...yes
wouldnt it be nice to actually have time to enjoy my remaining days
wouldnt it be nice to actually have time to reflect and report the great time i had
wouldnt it be nice to actually have time to do all this and all that...
huarghhh aku tension la.. there are alot of things happen lately...good and bad.. happy and sad..
memories.. the ones that i cherish!
the most important thing of all...walaupun aku menyampah, sakit hati, tension, etc etc bila kena paksa wat dissie nih.. tapi...
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku dok library dari 10pagi sampai 7 petang???
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku pegi library on a saturday n sunday???
....sampai makcik ngan pakcik kat library tu kenal aku dah...
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku mengadap buku dari pagi sampai ke malam???
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku pinjam buku sampai berbelas2???
...baca nyer tak jugak..wat tadah abuk jek..
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku luangkan masa dengan liz tetiap minggu???
bila masa lagi nak tgk aku meminjam articles dgn hebatnyer???
...aku terpaksa akui...
the process of writing this dissertation...
although it is not wat i would say the best learning experience...but i must say its the most memorable one!
...huarghhh...sibuk2 nak reflect plak...gi siapkan tuh!!!! chapter 2 pun tak abis2 lagi..dari summer..masuk autumn...ni dah nak masuk winter dah..tak siap2 gak lagi..
T_T bila nak abis ni...
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
...tak...tak sama..aku wat topic bodo2 jek..aku evaluate textbook jek.. aku tak wat psychology.. aku tak wat pasal motivation.. [tapi apasal le liz suruh aku susah2 gi baca buku pasal psychology for language teachers and motivational strategy in language classroom??? pelik pelik..siap recommend kat aku..bagi pinjam lagi..huhu...] anyway, aku ni tak critical...topic aku ni simple2 jek.. T_T nak wat camne..
demmit!
...let it go eqin
...u still have another chapter to complete.. and thats like another 3000 words to write..
See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
alive?
...kill, kill, die, die....
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Friday, November 10, 2006
doomed day
...and i shall be free from that day onwards~~~
countdown: 14days to live or die
...it depends on how u look at it
progress: 5k to go...half way..and it took me 6 weeks to do that...
but i only hav 14days left...
MATI LA GUE CAMNI!!!!!!!
countdown: 14days to live or die
...it depends on how u look at it
progress: 5k to go...half way..and it took me 6 weeks to do that...
but i only hav 14days left...
MATI LA GUE CAMNI!!!!!!!
Friday, November 03, 2006
countdown: 23days to live
i have spend a few quality hours in the library... doing work the D thing.. it used to be at a snail speed... last week they say we have to start pakai gear 5 dah nih.. huhu..i said at this state..i might need to use engine turbo....T_T
but the truth is from today onwards... i need this...
...dont bother to ask.... i have no idea wat the heck is this...i save it bcos
a) jadi bahan blogging..
b) its a cool pix...dont u think so...and here is another one....
anyway, i took these graphs from an aerodynamic design simulation programme...
...ok saya mau sambung perjuangan...
progress: 5700...lagi...T_T
but the truth is from today onwards... i need this...
...dont bother to ask.... i have no idea wat the heck is this...i save it bcos
a) jadi bahan blogging..
b) its a cool pix...dont u think so...and here is another one....
....dont know wat it is...
but cool isnt it? nice colours...hehe.. and it looks like a bird...(^_^)anyway, i took these graphs from an aerodynamic design simulation programme...
...ok saya mau sambung perjuangan...
progress: 5700...lagi...T_T
Thursday, November 02, 2006
All my bags are packed ...T_T
......So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go...
Finally... It has been confirmed....
[....er...lagi satu cik jaja...duit elaun saya mana ek?? takut mati kebuluran..tak sempat nak balik jek..T_T]
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.
less than 2 months now...
the next 24days will be spent doing the D thing..
then the Folio thingy due on the 8th of Dec...
then the 3 hour exam on the 12th of Dec..
then the packing of those remaining boxes..15th of Dec
then i will spend my remaining days in the UK... activities to be arranged soon
[psstt: shopping spree kat London jadi tau...hehehe...nanti plan betul2 k?]
...rasa macam baru jek aku sampai dalam kegelapan malam on 14February 2005 kat marjon nih...
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go...
Finally... It has been confirmed....
