another goodbye..

hello there. its all over now. 5 and a half years. i hope it really over now. i now have to serve for at least 5 years. given the circumstances i pass the KISSM exam. it was bloody hard ok? if i did not*touch wood*, i might want to consider give up working for the gov. the idea of me going through kissim all over again was just too daunting.

i have 3 weeks before the letter that detemine the rest of my life arrive. in that mean time, i should worry how to live without sayang being just 10km away from me. huhu.. i have 10 thousand things on my mind right now. like how to live for the next 3-6 months without allowances!!!

the idea of me blogging tonight is to tell how i dread this place. IPBA. the so called the prestige teacher training college. the list of complaints will take up to a year to be completed. thus i skip that part. remaining the only selected few wonderful and great memories from the moment i say Hello to Laylee [my first friend in IPBA and we still are very dear till today...] till the tears that fell when i say goodbye to those who are dear to me.. those who vanish the silence in my life... those who colours my days.. those who laugh and cry with me..those who climb the endless stairs in ipba with me... [promise never to forget that 'Tangga Kejayaan'.. ever!] those who left Malaysia to the wonderland with me.. those who i will remember my whole life..

Those are

Foundation class D
the girls of 306A 2002-2003
the girls of 302B 2004
the hip and happening Marjons
The girls of H33, H32, H34, H30, H31 and Sue!
...beethoven pun skali..
and the guy that i adore so much in H19! huehue
and last but not at all least...the gorgeous babes of 506A.

... another year another goodbye. but the tears are the promise to get back together again someday. . i am going to miss all those times we had together. IPBA is the place u depend on friends to be able to go through the day. and i depend on you...

fuyoooo.....

hello. hi there. how are you? have u been busy lately? have you had restless nights lately? have you been wondering alot as u are unsure of something? well, i have. and its all over as i am back in college before Maghrib yesterday feeling better about things. well one thing. and i have to bother about alot of other things. =( for e.g passing my Kissim, going to BTN this weekend, and wondering about my posting. damn its tiring to be a working adult. huhu...

anyway, about that one thing. it might be a small matter to others. but..huhu damn it bothers me like crazy mad. you see...i am the first daughter. i wasnt there when it happens to my brothers. i wasnt there to see how my parents deal with it. anyway, it happened to my brothers..my parents reaction to me might be different from my brothers. thus this is totally a new experience and i have no idea how it happened in my family. T_T

Last saturday, i went back to Kuantan with my boyfriend to be introduced to my parents after being pressured by his parents and demanded by him. Demmit dia sket punya rilek..aku lak yg gelabah. confident giler aa..tension tol aku.

Fortunately everything went well... things that i fear the most does not happen. and i dont want to think of it anymore. well, considering his long list of excellency, he always pass with flying colours in everything that he does. punya la dapat green light from my parents, sampai my mom bought a green shirt for him...haih~~~ di sayangi abis la tuh.. *eyes rolling*

now i am more happy to be working in Kuantan while he is in KL. about making it official? uiks.. let me breath ok? let me have some deep quality sleep for a few weeks.. then we talk ok?

life goes on..now im trapped in this college until 4pm every weekdays. damn does my end of year be this stressful every year??

i am a teacher. i should be getting long holidays at the end of every year!

hey people!!!

yeah i dont know when i will be back permanently! but hey.. its better than nothing. anyway, just had my graduation dinner the other day... every one look damn lovely and gorgeous. and i must say SEXY!!! except for a few sakai ones laaa... huhuhu.. nonetheless.. hear are the pix..

sneak peak of the sexiness...

on a scale of 1-10 this pix rate at 5 ;)

the unlucky table 10...=( tak menang pun..

Marjonz reunited!

The gediks unlimited!

The dress make me feel like im a cake..ehhh princess!

yaqin: most likely to make a living from Ebay....

eh? betul la kot...we will see after im done teaching... ;)

thats the final year and graduation dinner. guess we will bringing husbands/wives and kids the next time we meet... hmmm in 5 years time? perhaps!

2002-2007

the good, bad and ugly. memories that will be cherish forever. experiences that prepares me for the real world. friendships worth to hold a lifetime.

im here...

for tonight im here. i will be missing again... soon.

there has been alot of things happening. im completely done with my practical. puasa. and raya.

puasa in malaysia mmg best. one reason: pasar ramadhan. walaupun menu aku sama jek hari2.. huhu puasa kat UK: kul 4.30 leh buka puasa dah...hehehe... tu jek la..tapi kena masak sendirik..

My raya was ok. Yeah no doubt raya with family is great... i dont have to worry about a thing. i dont have to stay up all night to goreng kerisik and teman sophie to masak rendang... i dont have to worry about kuih raya or kemas rumah.. i just wake up on hari raya...mandi n get ready with my baju raya... and collect duit raya yg banyak...=)

but yeah.... i miss my raya wif friends... i even miss my raya alone in london last year. it might sound lonely...but helll yeah...i like it. after raya prayer i head to Starbuck to get my fav latte and grab a cinnamon roll...then i walked slowly to Hyde Park and slowly sipping my latte and reflecting on my life... damn i miss it.

perhaps next year, i will be raya-ing with my in-laws.... ngaaaaaa.....


yesh. i have met the whole family. its high time for him to go and meet mine... in fact we are planning to go back to Kuantan sometime next month.

before that. im attending my graduation dinner soon. 3rd November. and i have a great big dress for the occasion. =) wait for the pix...

thats all folks. selain daripada itu... i have nothing else to say... i will try to be back more often than once a month... =s

take care!

