the other part of me...

or should i put it as the part of me that have been left behind.. ohh before i go on, i should say this.. just to make it clear. this entree is not in any way connected to 'aku pun nak jadi loser la..' it is a part of me that has been left behind... long before all that and all this is even in the picture..

once upon a time...in a far away land, there live a girl who live in her own world..She was ALONE, LOST & CONFUSED..but then she decide to close her life from other people. decide to live her life her way.. tho she was barely 15.. what kept her alive in this real world is unknown till this very day... but today she lives.. as a wonderful young lady who is eager to explore the real world.. tho sometimes, she slip back into the magical world of her own...

hahaha...it does seems like a fairy tale ek? i guess fairy tales do come true..only now the girl is still waiting for her prince charming to arrive on a white horse with sword in the air...wah!! cam cerita Pretty Woman la plakk....

whatever it is.. what happen then is history.. a lost history.. it was never written down.. no one really knows what happen...or how it happen..or what happen after that. hmm suddenly i remembered all that..

how she live in the cold dark days and nights.. those tears.. those silent cries...no one within reach.. no one to reach out.. ALONE!!!

she didnt even know where she was that time.. feel unwelcomed... no where to go. not even to the place that is supposed be the most safest place for lots of people.. LOST...

at one point, she tried to reach out.. only to find its the biggest mistake she has ever made. but she was told everytime and everywhere that..it is the right thing to do. but in reality its not.. CONFUSED...

but she never regret for what has happened. she learns.. and keep on learning. what it has made her today is wonderful..

yes she has left it all behind.. but never forgotten.. cause its a reminder what and how she has been thru all that.. and what it has make her today, nothing to some people but certainly something for her.. the strength to go on.. even when you are alone, lost n confused...

but i guess.. everyone has a part of them to be kept closed.. private and confidential.. she dont blame them. bcos she has learned to keep that part of her to herself as she has learned not to share it with another soul. she has been thru it all *alone*.. why share the experience of the cold harsh bitter side of life with those young and wild hearts? let them bite their own share... they will live.. she did.. wonderfully...

*ye la ye la...org quote la.. kang kata kita plagarise plakkk... hmm tajuk blog hari ni.. the other part of me [abah, 2005]. thanks abah for the inspiration today.. those who inspire me to write shines the most...