wouldnt it be nice?

...yes

wouldnt it be nice to actually have time to enjoy my remaining days
wouldnt it be nice to actually have time to reflect and report the great time i had
wouldnt it be nice to actually have time to do all this and all that...

huarghhh aku tension la.. there are alot of things happen lately...good and bad.. happy and sad..

memories.. the ones that i cherish!

the most important thing of all...walaupun aku menyampah, sakit hati, tension, etc etc bila kena paksa wat dissie nih.. tapi...

bila masa lagi nak tgk aku dok library dari 10pagi sampai 7 petang???
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku pegi library on a saturday n sunday???
....sampai makcik ngan pakcik kat library tu kenal aku dah...
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku mengadap buku dari pagi sampai ke malam???
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku pinjam buku sampai berbelas2???
...baca nyer tak jugak..wat tadah abuk jek..
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku luangkan masa dengan liz tetiap minggu???
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku meminjam articles dgn hebatnyer???

...aku terpaksa akui...

the process of writing this dissertation...

although it is not wat i would say the best learning experience...but i must say its the most memorable one!

...huarghhh...sibuk2 nak reflect plak...gi siapkan tuh!!!! chapter 2 pun tak abis2 lagi..dari summer..masuk autumn...ni dah nak masuk winter dah..tak siap2 gak lagi..

T_T bila nak abis ni...


Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through


...tak...tak sama..aku wat topic bodo2 jek..aku evaluate textbook jek.. aku tak wat psychology.. aku tak wat pasal motivation.. [tapi apasal le liz suruh aku susah2 gi baca buku pasal psychology for language teachers and motivational strategy in language classroom??? pelik pelik..siap recommend kat aku..bagi pinjam lagi..huhu...] anyway, aku ni tak critical...topic aku ni simple2 jek.. T_T nak wat camne..

demmit!

...let it go eqin
...u still have another chapter to complete.. and thats like another 3000 words to write..


See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive


alive?

...kill, kill, die, die....