Here i am..

yes. i am here. nothing to blog in my mind bcos i have a few issues which makes me worry sick.

first of all, how am i going to survive till my next allowance arrived in my bank account.

secondly, how and when am i going to start doing my research task.

thirdly, the state of darling's health is worrying me sick.. with no obvious problem when diagnossed, i have no idea whats going on with darling. perhaps i should send darling to a professional for more in depth diagnoss. hmmm im worried. =(

the death of darling is freaking me out... help!!!!!!

hi there..

yesh it has been a while since last i was here. believe me to pieces that i miss every moment i used to spend my precious times here. i wish i could blog like i used to. but all this has been expected way before this actually happen.

anyway, i just had one week break from school. went home for 7days. 7 cool days doing nothing but nganga and tengok tv. trust me. i wanted to blog. but i know i couldnt post it until i got back to KL. im just too freaking lazy to use the super slow dial up. so here i am with a basi idea.. 10 reason why i am a boring girl...

10. the only magazine i read is CLEO
9. i prefer to flip watson's or guardian's flyers rather than other magazines
8. i rather be home alone than wait in 1km long queue for a movie in KL

7. the first time i watched a movie in KL was last month. Harry Potter movie in Midvalley.

6. my astro subcription doesnt include V channel and MTV

C. nor does it includes HBO or Star movies

4. all i have is the E! channel that keeps repeating its show a thousand times a day.

3. i watch Hallmark's movie which still showing the same movie from 2 years ago

2. i dont watch the sports channels and rarely watch the cartoon channels

1. my favourite channels are 50, 52 and 53...but i like channel 11 the most!

i guess i qualified in the geeks category. tapi still ok la...dari ada orang tu tgk cerita hang tuah.. hehehe malam tadi tgk cerita Suara Saleha...pastu nak pinjam buku.. sbb dah busan dok rumah.. alossss cian... Pride and Perjudice ada la...nak?

hehehe....

my birthday cake~~~

my chocolate birthday cake~~~
the babes! gorgeous!

i know i know...it was ages ago~~ but hey...dont blame me. blame the workload and internet connection...huhu

23rd Birthday...

=)

Last saturday was my birthday. my 23rd birthday. However, my friends celebrated it 2 days earlier...huhu what a surprised!

We went out for a movie. Harry potter that is. huhu...and that was my first time tgk wayang kat midvalley...fulamak...gila aaa... and after the movie and toilet break... they say they want to go to Burger King for dinner. ok jek la.

... walking super slowly...

huhu...approaching Burger King I saw Julie... and i tot dia dtg makan ngan adik dia kat situ.. but i saw a cake...

OMG!!!!!! hey korang....huhu... tears of joy running down my cheek.. thanks korang!!

and most importantly i have a chocolate cake and friends with me!!! yippeeee!!

and on my birthday, 28th of July, i went out alone =( to KLCC ... for a shopping spree =) hehehe... i bought a shirt for sayang bcos it was 50 percent off and a sandal for me! aaa basically tu jek la.. ada gak aa beli2 sket kat guardian and then birthday meal in DeliFrance Bistro... chicken apa tah.. and i discovered there is a pie kiosk in KLCC! and they sell Cornish Pastie!!! superb aaa...

actually i wanted to buy a bag for myself..tapi jumpa sandal plak..hehe...

two words: love it!
....as long as i have a chocolate cake and friends with me..anything goes!

Countdown: 9 days left...hehe....satu digit dah...aaa nervous2...huhu

just like old times~~

yeah...it has been a blessing. sometimes, when im lucky i can online from my room. just like old times... gorgeous isnt it?

anyway, im back to school today. and they are having exams, and i dont have to terjerit jerit like orang gila~~~ superb isnt it?

and it has been raining for days now... pouring like cats and dogs...aaaa great isnt it? better if you could hide under the duvet selimut ijau yg disarungkan duvet cover yg kaler purple tuh....huhu anyway, my room is still gorgeous...and i am damn lucky because i still do not have a roomate...
wonderful isnt it?

yesh. i never have roomate before. ok. when i was in Matrix, those two girls does not count! bcos i have known them for two years and we literally stick together during that time. then, i move to this place called IPBA [institut perguruan bapak aku...*rolling eyes*] i am damn lucky for the 2 and half years im here...i get to stay in the A room. tho they joke as i get the bilik orang gaji cos its right next to the kitcher. and its has toilet and shower attached to it. and far the rest of the rooms. yeah whatevaaaa~~~~ i still get my own room and my own bathroom. =p so thats before i move to my room in the attic... yeah that one. you remember that room which always being hit by tornado?

thats the best room ever. with superb internet connection although through the famous and gorgeous pink network cable. and the view...isnt it just wonderful? waking up to sunny days, bright blue skies, dark grey skies, white roof top, or golden yellow leaves... everyday is different there. you have sunny sunshine one minute and snow falling.

owh how about that always squeky clean sink you have in the room? hehe..thanx to the most wonderful mak cik cleaner! who always made my bed when i am away...miss u sue!!!

and this year, i move to room B, im supposed to have a roomate. but honestly, i can treat her like she does not exists or invisible. most of the time she is not around and most times if she is around she will be sleeping. and honestly to say, i think i only communicate with her less than 100words this year! im not kidding. and now..she is no longer my coursemate. she is no longer in my batch. and im left with her stuff in the closet but i have taken over her bed and table~~~ hehehe...and i can online from my room! yipppeeeee!!! just like old times....

aaa....old times...wonderful isnt it?

anyway, exactly this time last year.. i was on the way to venice~~the most unromantic part of the princess europe tour~~ huhu...and i still cant forget that beautiful patchwork table cloth!

weeeeee.....

guess wat????? im in my room rite now....my own room!! on the top floor..



weeee..... leh online kat bilik....this is the second time. huhu... and first time blogging from my own room. on my used to be bed. owh i have change side.. since i own the room..i do what i want ler.. hehehe



ok la...nak check bank balance sat.. £££ baru jek masuk...weeeeee!!!





what a happy happy day for me....





owh sayang in london rite now... will be flying off to germany tomorrow morning waktu UK.. take care! have fun...and miss me....

one sweet day.