From: Arniza Mahamad Fazim [Our Scholarship Officer]
To: allen mah [My Group Rep]
Sent: Wednesday, November 1, 2006 2:09:17 AM
Subject: Re: marjon cohort 1
Hi allen,
Your departure date is 29 December 2006. MAS agent will courier the tickets to Paul Gentle. You can get the tickets from Paul. I think the tickets will be ready by Middle of
Dec.Tq
Arniza
[....er...lagi satu cik jaja...duit elaun saya mana ek?? takut mati kebuluran..tak sempat nak balik jek..T_T]
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.
less than 2 months now...
the next 24days will be spent doing the D thing..
then the Folio thingy due on the 8th of Dec...
then the 3 hour exam on the 12th of Dec..
then the packing of those remaining boxes..15th of Dec
then i will spend my remaining days in the UK... activities to be arranged soon
[psstt: shopping spree kat London jadi tau...hehehe...nanti plan betul2 k?]
...rasa macam baru jek aku sampai dalam kegelapan malam on 14February 2005 kat marjon nih...
2nd day in Plymouth..
...dah nak balik dah...T_T
scroll down to the end of the page to see how long i have before im leaving on the jet plane...
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.
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Close your eyes
I'll be on my way.............
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Sehari bersama Liz
.... i spend almost 4hours with Liz today.. huarghh~~ lebih bnyk jam dari aku spend dalam satu hari dengan woo atau sal atau leli atau julie atau sudi...atau... atau...T_T oh she is my bestfriend.. why the fuss... anyway she said im a good girl... (^_^) ...and didnt i tell u i love her?? [ok...kalau rasa nak muntah.. leh blah skarang.... huehuehue...]
anyway, thats not the point...
Language, Education and Development [LED for short] is one of the two subjects i took this term. i still cant see the relevence but there is alot of interesting things and facts.. 3hours [with Liz of course] class make you want to go home and hide under the duvet [lagi2 skarang ni sejuk giler..syok seh tido~~~] till dinner time. mainly its about many countries language policy and what it did to the country and its citizens. and i have an opinion about our Malaysian language policy in terms of Education... [can i still change my d***** topic??]
anyway, it was rediscovered... an issue back in year 2000, where this fella [dont even know who he is...not even in the education field i guess..] try to make a revamp by saying we should have back English [as the medium of instructions] schools like the old days before all the education bills ie penyata razak, penyata rahman talib etc etc.. published [which make the Malay Language as the medium as instruction in all national schools].
he said learning english does not make u less of a malay or less patriotic or less nationalist.. well i must say it does not.. [...walaupun BM aku masa SPM dulu dpt 3B jek...T_T...English leh plak dpt A..huhu]. after all this year..i must say i am still very much of a Malay... still makan pakai tangan k? [does a 2 year craving for Ikan Patin masak tempoyak make u believe me???]
i went to an English kindergarten for a year, then to a very-heavy-English-influenced national primary school [Methodist Girl School] before i went to you-are-an-alien-with-antenna-if-u-speak-English school... T_T nama jek SMART...hampeh! but the main reason why i improve my english was bcos during Year 6, i develop an interest in reading english novels.. [largely thanks to my friends].. thats how i develop my interest in the language. but you see, learning a language includes learning its culture because language is part of culture.. remember Siti's song Kurik Kundi? ;) when u learn english, you cant see much of its difference..but take an example of learning Nihon.. [aineee help plisss].... but im sure those people who took Jap are also interested in knowing its culture. dont get me started about how culture can bring a whole different meaning to the language... look what happen to Standard British English being turned into Malaysian English?? [read in Wikipedia...very very interesting]..please dont say thats not because of cultural influences...
contradic to my status now.. an English teacher to be...i am 100% against the idea of having an all English schools again..
1. it will further divide and continue to separate and congragate our society using the language status thingy...isnt it sad? for all the things we did to make people live together peacefully...why want to undo all that??? do u want chaos?
2. ...in the newspaper article, he said the decision made in Razak report to make Malay Language as the sole medium of instruction is a 'mistake of history'. now...isnt that like pot calling the kettle black?? it is not a mistake..the goverment did what they think best for the citizens at that time. it may not be the best now.. but who can predict the future? wat la weh~~~
half of the things he said is true.. English, being the Language of Wider Communication, is important. being able to speak, write, read well in English is crucial and becoming even more vital in the business world and information technology era. We must do something to increase the standard of English in Malaysia if we want to keep up with the rest of the world...
... and yes...at the moment..i can see many many flaws in our Education System.. and in regards to the standard of English in schools..
