here is something for u to look forward...
=)
oh cant wait!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
hidden
What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?--> Yaqin
You Are Wild and Outrageous
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.
You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time.
Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination.
You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
and most of it is quite true...hahaha
You Are Wild and Outrageous
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.
You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time.
Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination.
You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
and most of it is quite true...hahaha
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Drama minggu ini.
school life.
final day of the pksr 2. yipee for the kids and grunting with the teachers. i have never ever seen a pile this high to be marked!!! OMG! im drowned. discourage by the look of it. haiihhhhhh
BTW, this is what u said God's will. i was not supposed to have a slot with my class today. but i think i would rather be with them for 90mins than being with students i dont even know. so i asked to exchange with a teacher who is supposed to be baby sitting them. they are sitting for Seni paper. God knows how i cant draw. but i can colour pretty nicely. (*_*) so i joined the fun. gambar winnie the pooh jah pun...=P anyway, while i was colouring. drama drama. 2 girls came up to see me.
Najwa: Miss YaQin Nureen jumpa ni kat atas meja Auni Afiqah..
...miss yaqin yang irritated sbb budak2 ni kacau dia tgh syok mengaler pun amik la kertas tuh. potong stim betul la budak2 nih..
Miss Yaqin: ok. nanti Miss Yaqin tanya ngan Auni. Pergi duduk and wat kerja.
... on the paper was written 'kertas ni Auni Afiqah. Nureen kalau awak tak nak kawan saya, saya tumbuk mata awak... saya bunuh awak masuk neraka kubur...'
Miss Yaqin yang masih irritated pun panggil Auni...' Auni Afiqah... mari sini kejap...'
Miss Yaqin: showing the paper... and asking nicely...Auni ke yang tulis nih? kenapa Auni tulis cam ni?
Auni: bukan saya tulis... Bisyrul yang tulis.
drama drama
Miss Yaqin: kenapa Bisyrul tulis macam nih?
Auni geleng kepala. in my heart, at a glance i know it was not Auni's handwritting. i put on alot of weight on nice handwritting so i know who have problem with their handwritting. walaupun cikgu dia nyer tulisan lawa sket jek dari cakar ayam...
immediately i get up to check on Bisyrul. i compare some significant letters. i was obvious it was written by him. but being kids of course he denied. so i just warned him and the rest not to do such things ever again. i leave it at that. and the paper was gone no where to be found.
little did i know that Nureen has history of being bullied, and she is the only child and suffering some heart failure. So the mother took it such a big deal.
The mother called one of the teacher. Kak Jun inform me about Nureen's condition. but i refuse to do anything as the kids are already gone back home.
Today, the first 2 period was English. when i came in. i saw a few empty seats. one of it belongs to Nureen. I was just about to talk to the students about it when the mother came. we had to talk in front of the students. the mother said Nureen had bad dreams last nite about it. she even said that the person who wrote such things have inner problems and wanted to meet the students parents and all.
i couldnt make Bisyrul to confess. i dont know what else to do. then their former class teacher who is teaching them Maths came for her lesson. i dont know what she did or how she did it. But Bisyrul confess saying that he wrote it. because Nureen and Batrisyia always calling him names.
so there u go drama minggu ini. tomorrow. i hope final episod. either the mother malu because her child is doing such thing. or couldnt accept it.
but the thing is. apada budak2 nih... bikin teacher malu saja.. budak pandai tapi buat perangai bukan2...haihhhhh
final day of the pksr 2. yipee for the kids and grunting with the teachers. i have never ever seen a pile this high to be marked!!! OMG! im drowned. discourage by the look of it. haiihhhhhh
BTW, this is what u said God's will. i was not supposed to have a slot with my class today. but i think i would rather be with them for 90mins than being with students i dont even know. so i asked to exchange with a teacher who is supposed to be baby sitting them. they are sitting for Seni paper. God knows how i cant draw. but i can colour pretty nicely. (*_*) so i joined the fun. gambar winnie the pooh jah pun...=P anyway, while i was colouring. drama drama. 2 girls came up to see me.
Najwa: Miss YaQin Nureen jumpa ni kat atas meja Auni Afiqah..
...miss yaqin yang irritated sbb budak2 ni kacau dia tgh syok mengaler pun amik la kertas tuh. potong stim betul la budak2 nih..
Miss Yaqin: ok. nanti Miss Yaqin tanya ngan Auni. Pergi duduk and wat kerja.
... on the paper was written 'kertas ni Auni Afiqah. Nureen kalau awak tak nak kawan saya, saya tumbuk mata awak... saya bunuh awak masuk neraka kubur...'
Miss Yaqin yang masih irritated pun panggil Auni...' Auni Afiqah... mari sini kejap...'
Miss Yaqin: showing the paper... and asking nicely...Auni ke yang tulis nih? kenapa Auni tulis cam ni?
Auni: bukan saya tulis... Bisyrul yang tulis.
drama drama
Miss Yaqin: kenapa Bisyrul tulis macam nih?