On this very day…there are 2 important events…

The first one …18th of July marked the 7th month of our relationship… it has been 7 months and we have been far away from each other for that period… =(but no worries.. you are coming back soon to be reunited with me… 22days to be exact… =)

And on this very day…you are celebrating your graduation. You are officially graduated with Master of Engineering in Mechanical Engineering from University of Sheffield.

Congratulations and celebrations…=) Your ceremony starts at 12noon…and you will proceed to the award giving ceremony… [I wonder what you are being awarded for…perhaps best boyfriend... hehehe…] and to your graduation lunch…don’t forget to smile for your graduation picture ok? And save one for me…*hugs*

Sayang, Congratulations on your graduation. I am sure this will pay off all your hard work, sleepless nights and bloodshot eyes...*wink* I may not be there with you, but I hope I am always there in your heart… Have fun and enjoy your celebration day with your parents. I hope the sun is shining brightly on you today and your future...

Missing you loads,
Baby

missing person...

hi there...

im currently looking for my other babe....

last heard she has landed on this hot hot land... huhu..

i believe for the summer hols...hehe...rindu akak ek?

she could have tried contacting me through my celcom...

and failing so, i hope she could get hold of my maxis number...

i do hope we could meet sometime soon...

bcos i miss my other babe so much!!!!

kakak miss u ainee....

my first time...

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biarlah ia tidak direkod...tapi aku rasa cam nak rekod jek...biar semua orang tahu..haih~

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to tell or not to tell...

to tell or not to tell.....

hehe...

kalau nak wat keji tak cakap aaa....

hehehe....


ye laaaa ye laaaa...orang cerita laaa....

my first time...

[cam suspen jekkkk....]

ye today is my first time screaming at them..i was extremely angry at my year 3.

for my one hour lesson, i intended to teach reading with writing... so i did some reading from the textbook. i asked some questions to move away from the text... so it would not be too dull... [konon cam terror aaa..hehehe...]

then i went to the next page... there are 5 pictures. and there are some words at the bottom of the page to help the students to make sentences. i already go through the sentences orally by nominating them to create sentences for each pictures.

then i asked them to take out their English 1. i ask them to write the day and date on top.
then on the 2nd line write Fun Times. and on the 3rd line write page 68, textbook. i wanted to train them recording where the work come from. i even draw the lines..like the one in their exercise book. ok. i can tolerate if they asked..kat mana cikgu...tepi ni ke? [while showing on their book..] teacher...kena tulis ek yg tu? miss yaqin...is it like this?

ok i understand they would ask such questions because this is the first time they were asked to do such thing... then i draw a box... and below the box i wrote...'write sentences for the pictures above' and i read the instruction more than 3 times.

ok some of them are still busy trying to paste the pictures. i asked them to sit and i will go around helping them.. and i asked the rest to start writing the sentences.

would you like to know how many sentences i asked them to write? 5 sentences for 5 pictures.

when i was a student in Methodist....mana ada cikgu baik hati nak tolong guntingkan gambar untuk budak2.. and i wanted to go round helping those who can do it on their own.. but i cant do that because i was busy cutting the pictures for them.. huhu... and in between ada lagi yg tanya cikgu...tampal cam ni ek?...then...ada yg brani tanya...'kena tampal ek cikgu?' ok...i started to boil... Ye! tampal dlm buku... [grrrrr......]

after i have done with the cutting...i go round the class...ada yg still dok salin arahan lagi... huhu its taking them 20minutes to write day and date, cut and paste and copy the instruction. then.. i saw one or two of them doing the second or third one..ok sejuk sket.. about 2 minutes to go..then ada sorang ni..' teacher..write sentences aaaa?' while picking up his book and showing me to the blank space below the pictures and without the instruction....


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sabar eQin...sabar...

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I had enuf!

tak bleh sabar dah!

'i wrote the instruction on the board. i said it more than 3 times. what is the meaning of the word instruction? what is it in malay? '

arahan...

if there is an instruction. what do you do?

follow...

haaa pandai plak....cant u read??

pertama kali aku jerit cam tuh... dan pertama kali jugak aku nampak budak2 tu kecik sangat... and diam jek seme...

i hope that will be the last time...

and tomorrow...i have the best remedy for those who cant listen...

a listening game. and those who do not follow instruction will get it from me.

i think the 'Simon says...' game is good to train them listening to instructions...

Year 3, 9 year olds, can't listen to simple instructions..

i will start from zero tomorrow...

stand up, sit down, raise your right hand, left hand and turn around....

kalau tu pun takleh nak dengar jugak...




sayang....i dont want to teach! i give up before even started....


i hope not...

lesson well learnt

Fail to plan is planning to fail...

my last weekend was cut short as i had to go to school on saturday... thus i spend my sunday layzing around to recharge my energy level. and so my lesson plan for the week suffer.. i only able to plan ahead for the monday and tuesday..

lesson well learnt.. T_T

huhuhu

anyway, im counting days now... i only have 32 days to go.. just another month to go!(^_^)

after more than 7months of agonising wait.. its all going to be worth it. i just hope everything will go on as planned. cant wait to set my eyes on you again...

cerita hari ini...

hari ni kan....
aaaa lepas tu kan....
hahahahh
aa then...
budak tuh..
ko tau dia ckp apa....
eeee aku rasa nak gantung jek kat kipas...
geram betul aku...
tadi aku masuk la kelas tuh..

begitu la permulaan cerita paling popular minggu ini. hari ni dah seminggu la kitaorg pegi skolah. hari2 macam2 cerita di kongsi.. ada yg nakal...ada yg cakap tak berhenti..ada yg cakap tak kluar suara... ada yg baik.. ada yg comel tapi ya Allah...tuhan je la yg tau.. melompat sana...melompat sini.. ada yg pandai.. ada yg tak tau baca.. ada yg bergaduh kat kelas... tapi setakat ni takde apa sangat la. i havent really start teaching them . i will have to prepare alot of activities and games to keep them interested. i will make full use of what i learnt and pick up while i was in Marjon.

im teaching English Year 3 Bestari and 4 Budiman.. and Music 2 Kreatif and 4 Jaya..

hmm tak tau la.. i have another 11 weeks to survive..

