind, its too hot to be wearing my adidas shoe.. i bought a pair of white with silver lines flats in New Look. comel...*drool* that white pair has seen europe k? and i wore it on my birthday. then its time to move on.. upon my return from europe, i bought another 2 pairs of flats. perfect for autumn. bronze and with a big butterfly on it.. (^_^) and another black and white checkered with a litte bow on it.

im buying at least another pair and bring it home with me.. after all, i have to wear shoes [read: kasut bertutup] when i get back to college in KL by mid January... T_T [what? Mesia panas k?? aku pakai selipar jepun jek gi kelas in summer last year..huhu] so might as well bring a pair or two home...of course, the best part will be...

cantik nyer kasut u...mana u beli?

ohh..thank you. i beli kat UK..(^_^)

and...yesterday, when i went out with the girls.. ada sale half price kat NEXT...we stopped by in New Look... O M G....they have it!! damn it..must have...need to have it.. its The Shoe.

....its not this one..its the same concept...but the one in New Look lebih cun...more berkilat... more pointy...more feminine... more wham...*sigh*

i did try one on last 2 weeks somewhere else...but that one doesnt gave the same effect that the one in New Look gave..*ohh baby...that shoe kills*

add this to my list...im taking this home..im sure the shoe wont weight a tonne. it must be brought home with me.... along...with that coat... that jumper...that sweater...that jacket...and yesh..those too...all of those over there...

ok. now i found the prefect shoe. how about bag? hmm....now where did i put that magazine... need some inspiration...

(^_^) did i tell u im majoring in shopping?