...why must we make the student suffer even more with Maths and Science in English? it was hard enough to understand it in Malay.. wat more in English..our second language..and to some a foreign language. Quoting the UK Minister of Education, 2003..he believes that lesson in the first language will help student succeed. I think its obvious...for eg how many Malaysian students are there in UK alone? All of us learn Maths n Science in Malay and many of us are engineering students... cant u see that simple connection???
and why...why... must we make the teachers [who are being undervalued... pressured... buried under tonnes of workload.. ] suffer even more and more??? haih~~ dah la kerja banyak..gaji sikit.. bagi lagi kerja extra...pastu bising2 kata cikgu tak buat keje?? malas mengajar? sapa nak buat kalau cam tuh?? tau tak apa itu motivation? extrinsic? intrinsic?? demmit! T_T ...even for me, trying to explain simple maths problem to a 9 year old in English is a problem [...i get A for maths in SPM as well ok?] with sufficient language and maths knowledge i couldnt possibly explain how to convert KG to g to an English child!!!! T_T [aku seorang yg gagal...]. its not as easy as it sound. FYI: Teachers DO have a life..they have families, kids and other resposibilities.. takde pasal la nak mengadap buku sepanjang masa weh~~
ok so u can see...im not 100% with that policy either.. and the implementation.... aduh la.. satu kegagalan tahap abadi...
no textbook... no coursebook... teachers not trainned.. help? aiyoo...far from easily available.. kalau masa tu la baru nak cetak buku...baru nak panggil cikgu pegi kursus 5hari [ingat 5 hari cukup ke?? huhu...] baru nak tubuh jawatankuasa untuk support cikgu2...hmm...tak kesian kat budak2 yg baru masuk skolah tuh??? T_T its not wrong.. maybe im not 100% with it.. it can be done...it can bring turmendous positive effect...but do it the correct way.. ni macam nak menghancurkan bangsa sendiri jek...amenda la..
above all...there is one more thing i couldnt understand.. why the fuss of trying to revive English schools and make Maths n Science being taught in English in order to increase the fluency of the English Language in our society...but there is NO major change done in the English Language Syllabus???? dah kenapa?? shouldnt that be the first one we looked at? Is our English Language Syllabus perfect? [haha]
...im amazed...
ok la.. enuf about the English Language status in Malaysia.. lenkali jek la aku sambung bab exam plak...T_T tu lagi satu la.. tolong la tukar segera... woi!! dengar tak nih??? tukar la exam system tuh... TUKAR...boleh tak?? tak berkesan langsung dah...
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penat dah...mau pegitido wat keje.. saya ada 6200 lagi nak kena tulis...erk...yg ni leh masuk skali tak??...tapi cam tak masuk topic la...T_T...
...hujung minggu ni nak kena jadi cheerleader... tapi captain cheerleaders tgh demam..=P terpaksa la aku amik alih camnih..hehe...padan muka dia..ngahahaha...[woit..pegi mkn ubat la!!]
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reference:
Wikipedia article pasal Malaysian English...cari sendiri huahuahuahua....=P
Education History overview click here
disclaimer: feel free to correct me or argue or if u need further explaination...email me or put it in the comment box [i will be instantly notified by email]... but i am entitled to my opinion. anyway, what do i know... i am just a mere english teacher to be.. im going back to teach 7 year old kids how to say and write 'This is an apple'...[do remind me how hard can that be??? plisss...]... even after 4years of degree level learning and training...[sampai UK lak tuh... huhu] i am going to teach the same thing that Mrs Tan taught me 14years ago...only i hope to do it in a different way... =)
anyway, thats not the point...
Language, Education and Development [LED for short] is one of the two subjects i took this term. i still cant see the relevence but there is alot of interesting things and facts.. 3hours [with Liz of course] class make you want to go home and hide under the duvet [lagi2 skarang ni sejuk giler..syok seh tido~~~] till dinner time. mainly its about many countries language policy and what it did to the country and its citizens. and i have an opinion about our Malaysian language policy in terms of Education... [can i still change my d***** topic??]
anyway, it was rediscovered... an issue back in year 2000, where this fella [dont even know who he is...not even in the education field i guess..] try to make a revamp by saying we should have back English [as the medium of instructions] schools like the old days before all the education bills ie penyata razak, penyata rahman talib etc etc.. published [which make the Malay Language as the medium as instruction in all national schools].
he said learning english does not make u less of a malay or less patriotic or less nationalist.. well i must say it does not.. [...walaupun BM aku masa SPM dulu dpt 3B jek...T_T...English leh plak dpt A..huhu]. after all this year..i must say i am still very much of a Malay... still makan pakai tangan k? [does a 2 year craving for Ikan Patin masak tempoyak make u believe me???]
i went to an English kindergarten for a year, then to a very-heavy-English-influenced national primary school [Methodist Girl School] before i went to you-are-an-alien-with-antenna-if-u-speak-English school... T_T nama jek SMART...hampeh! but the main reason why i improve my english was bcos during Year 6, i develop an interest in reading english novels.. [largely thanks to my friends].. thats how i develop my interest in the language. but you see, learning a language includes learning its culture because language is part of culture.. remember Siti's song Kurik Kundi? ;) when u learn english, you cant see much of its difference..but take an example of learning Nihon.. [aineee help plisss].... but im sure those people who took Jap are also interested in knowing its culture. dont get me started about how culture can bring a whole different meaning to the language... look what happen to Standard British English being turned into Malaysian English?? [read in Wikipedia...very very interesting]..please dont say thats not because of cultural influences...
contradic to my status now.. an English teacher to be...i am 100% against the idea of having an all English schools again..