[blank]

i have like 30 baju kurung to iron plus 10 tudung but yet i still feel like i have nothing to do.

lalalalala.....


emo
emo..

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nak update apa nih????

masa terluang yg sepatutnyer terisi dgn aku memanjat tangga yg horror tuh.... untuk menguruskan borang posting aku *again* huhu... or i could go to KL sentral untuk menambah koleksi tudung2 ku...[setelah teruja melihat koleksi tudung mc woo yg sebakul...and also supaya bilangan tudung n baju seimbang~~ hehehe..] but of course its too hot..thus i rather stay in my pajama all day~~~

mc woo telah selamat bertolak ke Dengkil semalam...ketiadan mu akan dirindui..=(

as i was tidying up my desk [ye aku mengemas~~huhu] i saw the assignment task i have to complete during my practical. aaaaaa yeeee and so i though my assignment era was wayyyyy over.. huhu...

i remember each time we felt so burden with all the assignments, i always said i had enuf of it and wanted to quit study....but yet i survive every time...and i pass every exam.. *thank God!* even while doing *so i thought* my last assignment... i still say.. aku nak berenti blajo!!! huhu... didnt realise it was *so i thought* my last piece of work..huhu.. anyway, no point complaining. i still have a 2000words report to write. will do it before sayang arrive home! =)

and yesh...im counting the days.. *ngeeeee* soon bebeh!! come back soon!!! hehehe...

and someone is coming home today... and summer has finally arrive... which brings my memory to my last summer, the best summer ever...Summer of 2006. World Cup~Europe trip~bday in Amsterdam~Picnic~BBQ~Beach Babes~London trip~Boyfriend *wink* ~ and Mr D!

those were the days...

Seasons change and fashion change…
what remains stay remained…
No matter where I go
With who I am
I am still the Nurul Yaqin u know…

Only changed to be a better person by day…

eQin -14 October 2005

winter turns to springs
springs turns to summer...
look what fate has brings
it brought us together...
summer turns to fall
fall turns to winter...
together we stand tall
promise to be friends forever...
winter turns to springs
springs turns to summer...
we lost one of our wings
in coldest springs we silently suffer
summer turns to fall
fall turns to winter...
it wasnt that bad at all
we left it all there forever...
14 Feb 2005 - 30 December 2006
Plymouth, Devon, United Kingdom.

eQin - 14 Jun 2007

back date...

My darling…

Ok first of all, my darling is not my boyfriend [just in case you think this is mushy love note for him. Nope. It is not. So u can keep on reading. BUT it is still a love note …just not for him… ;)]

Remember more than a year ago…I posted an entrée about the death of my darling..that was the time Julie called her boyfriend ‘darling’ too….on her YM status it said.. My Darling is coming… but on my YM status… My Darling is dead. Huhu…sad wasn’t it? That was a real slap on the face. I admit I didn’t actually care about darling health care. To be frank..that was the time I least care about myself, what more others or for that matter darling’s. But her death was upsetting. I was devastated. Sad. Mourning. Most of all, im Lost. A total lost.

In my [used to be] room there are two windows I can look out to the outside world…one with the beautiful view of the sky if u lie on my [used to be] bed. The other let me into the borderless world. Without darling. My walk-in-closet is so quiet. Too quiet till it scares me. Im just lost without her. Im not sure of what to do. I just freeze without her. Imagine if Mary lost her little lamb. That’s how. That was the time when I used to lie down on my bed till my heads get dizzy [I cant lie for a very long time…I get headaches and it spins and spins…8 good night sleep is enuf for me] When I get dizzy..i went out for a jog or walk. I start looking after myself. Make sure I get all the vitamins and other nutrition I need. I took multivitamins, vitamin C and calcium tablets everyday without fail. My gum was suffering bcos i lack of calcium [or some other vitamins that I’m not taking enough].

After a month or so…Darling was returned to me. All alive and kicking. Ready to keep me company for my [so I thought] lonely summer days. I appreciate darling a little more than I used to. We never know what we have till we lost it. Since then, its weekly spa session for darling… deep cleaning and detox… including full facial care..and I still do it for her till today! I truly care for darling at that time.. and my self too. she is there night n day…when springs turn to summer… keeps me busy thru the autumn gust…keeps me warm thru the winter.. gosh I love darling too much!

Life was lifeless without Darling. She is my everything. I don’t think I can live without her again.

But I was half wrong. Actually there are limited things I can do with darling without the other window. [to be honest I would like to have both windows back… cos the one with the beautiful view of the sky is replaced with an ugly view of a construction site..yikes!] the other window…is taken away from me [consequently my blog suffer bcos of that]. Thus limiting darling’s use to doing assignments, entertainment [music n movies mainly..], and freecell [lame. I know!]. my PSP is dead. Still looking for the CD to put it in Darling.

Nonetheless, I still love Darling like before. It doesn’t change a bit. I still care and darling still get her weekly spa session. *hugs* I do love darling so much. After all, if it is not bcos of her…me and my summer friend *wink* [the one who keep makes my summer not lonely as I thought it would be...] couldn’t possible stay up all night chatting till morning comes…can we? Hehehe… can’t wait to break our 6 hours straight chat session record after you are done with ur exam!!!! It will be more challenging bcos we have to accommodate the 7hours time difference. And of course, I shall prep Darling for the event…oh yesh…

Dearest Darling, although I once neglect you.. I hope with the endless care and love showered upon you now... you would be delighted to stand by me through thick and thin for years to come.. I love you so much Darling.. can never ever replace you. My one and only.. *hugs*

28 may 2007

itsss sooo not fair!!!!

