till we meet again...

so this is the last entree for this year.. as i am going away for my winter holiday and we will only be back after new year. im going away for 16days! longest trip ever.. ohh our trip has never been this long before. the longest was our summer holiday.. almost 10days and i bloody hell miss home!

here is my tentative.. hope everything goes well...

20-24 Dec: London

24-26Dec: Oxford

26-31Dec: Glasgow

01-04Jan: Edinburgh

So..with this holiday, i more or less cover the UK..leaving Northern Ireland yet to be conquer by us. and soon...insyAllah..if the money permits, i will conquer Europe! i dont really fancy travelling but it is such fun to actually be on a holiday and trips on your own with friends. and get to see places.. beautiful places.. breathtaking magnificient views..the experience of getting lost in great cities, separated from friends and make new friends.. and within this holiday i really wish i could make more great friends..

the last holiday, everyone went out from this village.. leaving us behind. this time round almost everyone including us..are away.. to all sorts of different places in UK and europe. some are going to Spain[just gone...have fun girls!!!]..some are going to Germany...some are going to Scotland [thats me!!!] some will be in London [again???]..Manchester... and if u are to stay behind..ohh do enjoy yourself!! im sure christmas will be great in Plymouth!!! no worries..

so to all my fellow friends[warga kampung..] enjoy this last holiday while we are still on our own, without the juniors tailing behind! believe me... its not going to snow next year!!! erkk i mean.. its not going be us alone anymore. how much fun will it be? will we have those pot-luck makan2 again? will Notts finally be a dream come true? well, people say the more the merrier. how true will that be..
what ever it is..
do take care guys!!!stay warm!! it will be freezing.. be good...dont be notty! a great reminder to those who are going to germany.. red district is off the limit ya!! ehek...dont try and be funny ya!!! ohh dont forget some goodies for us ya... gonna miss everyone!! especially ABAH: take care dude! have a nice trip ya.. n FAIZAN: stay warm..and stay sane.. [will he survive 16days without nasi?? we shall see...ehek..!]

i shall be back with loads and loads of news..till then..no update! sorry folks...happy holidays!!

till next year...we shall be reunited again...

i have yet a long journey tomorrow... still alot to do tonite...

ohh yes... enjoy the christmas song i put up.. the best i could find..

MERRY CHRISTMAS

and HAPPY NEW YEAR....

all jumbled up...

Ohh finally…I am not too sick…or too sleepy…or too tired to type an entrée.. finally some time to spend with my darling blog. Heh…not that I am not enjoying the company of my beloved ones! Ohh talking about them..

Happy birthday to Amir a.k.a Lex or more famously known and loved as ABAH…hope u had fun! hehehe.. will this be the first time and the last time we celebrate your birthday together? Hmm hope not…

I had the most wonderful 24hours in my life.. i spend some time in town yesterday.. getting in the spirit of Christmas.. hehe.. take a ride on the Plymouth Eye.. then watched NARNIA.. wow!! ASLAN.. gosh I love that lion!! But to me it wasn’t magical enuf.. it was good tho.. we celebrate Abah’s birthday by *again* upacara baling tepung.. hehe.. note to gang: lenkali kalau nak baling tepung bukan kat dapur.. too much clean up needed! Then we ate the cake sophy bake.. as usual..it was wonderful.. we stayed a bit late.. and be merry.. walaupun semua org dah weng.. *blur…* tak cukup tido..

I woke superbly late.. slept my heart out.. today. We had our Christmas dinner cum birthday dinner cum last family dinner for the year.. Sophy cooked an Eygpt dish..eygpt style lamb for dinner! [wow!!..darah tinggi aku..hehehe] and I think it is as good as the one we ate in Porta Tunisia Cardiff. Sedap ooo!!! superbly sedap kambenG we had for dinner...puas hati!!

ohh gosh! I cant believe the day is here.. I cant believe that was the last time we sit together and dig in for this year… actually I cant believe that the year has come to an end.. so much had happen.. in the last 24 hours for example. All this and soo much more.. never dreamt any of this before.. never predict any of this before.. ohh I am full of emotions.. right here.. right now..

Tomorrow I still have tonnes to do.. and here is the list.. [why????]

Sort out my laundry..
Do the actual laundry.. note: kutip duit syiling
Kemas bilik.. [why??]
Buat list barang nak bawak pegi … err…trip…. Too many places! Ehek!
Figure out how much can u spend..

So Abah.. u are off to Manchester tomorrow.. so take care! Be good.. don’t be notty esp in Germany.. ehek.. have fun on your trip ya.. don’t forget some goodies for us ok!! See you next year..