Auni geleng kepala. in my heart, at a glance i know it was not Auni's handwritting. i put on alot of weight on nice handwritting so i know who have problem with their handwritting. walaupun cikgu dia nyer tulisan lawa sket jek dari cakar ayam...
immediately i get up to check on Bisyrul. i compare some significant letters. i was obvious it was written by him. but being kids of course he denied. so i just warned him and the rest not to do such things ever again. i leave it at that. and the paper was gone no where to be found.
little did i know that Nureen has history of being bullied, and she is the only child and suffering some heart failure. So the mother took it such a big deal.
The mother called one of the teacher. Kak Jun inform me about Nureen's condition. but i refuse to do anything as the kids are already gone back home.
Today, the first 2 period was English. when i came in. i saw a few empty seats. one of it belongs to Nureen. I was just about to talk to the students about it when the mother came. we had to talk in front of the students. the mother said Nureen had bad dreams last nite about it. she even said that the person who wrote such things have inner problems and wanted to meet the students parents and all.
i couldnt make Bisyrul to confess. i dont know what else to do. then their former class teacher who is teaching them Maths came for her lesson. i dont know what she did or how she did it. But Bisyrul confess saying that he wrote it. because Nureen and Batrisyia always calling him names.
so there u go drama minggu ini. tomorrow. i hope final episod. either the mother malu because her child is doing such thing. or couldnt accept it.
but the thing is. apada budak2 nih... bikin teacher malu saja.. budak pandai tapi buat perangai bukan2...haihhhhh
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
hurt
Bottled up inside
are words i never said
the feelings that i hide
the lines you never read.
You can see it in my eyes
read it on my face
traped in side are lies
of the past i can't replace.
With memories that linger
won't seem to go away
why can't i be happier
today’s a brand new day.
Yesterdays are over
even though the hurting is not
nothing lasts forever
i must cherish what i've got.
Don't take my love for granted
for soon it will be gone
all you ever wanted
of the love you thought you'd won.
The hurt i'm feeling now
won't disappear over night
but someway, somehow
everything will turn out alright….
....in this poem i find solace in mending my hurting heart. in the past, present and hopefully not future.
are words i never said
the feelings that i hide
the lines you never read.
You can see it in my eyes
read it on my face
traped in side are lies
of the past i can't replace.
With memories that linger
won't seem to go away
why can't i be happier
today’s a brand new day.
Yesterdays are over
even though the hurting is not
nothing lasts forever
i must cherish what i've got.
Don't take my love for granted
for soon it will be gone
all you ever wanted
of the love you thought you'd won.
The hurt i'm feeling now
won't disappear over night
but someway, somehow
everything will turn out alright….
....in this poem i find solace in mending my hurting heart. in the past, present and hopefully not future.
Monday, May 18, 2009
broken to pieces..
sebelum aku menceritakan apa yg brokennye.. aku nak bagitahu yang hari ni aku telah sedar sesuatu yg aku rasa cam nak bagitahu kat semua orang...
....rupa2nye harga bedak muka a.k.a foundation aku tuh... adalah lebih mahal daripada tipon aku.. huhu..betapa murahnye la tipon buruk aku tuh.. dah le burok..lampu pun dah kiok... ada sesiapa ke nak sponser tipon baru kat aku...or korang ada tipon burok korang yg lebih cantik dari tipon aku sekarang.. boleh kot nak sedekah kat aku...huhu...
ok lah..tu kisah my foundation and my half broken phone..
ni kisah broken friendship, broken hearts, broken loyalty and broken trust.
the friendship started when we all came back from abroad [Jan 2007] and live in a house together. however some of us has some backdated history of bad times and good times. but the friendship went on beautifully on surface level.. so very innocent of me to think it was pure from the heart..
it started a few months back.. it was between A and B... i thought it was just a misunderstanding gone really bad. deep in my heart..i hope they would just patch it up and be friends again. but it didnt happen. so i state my stand that A and B are still my friends separately. but if i were forced to pick a side i would have to choose A. recently, C [another one of us] blog about B in discreet and code telling how B had treated her badly and betrayed her. FYI: C is my super bestfriend. she is my shopping/study/everything else in between buddy. way back then [in Jan/Feb 2007], C had told some of us that she had some bad history with B loooong ago and she wouldnt want to trust her fully and having some problem being friends with B. i fully understood. because as human, we all had made some bad decisions in our lives. and we could have forgive but it was never forgotten. which i really think it was fair enough. but nonetheless, C and B got along pretty OK in my eyes. until C said because A and B are no longer friends, C has decided there is no more reason to be friends with B. and its fine with me. i got along with B just fine too.. despite the warning i had from somebody else asking me to take care of myself when i am around B and never to tell B any secret whatsoever. and i have heard rumours about B. but being me, i couldnt be bothered about what people say. i once have been a victim when people say things that are not even true.
