its sooo true!

do u want to know something? i just got to know that american football players go to ballet class for balance yada yada... so what i am going to write next is possible and i think its true! [there are alot of evidence on tonite's game! go watch it again...]

here is what i predict on Portugal's training schedule...

Monday ... Practice free kicks...
Tuesday... Dribbles and tackles
Wednesday... DRAMA CLASS
Thursday... Cardio workout
Friday... Penalty kicks
Saturday... Corner kicks
Sunday ... off...

hey...what u think? dont u think its true? i think they really really do go to drama class...cos thats what i learn this term...i had 3 weeks of drama class. they teach wat portugese show on the game tonite. serious!!!

ohh so we are meeting FRANCE in the final...good job Zidane!! but u r going to cry like that Christina Ronaldo when ITALY take the WC home.. [God...please let the Italian wins...alot of ppl is going to boo me if they dont...*pray* ...eQin cari pasal with tonnes of ppl man...adoi la... huhu folio tak siap gak...]

Ainee....thanks for the lovely Indian Chef Dinner ya... it was indeed very filling. [couldnt really concetrate for the 2nd half] i would like to serves Pizza for Finals.. anyone up for a slice while watching??? =D

ohh somebody wants this sentence to be publish...

"ama said she wanted 2 come...but she didn't.....mesti buat folio...hampeh ar ko ama" [Amalina, 2006]

hehehe...u should write your own blog girl... and i couldnt wait for Lily's new post... She is GOOD!!! love her...

with the Semifinals now over...i have 36hours to finish that 3000 words portfolio on Literature in the Classroom... gosh...i am sooo going to die!!!!! can i do a 3000 words commentary on Fifa 2006 World Cup games instead?? well, that last wish didnt came true....and i got only 62marks for it...T_T i could get an A if they change the question....apa daa....huhuhu...

apa dok sengih kat sini lagi....pegi la siapkan that folio...huhuhu...

ye la ye la....nak buat la nih...T_T [grabbing that how to teach literature to children book...]

Oh yeah!!!

here is the real situation. im still sad and all over england's lost last saturday. i was so sure i could still cheer for England tomorrow. but its all over. T_T

this morning, i as the official co-host of WC port cawangan Marjon, invited a friend to watch tonite's game, and i asked her which team she is cheering for... and she said Germany. i automatically say, im cheering for Italy. heh! i know nothing about the team. it seems i always cheer for the not-so-in-favour team [except for England] lately. but anyway, i stay true for ITALY.. bukan cam masa Brazil vs France.. first half sokong Brazil...2nd half sokong France..apa kes??? hehehe...

alot of ppl say its going to be Germany and France for the final. but hey...alot of ppl say its going to be England n Brazil.. look where they are now.. HOME!!=P [but i am still sad for England's lost...i cried!]

so tonite, the super hot hostess are cheering for ITALY [no...we didnt pakat ok!!] then, came the girls [linda, ainee, doreen, azraq, and ama]...cheering for Germany. i didnt put high hopes for Italy..but they play a good game. they try hard. they work for it! and i know Germany was streching the game till penalty kicks, well bcos they have Abang Leman who is sooo damn good! and just before half time, Azraq change sides...cheering for Italy! [thats allowed...kitaorg penah change sides sokong TnT masa lawan ngan England..game was too boring...] so its 3 on 3, when Ama went home during half time..[weh ama...aku tau ko wat folio... hampeh arr... =p] its expected the game to go into extra-time. and tense fill the air of H33 drawing room.... tension oooo!! it was like 2 minutes left... and GOALLL!!!! we were screaming!!! OMG... i am sooo happy!!! and the scream havent really finish... damn... another one!!! and Germany lost...ohh so sad... [drama drama.....] and all of us scream!!! of course we [Sal, me and Azraq] are jumping up n down..so merry n gay... 2 goals in 60 seconds!!!way to go ITALY!!!! but Linda and Doreen was like.... NOOOOO.... ohh too bad darling! Germany lost... hehehehe...

ahhh winning....and again!!! hehehe so me n sal celebrate the victory with ice creams.. then, retire to our own room to work on the folio.... suddenly, im so sure im doing a song for the folio. i will choose You Never Walk Alone..then, the topic can be family members or friends. aiyoo clever eQin... =D

as i was just about to sit down... i recieved a text. it was Lex. he texts me from Malaysia... he is a germany supporter. so sorry la dude.. i know la i support germany for the last few games...but tonite i sokong Italy la..hehehe...