So there goes our farewell and see you next year wish… [still unbelieveable…like Journey South tak menang X-factor??????OMG]

I will be needing the energy and time tomorrow.. so off I go to bed.. ohh if u cant find me anywhere tomorrow..check in the wardrobe! I might be in a wonderland..on a date with King Peter! Ehek..after all I am sorting out my laundry tomorrow..hehehe…

home alone for christmas?

hehehe..pretty much we will be. everybody is going back. oohhh!! thats too bad! heh..as if we are going to be around for christmas. my one and only christmas in UK will be celebrated in Oxford. our welfare officer has left us with full two pages of important info to get us through the holiday. that include not only the emergencies numbers but also the opening times of ASDA and TESCO! [have a super wonderful Merry Christmas to Sarah!!!many thanks!].

i wanted to write what i did half an hour before my exam start! and no...i didnt not read my notes! here goes..based on my readings and things i have pick up during discussions along the way..

Constructivist classroom = messy classroom

if we consider 'class' as variable and replace by X

constructivist Xroom = messy Xroom------Eq1

most of us know that

eQin bedroom = messy bedroom

from Eq 1: X is variable.. so replace bed with X

eQin Xroom = messy Xroom----Eq 2

replace it..

eQin Xroom = Constructivist Xroom

do the mathematic hocus pocus [what ever that may be..abah u could give me a hand here!!!]..

eQin = constructivist

[heh!! brilliant isnt it?]

FINALLY!! after soo long...i could came out with a superbly intelligent excuse for leaving my room in a mess!! ohh mom u will ever be so proud of your brilliant daughter!!! ohh i have to go and report this to mom...

MOM...would u listen to this....[hehehe...]

But here I am...

[ya ya...i know...i should be studying for my exam..tomorrow! but here i am...let me make this quick..]

there are a number of things i would like to say..i wish i have the time and energy to really give everything a thought before i actually say it here.. but apparently i am not. not gonna think about it and not gonna say it.

before i actually write this post, i was visiting my dear friends' blogs [happen to be all of us have our own blog..], i know all 5 of us are more or less have the same feelings this week. Suffocated..where the time really look as if its sit still.. i cant believe that its already Wednesday tomorrow! i cant believe that i actually didn't even set my foot out of the front door for 3 days. it is melampau la if i said 'i forgot the sky is blue!' bcos i had my blind open all day yesterday.. but literary yes.. i forgot the sky is blue...and the grass is green.. bcos i was literary glued in my room [no..not studying! doing nothing really...staring blankly at the laptop]. i cant believe that abah has finish his term today!! [jeles jeles..].happy holiday to you...and good luck for my exam tomorrow!! pray!!!

in response to the exam, i havent been studying although i have been sitting infront of the laptop but i keep on surfing here and there. there was a day when i actually bring my notes to the drawing room, in order to refrain me from hook up to the internet.. so i went down, get my self a piece of battered fish, i automatically turn on the TV and unfortunately there is a good drama on TV.. So i end up, watching TV instead of reading my notes.. feeling guilty, i actually did a bit of writing and promise to type the whole essay later that afternoon. but all i did was.. i went through all my photos since the first day i step off the plane in Heathrow. and decided to email this one particular photo to this blog with a caption of 'Resolusi: tiada lagi perjuangan saat akhir'. i get myself thinking.. if thats what i am going to send in.. what am i sitting here doing nothing, while i have tonnes of things to do? well, then again.. i succesfully talk myself into.. well its not yet new year. so, officially, its not official yet! *heh..* well, we will see..

i had my 3rd student liason meeting this afternoon. i cant believe i went to the meeting while i still have a lot to read and straighten out..but i kind of glad i did. well, regret too.. *i can smell the curry sophie is cooking in the kitchen* basically, im glad bcos i can hear some of the important things and info myself. for example: now i know that i exactly [today!! today!!] have another year to live in this superbly great, wonderful, fantabulous, absobloominglutely gorgeous, lovely, stunning, and ever so out-of-this-world magnificent ROOM! [one whole strecth of adjectives for one small noun ehek..]. im going to miss this room!! this is the best room i ever lived in. the bed, the duvet [mana aku nak cari duvet best cam ni lagi???], the closet, the huge table, the sink, the wall, the notice board, the door, and the most important and the one that will be missed the most.. the internet connection! huhuhuhu... exactly another year, i dont think i will be blogging as frequent as now. and i remember the feeling of dont-want-to- get-out-bed this morning.. i was literary hang on to the duvet as if Mom is coming to pull the duvet to get me out of bed[thats how good the duvet is!!]. Ohh GOD!! i dont want to go home yet!! i love living here.. ohh please!! if the urge of living abroad[in UK to be exact!!] as STUDENT really get to me..i might just as well looking for chances to further my study soon. Mom??Dad??[or should i be looking at someone else's mom and dad??] sponser me pleaseee.....huhuhuuhuhu...

as i said.. i have a lot to say.. but my blogging hour has come to the end.. i should really hit the books now. so..shoooh...off u go.. [sorry folks..]

