strength

im worried sick right now. today, mom is going through her 4th cycle of chemo. she was diagnose with breast cancer late last year. she had the surgery to remove it on the second day of school this year. that is the reason why i am here in Kuantan instead of KL.

it got worse after the 3rd cycle. its like she is losing her strength. her willpower. after the first n second cycle it took her just 2/3 days to feel better. but after the 3rd, she was going on and on.. about a week. i guess she is tired. i dont know what else to do.

she is the strongest woman i ever know. when we are leaving for abroad, all mothers cried saying goodbye to their son/daughter..she didnt even show any sadness. i take it she is so proud of me being the first of her children to be studying abroad. and she believe in me to be able to take care of myself. it made me believe i can take care of myself. i will b okay because she believe it.. why wouldnt i b okay... she is the reason why and how i am now.

its 9.30pm now. she is not back yet. usually she will b back by 4/5pm. please pray for her and for me. i hope she is okay..

where are my sunshine...