but recently, through sms, phonecalls, blog and a catch up session with D [another one of us too], i have found out what B has really done to C. the incident happen a few years back [before Jan 2007], but C just found our what B had done to her just recently [10 days ago]. before i really know what happen, i was thinking to just stay connected to B. but now i think, not only what B have done to C is bad because C is my super bestfriend. even if B could have done it to any other girl, i would think she is lower than life itself.
come to think of it, more than a few times i felt looked down by B because i never shop like her. all her clothes are either ZARA, TOPSHOP, or MNG or yang setaraf dengannye... all her bags are Guess or what knot... To me, my family aren't rich.. i couldnt afford any of that. So case closed. i wasn't even to keep any grudge about it. but i think B knows deep in her heart that she is lower than life herself...so she took pride in buying high end goods just to think she is higher to the rest of us who are larger than life who appreciate friendships among us girls more than life itself.
i felt so betrayed by what B have done. how could anyone do such thing to a person who she called a friend. i really felt cheated by her poker face. i didnt mean to be 'mengungkit' with what i have done for her. all her tears that i wiped. all her stories i heard. all those times and money i spend for her and with her. i felt gross to even think i have been friends with her. it hurts me.really bad.
i have choose to end all communication with B and end the so called friendship between her and me.
if B happen to read this, these are my last words to u. i couldnt even have the heart anymore to send u a text. even C still have a heart to send u a text. but not me.
B, you have broken my trust and heart with what u have done. U have destroyed my friendship, the most beautiful thing i could ever give to any girl. i no longer think and feel u deserve such beautiful thing. i love my girls as much as i love myself. B, u are no longer considered my girls.
....rupa2nye harga bedak muka a.k.a foundation aku tuh... adalah lebih mahal daripada tipon aku.. huhu..betapa murahnye la tipon buruk aku tuh.. dah le burok..lampu pun dah kiok... ada sesiapa ke nak sponser tipon baru kat aku...or korang ada tipon burok korang yg lebih cantik dari tipon aku sekarang.. boleh kot nak sedekah kat aku...huhu...
ok lah..tu kisah my foundation and my half broken phone..
ni kisah broken friendship, broken hearts, broken loyalty and broken trust.
the friendship started when we all came back from abroad [Jan 2007] and live in a house together. however some of us has some backdated history of bad times and good times. but the friendship went on beautifully on surface level.. so very innocent of me to think it was pure from the heart..
it started a few months back.. it was between A and B... i thought it was just a misunderstanding gone really bad. deep in my heart..i hope they would just patch it up and be friends again. but it didnt happen. so i state my stand that A and B are still my friends separately. but if i were forced to pick a side i would have to choose A. recently, C [another one of us] blog about B in discreet and code telling how B had treated her badly and betrayed her. FYI: C is my super bestfriend. she is my shopping/study/everything else in between buddy. way back then [in Jan/Feb 2007], C had told some of us that she had some bad history with B loooong ago and she wouldnt want to trust her fully and having some problem being friends with B. i fully understood. because as human, we all had made some bad decisions in our lives. and we could have forgive but it was never forgotten. which i really think it was fair enough. but nonetheless, C and B got along pretty OK in my eyes. until C said because A and B are no longer friends, C has decided there is no more reason to be friends with B. and its fine with me. i got along with B just fine too.. despite the warning i had from somebody else asking me to take care of myself when i am around B and never to tell B any secret whatsoever. and i have heard rumours about B. but being me, i couldnt be bothered about what people say. i once have been a victim when people say things that are not even true.
but recently, through sms, phonecalls, blog and a catch up session with D [another one of us too], i have found out what B has really done to C. the incident happen a few years back [before Jan 2007], but C just found our what B had done to her just recently [10 days ago]. before i really know what happen, i was thinking to just stay connected to B. but now i think, not only what B have done to C is bad because C is my super bestfriend. even if B could have done it to any other girl, i would think she is lower than life itself.
come to think of it, more than a few times i felt looked down by B because i never shop like her. all her clothes are either ZARA, TOPSHOP, or MNG or yang setaraf dengannye... all her bags are Guess or what knot... To me, my family aren't rich.. i couldnt afford any of that. So case closed. i wasn't even to keep any grudge about it. but i think B knows deep in her heart that she is lower than life herself...so she took pride in buying high end goods just to think she is higher to the rest of us who are larger than life who appreciate friendships among us girls more than life itself.
i felt so betrayed by what B have done. how could anyone do such thing to a person who she called a friend. i really felt cheated by her poker face. i didnt mean to be 'mengungkit' with what i have done for her. all her tears that i wiped. all her stories i heard. all those times and money i spend for her and with her. i felt gross to even think i have been friends with her. it hurts me.really bad.
i have choose to end all communication with B and end the so called friendship between her and me.
if B happen to read this, these are my last words to u. i couldnt even have the heart anymore to send u a text. even C still have a heart to send u a text. but not me.
B, you have broken my trust and heart with what u have done. U have destroyed my friendship, the most beautiful thing i could ever give to any girl. i no longer think and feel u deserve such beautiful thing. i love my girls as much as i love myself. B, u are no longer considered my girls.
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