[no title]

i am lazy
i am stupid
i am brainless
i am not pretty
i am a pretender
i am over-sensitive
i am unreasonable
i am self centred
i am self-fish
i am messy
i am helpless
i am untrustable
i am unpredictable
i am not a good friend
i am a bad daughter
i am not agreeable
i am not sensible
i am senseless
i over spend
i can be difficult
i couldnt care less
i cant be depend on
i complaint too much
i dont deserve to be here
i cant work with other people

ohh i am just plain stupid who dont even deserve to be notice..

ignore me!
[shoot me if u can...]

my first shape poem ever!

the start of the last week

yup..its going to be one hell week starting from now.

at this exact time, next week.. i could be snugly sitting in the cinema watching Narnia.. eating popcorn and nachos...or i might also be sitting on this exact same chair looking..erk staring at the same screen, doing the exact same thing [again]. or i could be doing something more interesting like planning for a party..hmm...it has been awhile since we had a party ya.. ohh note to that certain someone! 'make sure u are fully book by us that night! u are ours that night!! OURS!!' hehehee u dont know what might just happen on that magical night! [wow! skali nothing happen! ehek.. sowee]

finally my autumn term is coming to an end...ohh cant wait for it! winter break!! christmas!! ohh it is soo magical..the lights..the festive.. and the best of all the SHOPPING!!!! im going to spend this christmas in Oxford. hehe.. cant wait for the shopping spree.. and the best of all..im going to celebrate New Year in Scotland.. too bad we can't sit together for dinner on christmas day.. or new year.. gosh! we are going away for more than 2weeks and abah is going away for the whole 3 weeks!!! well..too bad for Faizan! sorry la dude! u have to work.. tho u are getting a few days off during christmas..but still..we are not going to be around!! ehek.. dont cry ek!! i will make sure we bring back some goodies for u... =P Next week..we are going to bid farewell and and say SEE YOU NEXT YEAR!!! ohh i am sooo going to miss home!!! [hehe]. im soooo going to miss the internet connection...

i cant wait for all that and more to come... i am so ready for a holiday!!!! ohh eQin dont switch the mode yet..u have an exam paper..one folio..one essay..and one somekind of computer software to design.. [ya ya..keep on reminding...] ohh do i really have to go that much for a 3-weeks holiday? can i just get the holiday? cos i have been working very hard this term..ehek... ohh i soooo had enuf of this!!! get me out of here...

CEPAT LA SEMUA INI BERLALU!!!!!

hold on to the unknown future...

such a bad day...

ok another quick cheap post...

bad day...such a bad day.. i woke up early today. went to cite to do my assignment and some one came in and said that we could get our marks for my Micro teaching today in INTED office. well i dont have the feeling its my day today...but i did went and took the marks. well taking it tomorrow not going to change my marks. but at least i dont have to deal with this kind of feelings.. i was soooo hoping it could compliment my last TEYL assignment which i did rather good. but no point weeping over it...let it go...

ok so here goes..

Bad Day by Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Note to Laylee: we did well..i had fun working with you. It was good..thanks!!! hope we could be partners again! last piece..'Ali..put your books away!!!' [hehehe Ali...laylee's fav student...]


ok now..Material Folio.. Exam.. and this Activeprimary Software i have to design..the reason im in Cite very stupid fuckingly early this morning!!!![aku ni salah amik course ker?? rasanya amik Bachelor of Education?? why do i have to design software plak niii?????]

struck by memories..

entah camne semalam...i was reading about behaviourist.. and suddenly i remember about a song that i used to love so much. so i spend the next hour trying to remember what was the song.. what was the lyrics like. but i couldnt find it anywhere. i cant even remember what the title of the song was. so i end up, sleeping very early last night.. and woke up around 4.30am.