...huhu...kenapa???? mengapa???? isk isk....jeles betul saya.... bandingkan 2 gambar ini dan bagi tau yg mana lebih menarik...

isk...tgk la graph2 tuh...kaler2... cantik plakk tuh....huhu

and this one....didnt it reminds u of your childhood days....wicked eh?

my dissie contain just words and one table...tu pun aku curik kat buku...huhu...but yours is sooo pretty... it should be call 'My Beautiful Dissertation' like Liz suggested for mine... huhu


nonetheless, i had fun proof reading it tho i had to literally guess which is the noun,verb, or adjective..huhu *pening*

u soooo owe me ice cream! ;)

My Official Summer Song [2007]

Last year, i posted an official summer song. Corrine Bailey Rae, Put your records on.

This year, although im in Malaysia...i would like to post this song as my official summer song 2007.

Lily Allen, LDN...

...sing along..

Riding through the city on my bike all day
Cause the filth took away my licenceIt doesn't get me down and I feel ok
Cause the sights that I'm seeing are priceless
Everything seems to look as it should
But I wonder what goes on behind doors

A fella looking dapper, and he's sittin with a slapper
Then I see it's a pimp and his crack whore
You might laugh you might frown
Walkin' round London town

Chorus
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ?
Would I wanna be anywhere else
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ?
Would I wanna be anywhere else

When you look with your eyes
Everything seems nice
But if you look twice you can see it's all lies

There was a little old lady, who was walkin down the road
She was struggling with bags from Tesco
There were people from the city havin lunch in the park
I believe that is called al fresco
Then a kid came along to offer a hand
But before she had time to accept it hits her over the head, doesn't care if she's dead
Cause he's got all her jewellery and wallet

You might laugh you might frown walkin round London town

Chorus
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why?
Would I wanna be anywhere else
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why?
Would I wanna be anywhere else

When you look with your eyes
Everything seems nice
But if you look twice you can see it's all lies
Life, yeah that's city life, yeah that's city life, yeah that's city life
Life, yeah that's city life, yeah that's city life, yeah that's city life


Chorus
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ?
Would I wanna be anywhere else
Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ?
Would I wanna be anywhere else

When you look with your eyes
Everything seems nice
But if you look twice
You can see it's all lies
When you look with your eyes
Everything seems nice
But if you look twice
You can see its all lies



i know it actually shows the bad side of london but i dont care. london is still my favourite city. city of my dream. =) i love london sooo much!

sun in the sky why ohhh why would i want to be anywhere else....

OMG!!!!!

i actually survive my FIVE years training...huhu...i could not believe i have come to the end of it.


Thursday, 10.40am. My assessment in schools exam paper ended. and my days of being undergrad student actually ended for REAL!!!!! OMG OMG....im soooooo happy...

.....but then....no more student discount for me???!!!! alllaaaaaa.....huhuhuhu

aku nak merepek jek ni... lama tak online n blogging. hehehe...

18 june im going to school as a teacher in practice. no longer as teacher trainee. hehehe...naik pangkat sket..

k la my hunny is online..lama tak chatting...hehehe


adiossss!!

im going to announce my official summer song for this year..wait for it!

LTP

LTP

Linking Theory to Practice. My last coursework submitted was for that module. Im not here to babble about that module. I am here to talk about linking theory to practice in the real world, in other words, reflecting the latest trend in education system and the recent changes made to our education system and its effectiveness.

It has been sometime ago since I last write about educational stuff. One reason this issue came up in my mind is im preparing for my examination. Thus I had to read awful loads of stuff. Anyway for this term, I had to take 4 modules. Out of 4 I have to sit for 2 exam papers which is quite a lot for the last 2 and half years. Yikes…for the whole 2 years I was in UK I only sit for 5 [read: F.I.V.E] exam papers and 2 of it was seen paper. Hehehe… easy peasy lemon squeezy…

[that was just to warm me up for the real issue here…=) ]

For this term, the 4 modules were Curriculum Studies, Assessment in School, Professional Development, and Linking Theory to Practice. The exam papers are for the first 2 modules. The other 2 modules are fully assessed by courseworkSSS. [Sorry..had to emphasize the amount of work they gave us..huhu]

In reflecting the content of each module, I can conclude:

Curriculum Studies: moving towards Learner centred curriculum [Smart Schools, Cluster Schools..etc] ..i heard they revamp the curriculum again…(*_*) I wonder what’s new..hmm

Assessment in School: Alternatives assessments i.e. moving away from examination oriented [Smart School, Cluster Schools…]

Professional Development: Reflective Practitioner i.e teachers being more reflective towards their teaching practice. [One of the criteria in smart schools…]

For the countless essaySSS we did..i had only touched part of alternative assessment and none on reflective practitioner and only ¾ of moving towards learner centred curriculum.. Unlike Julie who did 2 out of the 3 issues...huhu [pergghhh Julie…kalau ko tak dapat A for AS and PD..keji aa diaorg nih…]

Ohh wait…Linking theory to practice: …..mainly I learn how to write scheme of work, lesson plans, micro teach my lesson plan and reflect on the whole process. That’s the classroom works I have to do as a teacher.


All 3 issues are the current trend in education systems around the world and we are not really far behind in terms of putting it on to paper to be implemented into practice. *wooohooo…way to go Malaysia!!* However…the real concern here is the rate of these changes reflected in the classroom and to practice. It is no longer the government has to make the changes to the education system. It is now the amount of practice in our classroom in reflecting the changes made.

Since I left school, the amount of changes geared to modern education system is huge. However, I could see that Malaysian [inc its government] do not have the patience in making these changes. Everything must be bold and big. Massive. And not to forget it brings instant results like 2minute noodles. And in case you don’t realise, we are dealing with human beings, small children who practically hate changes and love routine, teachers who have been trained with long held believe, supported by 30 years experience of teaching and none of her student fail any exam, and parents who of course detest the idea of their children for being the guinea pigs of the system.

Yo people! How about small changes that brings results. No more mega projects that brings nothing but frustration, which gets us nowhere that is…not to mention costs like millions!

So *clap clap* for realising the importance of moving towards learner centred curriculum and alternative assessments...a little late though, but better late than never.