1. it will further divide and continue to separate and congragate our society using the language status thingy...isnt it sad? for all the things we did to make people live together peacefully...why want to undo all that??? do u want chaos?
2. ...in the newspaper article, he said the decision made in Razak report to make Malay Language as the sole medium of instruction is a 'mistake of history'. now...isnt that like pot calling the kettle black?? it is not a mistake..the goverment did what they think best for the citizens at that time. it may not be the best now.. but who can predict the future? wat la weh~~~
half of the things he said is true.. English, being the Language of Wider Communication, is important. being able to speak, write, read well in English is crucial and becoming even more vital in the business world and information technology era. We must do something to increase the standard of English in Malaysia if we want to keep up with the rest of the world...
... and yes...at the moment..i can see many many flaws in our Education System.. and in regards to the standard of English in schools..
...why must we make the student suffer even more with Maths and Science in English? it was hard enough to understand it in Malay.. wat more in English..our second language..and to some a foreign language. Quoting the UK Minister of Education, 2003..he believes that lesson in the first language will help student succeed. I think its obvious...for eg how many Malaysian students are there in UK alone? All of us learn Maths n Science in Malay and many of us are engineering students... cant u see that simple connection???
and why...why... must we make the teachers [who are being undervalued... pressured... buried under tonnes of workload.. ] suffer even more and more??? haih~~ dah la kerja banyak..gaji sikit.. bagi lagi kerja extra...pastu bising2 kata cikgu tak buat keje?? malas mengajar? sapa nak buat kalau cam tuh?? tau tak apa itu motivation? extrinsic? intrinsic?? demmit! T_T ...even for me, trying to explain simple maths problem to a 9 year old in English is a problem [...i get A for maths in SPM as well ok?] with sufficient language and maths knowledge i couldnt possibly explain how to convert KG to g to an English child!!!! T_T [aku seorang yg gagal...]. its not as easy as it sound. FYI: Teachers DO have a life..they have families, kids and other resposibilities.. takde pasal la nak mengadap buku sepanjang masa weh~~
ok so u can see...im not 100% with that policy either.. and the implementation.... aduh la.. satu kegagalan tahap abadi...
no textbook... no coursebook... teachers not trainned.. help? aiyoo...far from easily available.. kalau masa tu la baru nak cetak buku...baru nak panggil cikgu pegi kursus 5hari [ingat 5 hari cukup ke?? huhu...] baru nak tubuh jawatankuasa untuk support cikgu2...hmm...tak kesian kat budak2 yg baru masuk skolah tuh??? T_T its not wrong.. maybe im not 100% with it.. it can be done...it can bring turmendous positive effect...but do it the correct way.. ni macam nak menghancurkan bangsa sendiri jek...amenda la..
above all...there is one more thing i couldnt understand.. why the fuss of trying to revive English schools and make Maths n Science being taught in English in order to increase the fluency of the English Language in our society...but there is NO major change done in the English Language Syllabus???? dah kenapa?? shouldnt that be the first one we looked at? Is our English Language Syllabus perfect? [haha]
...im amazed...
ok la.. enuf about the English Language status in Malaysia.. lenkali jek la aku sambung bab exam plak...T_T tu lagi satu la.. tolong la tukar segera... woi!! dengar tak nih??? tukar la exam system tuh... TUKAR...boleh tak?? tak berkesan langsung dah...
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.
.
.
.
penat dah...mau pegi
...hujung minggu ni nak kena jadi cheerleader... tapi captain cheerleaders tgh demam..=P terpaksa la aku amik alih camnih..hehe...padan muka dia..ngahahaha...[woit..pegi mkn ubat la!!]
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reference:
Wikipedia article pasal Malaysian English...cari sendiri huahuahuahua....=P
Education History overview click here
disclaimer: feel free to correct me or argue or if u need further explaination...email me or put it in the comment box [i will be instantly notified by email]... but i am entitled to my opinion. anyway, what do i know... i am just a mere english teacher to be.. im going back to teach 7 year old kids how to say and write 'This is an apple'...[do remind me how hard can that be??? plisss...]... even after 4years of degree level learning and training...[sampai UK lak tuh... huhu] i am going to teach the same thing that Mrs Tan taught me 14years ago...only i hope to do it in a different way... =)
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