this morning i told sophie what i did last night. reading behaviourist..suddenly remember about the song. she ask 'apa kena mengena?'. well very honestly true...i dont know what is the connection between the song and behaviourist.. [duh!!]. Just now..i was trying to search for James Blunt's [at the moment im very much in love with James Blunt, Daniel Powter, Athlete, Gavin DeGraw, and yg seangkatan dgnnya..ehek!]lyrics.. and i decided to try one last time with what i have in my memory about the song.. so i type.. 'everything will be wonderful'...and suddenly the song appear very much to my suprise. its Wonderful by Everclear..

i cant even remember why i like the song so much[no..the singer isnt cute..i dont even know how he looks like].. but i remember having the lyrics on my table in class when i was in school[in form5 i think] and i kept another copy of the song in my diary [gosh..i miss my purple big book!!!]. i cant even remember how the song goes.. but i have always love things about promises..

Wonderful

by Everclear

[spoken]
Wonderful, isn't it wonderful now

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
And make everything be wonderful again

I hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that makes me want to cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed and I
Dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say that
Everything will be wonderful some day

Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes

When you tell me everything is wonderful now
Na na nana........
Please don't tell me everthing is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all ok
I have to laugh so my friends wont know
When the bell rings I just don't want to go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say that
Everything will be wonderful some day

Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big (so big)
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
Na na nana........

No. No. I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
No. No. I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
I don't want to hear you say that I will understand some day
No. No. No. No.
I don't want to hear you say that you both have grown in a different way
No. No. No.

No I don't want to meet your friend
I don't want to start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays, I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.
Na na nana....

No. Please I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now...

No. Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now..
Na nana..
Everything is wonderful now...

my intelligences

suprise... suprise.. [ohh i do have intelligences! heh!!!]..well no suprise really.. i already know my superior intelligence. This is the latest test i did.. i have done a few test, but this one include the 8th intelligence which is the Naturalist.. im still looking for the full 10 intelligences ie the one with Existentialist n Moral intelligence. so here goes nothing...

Linguistic = 32
Mathematics = 32
Visual/Spatial= 45
Body/Kinesthetic = 35
Naturalistic= 38
Music = 29
Interpersonal = 27
Intrapersonal = 32

Let talk about my results. it has change a bit.. Visual/ Spatial still the superior one. keeping it stronger everyday. im a bit suprised to see that Mathematics isnt my second intelligence anymore. Naturalistic? sure eh? the third in rank is Bodily khinesthetic: which explain why i like to throw things around...hehehhee and now Linguistic is catching up alot. i bet in the next 6 month it will be stronger than Mathematics. too bad! i have always love maths!! hmm i am still wondering why my Intrapersonal intelligence is always stronger than Interpersonal.. i know i sometimes like to keep things to myself. but i always thought i am good when dealing with ppl.. well...i guess i thought wrong. im helpless in music.. i love listening to music...but it does not extend beyond that..

eQin dearie... you are suppose to study how learning styles can help children's progression in KS2..not doing a test to find out your intelligence and then write a report on it! heh!

ohh please....give me a break!!

Heh..you havent read a single article since this morning! all you did was EATING!!!

ohh...really? how come i am still hungry now? ohh i should be cooking for dinner now.. off i go!!

eQin!! ohh you are unbelievable!!!

....... =D [grin like the cat in Alice in Wonderland!]

[another sad case...monolog dalaman! ouch...too much literature!]

shoot me!

if only..and if only...

i could sell my soul to the devil..and make some cash!
i could play dead and dont have to hand in those assignments and sit for the exam
i could just be invisible and disappear...GONE!
i could hibernate like polar bears..so i dont need to eat and do other things!
i could just stay under the table n stay there and do nothing! at least till end of january...

ohh wake me up when january ends...cos thats when my next elaun masuk!!!

ohh if only....

sold my soul to the devil... cos the angels cant pay me anymore!!!!

shoot me if you want!
you are most welcome!!!

thank you...

hump hump...

ngee...just to cheer me up! hehehe

i have tonnes to do...baru jer antor esaimen last monday. and i get another one today!!! gosh...what is it with everybody? apa kes nak kena ada 2 assignment ni? ohh.. all together i have 6 asessments. 3 down and another 3 to go! half way thru.. and this weekend.. we are going to have a trip... jalan here and there...winter shopping! gosh..dah la bnyk esaimen.. ada hati lagi nak berjalan? and one more cruel truth! eQin.. duit takde la cik kak oi!!! jgn gatal nak shopping bnyk2!!!

ok..off u go...if u want to go jalan2 this weekend.. go make a move on all your assignments!!!

MOVE NOW!!!!!!