Italy's wins over germany was like mengubat duka kekalahan England...

from now on, we only eat pasta, spaghetti, pizza with loads of tomato and cheese..=p Oh yeah!!!

GO ITALY!!!!

*tukar kerakyatan lagi aku...dah tak jadi rakyat England dah. Bila england kalah, tukar jadi rakyat french... but now, i think nak tukar jadi rakyat Italy la...hehe...or maybe jadi rakyat Portugal..oh tak kot...Portugal make England lost..and im not cheering for that 'Christina Ronaldo'... [Miss Lily LiverBird, 2006]

[assignment mode]

aiyook....huhuhu i have been on a roller coaster ride of everything. well to be honest, the ultimate roller coaster of emotion. that explains my sad sounding entree ya..[anyway, takde la sad sangat...depressing sket jek] and no, i blom bertukar menjadi pelik lagi..hehehe.. still normal! =p [thanks tho...i know u care!!!]

there are alot of things happen past few days, weeks, and months. although there are only me n sal in the house at the moment, there are alot of emotion going on inside us. uncertainty. well, she is maybe cool with it. but im not. there are too many emotions going on inside me. too many things happen..it touch my heart, broke my heart, moves it.. and it all bothers me to the max. hmm tapi dengan assignment tak siap nih...mana mampu seh mau melayan perasaan aku nih...

abis assignment...busy ngan bola plak[ahaks]...then, i have to get ready for my europe trip. yes..thats wat my fren said. just look forward to my europe trip..=) ...dude, i know its going to be fun n all...with my birthday n stuff, but that is not a replacement for u not spending times with me ok? [eQin sedey ditinggalkan sendirian... =( ]

for now i just need to talk to somebody i usually talk to when i have things to say. and all of them are not here. or busy. or deep in their own emotion.

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

well somebody is around. but still, i cant let it all out...

Bottled up inside
are words i never said
the feelings that i hide
the lines you never read.

You can see it in my eyes
read it on my face
traped in side are lies
of the past i can't replace.

With memories that linger
won't seem to go away
why can't i be happier
today’s a brand new day.

Yesterdays are over
even though the hurting is not
nothing lasts forever
i must cherish what i've got.

Don't take my love for granted
for soon it will be gone
all you ever wanted
of the love you thought you'd won.

The hurt i'm feeling now
won't disappear over night
but someway, somehow
everything will turn out alright….

[my favourite poem of all times..since school lagik..]

i know im going to live. i know its all going to be alright. i know that. but i want u and u and u to be here...now...right here...right now... with me...so i can cry on your shoulder like last time.. T_T and i dont like to be alone.. dont let me lost... and confused.. for i am once a shattered soul.. who find her way back...

ok dah...dah....sekarang boleh sambung wat folio..T_T

*July 4th.. happy birthday Julie..!!!*

damn it!

YES! damn it! i know. i dont care. its wrong. but what the heck. say what u want. i dont bother.

I MISS YOU...

there i said it. i thought im going to be fine. no i am not. i was wrong. sorry. it wasnt meant to be this way. but i miss u.

i actually miss u more than i think i could miss u.
i miss u more than im supposed to miss u.
i actually miss u more than i think i should miss u.
i miss u more than u think i miss u.

i can't decide who. really. but i miss u.

and the worst part really. there is nothing i can do. well apart than stare into blank spaces. thinking about u. missing u when u are here with me. i miss u. so much.

i miss u. damn it! T_T

[broke n broken]

Promises mean everything when you're little and the world is so big....

i am nearly 22... but promises still mean everything...and i am still a baby...and the world is still so big...

everything changes
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know

how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you


stilll those who inspire me to write shines the most... no matter what our relationship is...

thank you. thank you. for the wonderful times. i have enjoyed it. for the encouragement. really appreciate it. for the support u gave. it keeps me going. thank you very much! never had anyone say anything much about my mindless ramblings.

hope to speak to u again...soon....take care! and all the best in your studies!

another reason to keep on writing...=) cos i know even tho we no longer speak like we used to.. i can count on you to keep on reading...