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After so long….
9.15pm 20th May 2008

Yes it has been so long! Far too long. I have never neglected my darling blog this long. Not that I did it on purpose. Huhu please don’t charge me for negligence. =’( anyway im here not to go on and on about how I miss this private place of mine where I can unload most of my thoughts the most natural way I can ever think of. Most times I never edit what I write thus the shameful amount of grammar mistakes and typo error. Please excuse moi for my laziness. Damn I miss blogging sooooooooooooooooooooooo much! It’s the only time I can actually make sense of my life! Trust me I am here today with a whole different idea on what to write but this is what I live for. Just writing.. pouring my heart out on what really matters to me. I know at this moment it looks like a whole lot of craps to u but I need this to keep my sanity. So please excuse me once more… I will continue whining when I am feeling that I am going crazy again. Enough for now.. my sanity has come to ‘Fairly sane’ level..=S I can live with that for a few more days..


So today’s topic is …. Long gone… well..almost..

There are only 2 things that I really like about my body. My fair skin and my black hair. At this moment both are almost gone. Firstly my fair skin was burnt during the sports day. But the fair baby-smooth and scarless skin of mine is yesterday. It is now decorated with spots thanks to the furious ants in this freaking bloody place. I have no idea why they love to bite me..it stings like crazy!!! It is itchy and red and hurt like crazy! I had sleepless nights..i even went to GP to get medic! And there were times I cried because I cannot handle the pain anymore and few times it bleeds because I have to scratch so hard..YES it is that bad!! I used to smother nice smelling lotion that contains vitamin E and whitening agent. Now, my skin only knows Hydrocortisone cream which is a controlled medicine. There were times I can only sleep if I take a Piriton to help ease the itchiness. My gorgeous skin use to be envied by others. But now.. it is long gone.. I hate the sight of it. No one will ever want to see any of it anymore. And worst..im getting married pretty soon. At this moment, I am pretty sure it is a turn off to anyone who is looking at it… huhu.

And moving on to my black smooth and silky hair.. my hair was so gorgeous some 3 plus years ago.. it was long and black and smooth and silky and exceptionally beautiful..then I perm it because I wanted to. it straighten up after exactly a week! So much for my RM 350!!! And I was left with dry frizzy hair with tons of split ends! It actually takes almost 2 years to take it back to its pre-perm state. Tho it has seen bad-er days before and it is not as bad as before.. it still an issue to me. My used to be smooth and silky hair looks like bihun yg belum di rendam on most days.. huhu..all to be blamed by the water in this freaking bloody place. I have no idea what’s in it!! But I am sure I don’t like it..

That’s all for now. Thy shall return when thy need to stay sane…