my darling died yesterday..

oh God..bencana apakah ini.. huhu T_T

the one thing i never imagined..thought it would never happen this soon.. a reminder that we will just die anytime. anywhere. for any reason..

out of nowhere..no clue.. no sign..it was alright one minute..then it died..in front of me! in a blink..

yes im sad..
yes im devastated
yes im heartbroken
yes im falling apart..
yes im shattered


but i took it as reminder..life on earth is short.. make use of it.. to lead to a better life hereafter. so..

aku redha..
dgn ketetapan Ilahi..
dugaan sebesar zarah buat aku..
ujian tak seberapa..
moga ini menjadi satu peringatan abadi..

what ever it is..

i would like to express my undying love to my beloved darling.. my window to the outside world.. my express way to reach out to my other beloved.. my darling who is with me thru thick n thin.. snow n sunny.. cold and hot... summer n spring...autumn n winter.. holiday and school... stay up all night with me on assignments nights.. keep me company... with me when im happy.. when im sad.. when im mad...when im excited..

terimalah kenyataan eQin.. tiada benda di dunia ini yg kekal abadi.. redha la dgn ketentuan ini.. anggaplah ini satu pendidikan jiwa...

God...please make me strong.. strong enuf to get me thru this.. T_T esp in this state of kekeringan duit...i only have £200 from europe saving.. T_T huhu..bubye europe!! i will never get the chance to see any of it..

argghh...dugaan apakah ini??? beratnya dugaan ini tak tertanggung oleh ku...

pemergian LAPTOP kesayangan ku...setelah setahun, 2 bulan, 18 hari bersama ku..

kini cuti ku tiada makna lagi...T_T