hmm..i was thinking to write last nite. but blame that fish and chips i had for dinner! i was super sleepy..cant even open my eyes to read or write anything[ngee...sowee sal..ngantuk gila semlm.aku lom baca lagi artikel menyusun dunia ko tu..] but yesterday was a quite a day for me.. with things happening here and there. it started okay and ends okay but in the middle of the day, it was super stressful. ya.. and at times like this,me being far from family, FRIENDS [and i do have my artificial mal-function family here...ngee!!]are the closest blood i have. at times like this, all i need is their support, at times like this, i just need to know they are there, at times like this, i want them to know i will be there to be with them, and at times like this, i know i can count on them.
my teacher once said, we love our sweethearts as much as we love our family. but it always appear as if we cherish our swethearts more than our family and when our sweethearts leave us, we tend to feel the lost, we cry, we mourn for the lost.. it doesnt mean that we dont love our family that much.. just because we know that our family will be there for us no matter what happen. because we know we can count on them on every occasion. because we know we cant loose them and they wont leave us alone. and thats why, sometimes, we take things for granted. we mourn our loses, but we forgot to count our blessings. thats what usually happen to me. i always remember the one who break my heart, but sometimes, i forgot to remember the people who make me smile, cheer me up, who are always there to hold my hand, sit besides me, and cry with me sometimes. Sorry frens bcos sometimes, i forgot to count my blessings, and when i remember, i always count you guys twice!!
exactly another 7 days, im going to turn 21. the age people say the key of freedom. to make decisions and to choose. and with that freedom comes responsibility [which i am very bad with..uhuks!!] the fact on having my own life really scares me.. i like it really when everything is done for me. cos i dont have to care for anything[ahaks...me forever being couldnt care less!!]. but then again, life isnt a fairy tale..and i am no princess waiting for my prince charming to wake me up from the long sleep[again with the dream of wanting to be sleeping beauty..ahaks...lucky b****-all she needs to do is sleep!!]. life must go on...and i have to grow up[another fact that i really hate].funny ya...when i was young, i cant wait to grow up...when i am here, all i want is to stay here. sometimes i laugh at myself, thinking about the stupid things i do in my life. believe it when i say i am more than capable to live in my own world, been there and done that. how? dont ask! when? not so long ago. but yeah...i dont want to go back and i thank God for giving me such wonderful life now, with loving family, great friends, bright future, and everything nice!! all that i worry now..can i make it out there?
[talking crap again eqin? ya..more crap!!skarang, marilah kita menyusun dunia..]
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