Tell those things to the public, educate them. Tell them its okay if ur child does not have any English homework for a day and it does not mean that the teacher is not teaching. Tell them getting all those belas2 A’s means nothing if the child learns nothing. Route learning is waaaayyy back dated. Meaningful learning is here to stay. Tell them to give more concern about the child education not just leaving it to the teachers. Teachers should do more parenting and parents should do more teaching [quoted, can’t remember where or when].

Tell the teachers the advantages of learner centred curriculum. Teach them how to practice it classroom. Don’t tell them to ditch what they have been doing. Tell them how they can do it differently. Show them the effect of learner centred curriculum. Train the teachers to be reliable assessor to conduct valid assessments. Value classroom assessments as well as national level examinations, not just give it pass/fail credit. Tell the teachers the effect of being a reflective practitioner and the effect it has on the students and themselves in being professional. Show them how they could do it.

And accept the fact that these changes take time. The changes you made now won’t show the results tomorrow, next month, or that same year. Haven’t we learned? We change the medium of instruction in 1970’s to BM and the results? Students are lack of English competency in 1990’s. Can’t we see that? Simple cause and effect relationships have tremendous effect to the community and nation. It took 20years to show the results of what we believe a good change. It is good that we are making changes to our education system. It shows that we are reflecting ourselves, and want to stay current. Don’t just ditch the ideas just because it doesn’t show any results instantly. And start a new one. And the cycle of failed plans will starts.

I’m sitting for my final exams on 8th n 10th of May. After the mid year school holiday, 122 of us will be going to schools for practical and test all that we had learnt for the past 5 years. June 2002- June 2007. I wonder if 120 fully trained teachers could give new impacts in implementing the changes in our education system. I would give it 5 years to start see the effect… and I hope our 4 cohorts of juniors are able to continue what we are about to start. And I hope it will be continued by those joining the 3rd cycle of twinning programme in training TESL teachers [they get to study abroad for 3 years and one of the uni is Portsmouth!!!! Aaaaa Not fair!!! Portsmouth is the shopping heaven! JELES!!!!!!!!]

Anyway, I haven’t really digested the fact that starting January 2008, I am going to be a fully licensed highly trained teacher.

From now, my mantra will be ‘I am a Teacher. As a teacher my job is to teach…’ for 5years!

…Sayang…you said ok already aaa…after 5 years, saya berenti keje..dok rumah ok?

…tapi dok rumah jek busan aaa…Huhu…….sambung blajar le eQin…amik young children psychology… hehehe…perhaps the practice instead of theory…*wink*

missing parts...

they were there when i need them the most....
and i cant return the favour....
missing all of them right now..
when things are not right....
when alot has happened...
when i lost track of their lifes....
thats when i miss them the most....

my doctors: Fariza & Aisyah




and

my other babe: Ainee

*my heart hurts*

from Plymouth to London to KL...

hehe... he once told me, while we were in london =) if i had asked for anything he would have paid for it....


hahaha....i cant believe u were sooo lucky! actually i wanted this....

Chloe Paddington Bag

as seen on Victoria Beckham....huhu

[paris hilton pakai the other version..tak lawa sgt]

it cost AT LEAST £150 [notice: £££] on ebay...the real ones laaa...the one on victoria beckham cost like £795...huhuhu 3bulan elaun aku kat UK pun tak mampu nak beli...and of course i cant afford the real one. but immitation cost like £40!!! huh?? cetak rompak pun mahal? adeh laaa...

....when everyone is going after that Guess bag which cost Rm 200++ and all that...i want this real expensive designer bag which cost like Rm 5000....and i hate Guess!... but still ok la. dari tasha who wanted that channel bag which cost rm 100 000...huhu...lagi gila weh...

when i was in Liverpool Street [Petaling Street alike in London..] i did look for it. but i couldnt find one. 1 bcos it was raining. 2 i was too busy shopping for souvenier i forgot to look one for me! heh.

so this afternoon, me and julia went for a shooping spree [kat real Petaling Street...huhu...] suddenly... it springs back into mind that i wanted the bag like 6 months ago...huhu...and i still want it! i dont care!

huhu i asked around...and it cost like RM 180...weh...apa cerita.. i bargain a bit..and the cheapest was RM70..huhu... DUIT TAKDE DAH!!! [i spend like rm220 today jek....but imhappy cos i got all that i wanted] i still need to buy my Clinique!...and neutrogena...and nivea..and maybeline...and lancome.... erk... banyak lagi la plakkk... and ohh...im going for my manicure n pedicure session next week!!!!

anyway, focus! i want that bag.

actually the white one pun cun ek?

aaaaa nak!!! and im going to get it when my RM350+ Mr. D's money masuk. thats it!

so now the allocation for the rm350 has change....

• chloe bag
• lancome mascara
• biotherm pore refiner
• clinique happy in bloom

...bukan selalu aku cam ni! huhu... baru ni skali jek!

eQin... u must stop all this craze.... camni tauke balak pun jual ranting weh~~~ huhu...

i need a blue sky holiday~~~

ohh yesh. im done with the action research [read: eksen reses]. one more to go...just 1500 words...kacang jek....ohhh wait...hehe best part.. without any literature!!!! heheh kacang panjang..kacang putih...kacang peas! banyak benda leh merapu neh...hehehe... jap2 kasi aku blogging jap..

aku tade apa pun nak ckp...just nak hightlight jek...esok 20hb April 2007...menurut titah perintah....eh silap plakkk..inti sari rancangan....[jap2 nak check jap.....]...aaaa

9th April Issues in Assessment of the English Language 1500 words
12th April Area in Profesional Development and its relevance to own development 2000 words
13th April Test item report n/a
16th April [w/c] Microteaching n/a
18th April Nursery Ryhme/Literature musical showcase -incharge of costume n make up..as usual~~~ [postponed after exam]
19th April Action research proposal 2000words [submit 20th April]
20th April Reflection on Linking theory to Practice assignmentS 1500words [postponed Monday 23rd April]

20th April 10am-10pm Shopping spree around KL with Julie!!! ~~ cant wait!

