wohoooooo

sebenarnyakan...i have nothing to say but then, i need to start on my assignment, so i have to start typing..just to put me in the mood...so i type this blog entree...
the tense that im feeling now make me feel like i want to fly straight to london!!! why london and not home? because i had the greatest time in london! there is no need for me to wake up early, i can go where i want to go, do what i want to do, choose whenever i want to go or do it, no pressure, no worries! just simply fun, fun, fun.... talking bout the perfect vacation for me! ahakss...
yesterday i got this text(sms la) from somebody...and i dont know what to do with the text. i can reply but dont know what to say... i can email but still i dont know what to say... im really sorry if it hurts you (hoping that person will read this)..but u have to know the truth! i know im being cruel...being selfish and all but its to prevent future heartache. i hate doing it u know!the saying 'be cruel to be kind' is sooooooo not me..but i feel i have to for this time round... what ever it is 'what goes around comes around' ... it hurts u and it hurts me too.
i dont know whether i am doing the right thing.. like i have to say what i feel right? even if it will hurt the other person? like i can do it nicely right, i mean politically correct? but of course it will still hurt the other person..at least its better than i keep on acting as if it doesnt bother me right? continue not being myself.. and hurting me deep inside, and make me restless at night for not being honest to the person who always being nice to me? life is sooooooooooooooo complicated...why do i always end up in this kind of situation, why can't i just live a simple life? huh... now i dont even know what to do...do i turn blind and deaf? do i need to do or say anything? or do i carry on my life and pretend that it doesnt happen? or do i continue my life and ignore the fact that i just hurt another soul and not even feeling guilty bout it? what do i do? when do i do it? is there a book title 'a guide to live for idiots like me'? or at least 'a guide to handle emotional bagage for idiots' like me as well.......AAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHH!!!
c u in the next entree---till then MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME!!!!!!
where has my lights of confidence gone???????