[assignment mode]

aiyook....huhuhu i have been on a roller coaster ride of everything. well to be honest, the ultimate roller coaster of emotion. that explains my sad sounding entree ya..[anyway, takde la sad sangat...depressing sket jek] and no, i blom bertukar menjadi pelik lagi..hehehe.. still normal! =p [thanks tho...i know u care!!!]

there are alot of things happen past few days, weeks, and months. although there are only me n sal in the house at the moment, there are alot of emotion going on inside us. uncertainty. well, she is maybe cool with it. but im not. there are too many emotions going on inside me. too many things happen..it touch my heart, broke my heart, moves it.. and it all bothers me to the max. hmm tapi dengan assignment tak siap nih...mana mampu seh mau melayan perasaan aku nih...

abis assignment...busy ngan bola plak[ahaks]...then, i have to get ready for my europe trip. yes..thats wat my fren said. just look forward to my europe trip..=) ...dude, i know its going to be fun n all...with my birthday n stuff, but that is not a replacement for u not spending times with me ok? [eQin sedey ditinggalkan sendirian... =( ]

for now i just need to talk to somebody i usually talk to when i have things to say. and all of them are not here. or busy. or deep in their own emotion.

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

well somebody is around. but still, i cant let it all out...

Bottled up inside
are words i never said
the feelings that i hide
the lines you never read.

You can see it in my eyes
read it on my face
traped in side are lies
of the past i can't replace.

With memories that linger
won't seem to go away
why can't i be happier
today’s a brand new day.

Yesterdays are over
even though the hurting is not
nothing lasts forever
i must cherish what i've got.

Don't take my love for granted
for soon it will be gone
all you ever wanted
of the love you thought you'd won.

The hurt i'm feeling now
won't disappear over night
but someway, somehow
everything will turn out alright….

[my favourite poem of all times..since school lagik..]

i know im going to live. i know its all going to be alright. i know that. but i want u and u and u to be here...now...right here...right now... with me...so i can cry on your shoulder like last time.. T_T and i dont like to be alone.. dont let me lost... and confused.. for i am once a shattered soul.. who find her way back...

ok dah...dah....sekarang boleh sambung wat folio..T_T

*July 4th.. happy birthday Julie..!!!*