25- 29 April aku nak balik umah...home sick!

7th May [w/c] Exam Assessment in Schools and Curriculum Studies..
.....8th Assessment in Schools
.....10th Curriculum Studies
......8.30am to 10.30am...

tolak campur bahagi darab.....

esok beta pegi sopping!!!! yahuuuu....

peduli hapa aku esaimen tak siap lagi....huehuehue...nanti kan laporan selanjutnya...

tentatively i need to buy....[budget tight! sbb celcom aku dah kena bar..takleh mintak suntikan dr papa dah...T_T]

*compact powder
*foundation
*kasut
*sandal
*skirt
*Chocolate's hands free ..supaya aku senang nak bergayut..hehe

ok mau beradu...i have a busy2 day tmrw! =)

hahahaha...its sooo true!

OMG!!!!!

You Are a Very Good Girl

You are 90% Good and 10% Bad You're a perfect angel - almost impossibly so Don't you ever feel like being a little bad?!?

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

u know, i do this things when i feel like it...hahaha and the results never fails to amuse me....*grin* isnt it true??? i told u many times before...hehehe..

i am a good girl...who havent done her assignment...that is..huhu

missing my doctors in UK.... =( missing u girls baaaddd...doktor...i sakit nih....huhu..take care dearie...both dah kawen..tapi both jauh from hubby...take care of each other k you all....

aaaaa...oh ye korang...abang ijan sihat ke??? hehehe...

loneliness~~

huhuhu....i know i know...it has been like more than 3 months since i got back... WHATTTTT baru 3 bulann kkkkeeee???huhu it feels like forever mannnn~~~~

anyway, i have been missing this that and everything nice...

but i think i miss something else the most during these time...busy time like this...Assignment Nite i call it.. refering to the night before the assignment is due...(T_T) thats when everybody would stay up all nite cracking their heads...

this print screen is taken on 31 March 2006 at exactly 12 midnite...it was the night before the Comparative Education 3k words essay was due.. its quite rare for me to stay up that late...it was one of the nights when i joined burning the midnight oil...and ohh people... i miss the company~~~

but now... it seems sooo lonely...

tinggallah Laylee berseorang diri...~~~~ aren't you lonely????

no more YM status that would crack me up laughing alone in my room till i burst into tearss..
no more YM status that make someones day...
no more YM status that leave hints here there and everywhere...
no more YM status that change every 5minutes... nyesal tak wat print screen bnyk2 (T_T)

aaaaaaa windu nyerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

those were the days~~~

=)

slept at about 2am last night.. actually i wanted to finish up the assignment but it has beeennn like yearss since last i online. but as i was about to go to bed..i remembered that i have to list down the things needed for the show..so did that with my half of my brain gone to bed and my eyes are half closed..huhu

at about 6.30am, i was waken up by my usual morning phone call...at least its something to look forward every morning. =) but then it all vanish by a single thought of AS tutorial class...and CS replacement tutorial class..haiiihhhhhhh~~~

so i drag myself to class......incase you dont know..every morning i have to climb a very highhhhhhh and steeeeeepppp stairs!!! orang kata usaha tangga kejayaan...hari2 kitaorg panjat tangga yg tinggi melangit tuh.. tapi tetap gak tak kurus2 pandai2... if only i have a picture of it..nanti la ek.. aku mintak julie amik gambar tangga tuh...

anyway, i wanted to skip all classes today.. first i absolutely dont want to go to class...and i am not feeling very well too...tummy is upset...but i manage to hang on till 10.30am.. before i go back i went and check my letter..just incase i have something in the mail today...

and guess what...i do!!!

the sight of a lovely red card saying 'I miss you' really make my day...

it really does cheer me up...

Thank You!!!! i miss you tooooo.....*grin*

My Never Ending Story...

have mercy on me...

or better still volunteer if you could do any of this for me...

9th April Issues in Assessment of the English Language 1500 words
12th April Area in Profesional Development and its relevance to own development 2000 words
13th April Test item report n/a
16th April [w/c] Microteaching n/a
18th April Nursery Ryhme/Literature musical showcase -incharge of costume n make up..as usual~~~
19th April Action research proposal 2000words
20th April Reflection on Linking theory to Practice assignmentS 1000words

20th April 10am-10pm Shopping spree around KL with Julie!!! ~~ cant wait!

7th May [w/c] Exam Assessment in Schools and Curriculum Studies..


bila aku nak cuti nih!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

still here and...*dead*!

=( im still here...yes. i am.


you know....6 months ago, i can afford to go online without proper updated antivirus..[yeah...i know kindda suicidal gak aaa...kamikaze siot...mati darling aku ni kang....huhuu] but now, for the past 30 mins i recieve at least 12 virus/worm/trojan threat that could harm my darling laptop nih..huhu...

and due to this i shall reduce my internet activity..

*rindu nak update blog hari2

*rindu nak bukak ebay first thing in the morning

*rindu nak chat kat YM sampai tak tido semalaman..huhu
*rindu nak buzz mc woo suh bangun..
*rindu nak panggil leli makan kat rumah..
*rindu nak tanya julie ada food tak..hehehe...
*rindu nak buzz sudi for the latest gossip...kuang kuang kuangggg....
*rindu nak wat survey walaupun exam/due date assignment besok jahhhhh...

huhuhu.....wokeh aku nak naik sambung tgk cerita korea... c yaaaa!!!!

yeah u heard me right...cerita korea!!! Princess' Hour a.k.a Goong [which means Palace]

...sejak bila tah aku tgk cerita korea nih..huhu

Take me awaayyyyy....

