*dead*

i cracked. i almost give in. i dont think i can go on like this.


this is mad. madness. ridiculous. kegilaan yang melampau. huhu. anyway. im still here.. hanging on. barely breathing. but still beating. i try my best. the best i can. at this moment. i dont think anyone should look forward attending my graduation. =(


anyway... life isnt all tears. between all those dying moments. i still have great things to say. the other day.. i was talking to my bf on the phone. then we started talking about exam oriented apa kebenda tah.. *this is wat u got when u get involved with first class students u know..T_T* mainly we agree that msian students mmg exam geared. exam oriented. yada yada.

he said: tapi kat uk sama gak kan.. diaorang pun ada exam.. diaorg pun exam oriented.
she said: mmg la..sama jek cam kita. diaorg ada gak exam. [actually diaorg ada 2 big exams in primary skool instead just UPSR equivalent]
he said: then...
she said: tapi diaorg takde exam cam kita...exam diaorg just untuk skolah tau yg students buleh baca ke tak.. blajar ke tak..bukannyer nak dpt A....
he said: ooo..so diaorg ada la test seme..but untuk cikgu nyer information jek laaa..
she said: yup lebih kurang gitu la.. so students mmg blajar sbb nak tau..

and last night it occurs to me...

....lama dah aku pk camne nak tukar exam oriented system nih..

in order to move away from the exam oriented system we have to get rid of the exams..

but to abolish the UPSR,PMR and SPM is out of the questions. its totally cannot be done. infact it is good to have these national level exams. just need some alterations to the format. all those belas2 As not good you know..

so thats left with our peperiksaan penggal satu, peperiksaan setengah tahun, peperiksaan akhir tahun...and countless countless testSSSSSS which are meant to fail us...*bad bad teachers*

i can still remember thru out my 11 years in skool, i have 3 big exams yearly..unlike some others who are very lucky to only have 2 each year...and tu blom campur trials exam and pre trial, post trial, pre upsr, pre pmr, pre spm..etc etc... hidup ku dipenuhi exams. kalau aku kumpul rm1 untuk setiap markah exam aku..mesti aku kaya dah ek??? huhu T_T

thats only a theory... which at this moment i cant prove or read up about it..

bcos i have a lesson plan to hand in on monday..

then i have to hand in an essay on issues in assessment on 3rd of april...

then i have to hand in another essay on issue in profesional development on 6th of april...

then...aaaa banyak lagi..i will keep u posted with my assingments...maybe lepas ni education system kita akan bertukar menjadi assignment oriented...

asymond....huhu it keep on haunting you till then end...T_T