I don’t want to be Miss Complaint. But when you are supposed to have lecture at 8am at one end of the ‘hell’ [I am 10 minutes late…my fault.] and suddenly you are told that you have briefing at the other end of the hell and we are waiting and waiting... till one lady asked us that we could go to the canteen while waiting… then we go back to the main hall and wait and wait again... till about 9.40am, we are told that the briefing is cancelled. WTF??? I just waste 2 hours of my lecture time...for nothing! Bukanler nak sangat gi lecture anyway.

Then during the waiting time we wonderfully spent together… some of the class rep decided to do some housekeeping... fine by me. So my assistant class rep go round collecting money for house shirt for the sports day on Thursday [29 March..mind you!] im sorry I couldn’t pay bcos I haven’t got my allowance which is supposed to be bank into my bank account during the 2nd week of January…and till today I still don’t know when it will be bank in… and exactly one hour later, I was told, the money collected will be returned as the t shirts could not be printed on time... ????

Anyway, I still have my assignment to submit. Can you kill me now? Can I just sleep till August? Can I just disappear right at this moment? Can someone pleaseeeeeee take me away… I obviously don’t want to be here. Or anywhere near this hell. Well so does my friends. I was once told. The only reason why we can survive this hell is bcos of FRIENDS. guyss...where art thou?

huhu...nak gi shopping to cheer up my miserable life pun takde duit...

huaaaaa...seksaan apakah ini??????!!!!!

Please…take me away...for my soul to teach our children just died. =(

*dead*

i cracked. i almost give in. i dont think i can go on like this.


this is mad. madness. ridiculous. kegilaan yang melampau. huhu. anyway. im still here.. hanging on. barely breathing. but still beating. i try my best. the best i can. at this moment. i dont think anyone should look forward attending my graduation. =(


anyway... life isnt all tears. between all those dying moments. i still have great things to say. the other day.. i was talking to my bf on the phone. then we started talking about exam oriented apa kebenda tah.. *this is wat u got when u get involved with first class students u know..T_T* mainly we agree that msian students mmg exam geared. exam oriented. yada yada.

he said: tapi kat uk sama gak kan.. diaorang pun ada exam.. diaorg pun exam oriented.
she said: mmg la..sama jek cam kita. diaorg ada gak exam. [actually diaorg ada 2 big exams in primary skool instead just UPSR equivalent]
he said: then...
she said: tapi diaorg takde exam cam kita...exam diaorg just untuk skolah tau yg students buleh baca ke tak.. blajar ke tak..bukannyer nak dpt A....
he said: ooo..so diaorg ada la test seme..but untuk cikgu nyer information jek laaa..
she said: yup lebih kurang gitu la.. so students mmg blajar sbb nak tau..

and last night it occurs to me...

....lama dah aku pk camne nak tukar exam oriented system nih..

in order to move away from the exam oriented system we have to get rid of the exams..

but to abolish the UPSR,PMR and SPM is out of the questions. its totally cannot be done. infact it is good to have these national level exams. just need some alterations to the format. all those belas2 As not good you know..

so thats left with our peperiksaan penggal satu, peperiksaan setengah tahun, peperiksaan akhir tahun...and countless countless testSSSSSS which are meant to fail us...*bad bad teachers*

i can still remember thru out my 11 years in skool, i have 3 big exams yearly..unlike some others who are very lucky to only have 2 each year...and tu blom campur trials exam and pre trial, post trial, pre upsr, pre pmr, pre spm..etc etc... hidup ku dipenuhi exams. kalau aku kumpul rm1 untuk setiap markah exam aku..mesti aku kaya dah ek??? huhu T_T

thats only a theory... which at this moment i cant prove or read up about it..

bcos i have a lesson plan to hand in on monday..

then i have to hand in an essay on issues in assessment on 3rd of april...

then i have to hand in another essay on issue in profesional development on 6th of april...

then...aaaa banyak lagi..i will keep u posted with my assingments...maybe lepas ni education system kita akan bertukar menjadi assignment oriented...

asymond....huhu it keep on haunting you till then end...T_T

word play

here is a puzzle,

only one is mine

Have fun solving it yaa...very easy...super easy!!!!

and additional question: what is the name of the puzzle?

and ainee dilarang sama skali menjawab puzzle ini..muahahaha...gi wat dissie dik oi..com edu nyer assignment dah siap?? ceh...cam assignment akak dah siap jek kan??? ooopppsss...=p

....T_T leli kutuk blog aku...dia kata blog aku berabuk..so ni aku bersihkan la dgn update yg tak seberapa...huhu...tapi tak aci....leli main tipu...=p

Library ipba sucks!

yes. it all this and all that. aku dah tak tahan dah...selama 3 bulan nih.. aku pegi library bnyk kali gak aa...tapi tak seperti kat marjon dulu laa... kat marjon tuh, aku bertapa kat library tu..bukan pegi.. refuge camp~~~

apa guna library kalau tak leh nak access buku??? buku kena cari manually plak tuh.. haih~~ tapi nasib baik la tak banyak..[tu pun satu point aku nak kutuk gak aa...] 2 tahun aku pegi vacation...buku kat library tu tak bertambah pun aku tgk.. tapi at least ada laa buku2 yg best. pastu rasanya hari tuh..aku dengar masa orientation ada wireless internet kat library. so tadi aku test laa... takde pun. hmm... and tadi aku jumpa la buku 4bijik aku nak guna untuk wat assignment aku... takleh pinjam plakkkkkkkkkkkkk....system down. haih~~~ system of the down betul ler....

kenangan itu sungguh indah...melepak kat library sambil belek2 buku ni bukan nyer habit aku yg baru.... sejak aku umur 2 tahun lagi mama slalu tinggal kan aku kat library kuantan tuh..on sunday morning sementara dia pegi pasar tani beli ayam n sayur... huarggggggggghhhhh...

this is how a library should look like...

So many books to choose...

aaaaa...see...can hang out...

deep in thought.... look at the racks...full!!!

me at my favourite table...with a great big view of the city...

selecting books for assignments...

im glad i make full use of the library...cos damn...i miss it sooooooooooooo much!!!