lets get back to reality!!!

there is so much more to life!!! aku tak tau berapa org yg sedar apa yg aku rasa.. but i think its kind of obvious. hmm tapi semuanya sudah mula berlalu... pada malam birthday aku, ada seorang kawan ni cakap 'of course everyone loves u eqin' slow je dia kata...aku je kot yg dengar. tapi masa tu aku tak caya.. ntah la! dengan apa yg berlaku disekeliling aku, dalam hidup aku, hidup kawan2 aku, aku rasa cam un-loved and un-cared...aku takut nak teruskan hidup ini. aku takut aku sorang jer..aku takut aku kehilangan apa yg aku ada sekarang...aku takut sgt2. tapi semuanya berubah! ternyata aku ada manusia2 istimewa dalam hidup aku!! those angels who are sent from Heaven to touch my life! and sesungguhnya aku sgt2 terharu dgn kawan2 aku... sbb sorang kawan aku tu, mengenepikan apa yg berlaku dlm hidup dia semata2 untuk meraikan hari lahir aku...hmm I LOVE U SO MUCH BABE!!!!... pastu, sorang lagi kawan aku ckp, 'we all need each other' hmm barulah aku sedar, aku pun kena la bagi semangat kat kawan2 aku kan.. aku tak leh la camni [ceh,macam penting sgt jer..] tapi thats what friends are for..cam yg aku penah cakap..in times like this, friends are the closest blood we have! hmm pastu...ntahla... aku tak tau nak ckp camne. apa yg terjadi 2/3 hari ni sgt2 membuatkan aku untuk hidup. skali lagi, the upmost gratitude to all my friends especially to my abah n sisters!! eqin cayang korang slalu!!! thanks alot for everything!!!!

dulu bila aku camni, aku slalu ingat kat poem yg aku penah tulis..tapi aku tak bawak rupanya poem tu. tapi aku ada Lion, untuk ingatkan aku, betapa aku pernah melalui zaman yg sungguh gelap dalam hidup aku, sendirian! aku tak pernah lupa kenapa aku beli lion tu...sungguh2 aku mencari lion tu! satu midvalley tu aku pusing..aku kluar jugak sampai ke KLCC..dan akhirnya kami bertemu di situ... ahakss! [cam kesah chenta hindustan plakk..] dan sekarang aku ada ABAH, SOPHIE, SALLY, MC WOO, n LAYLEE untuk ingatkan aku pasal siapa aku.. n kenapa aku kat sini.. n kenapa aku mesti terus kuatkan semangat! diaorg tak perlu berkata apa2... apa yg diaorg buat untuk aku selama ini cukup untuk aku ingat semua itu.. hmm thanks alot guys!! i really owe u guys loads!!

ngeee sejak akhir2 ni, aku slalu je cakap pasal family aku kat sini...ramai yg tanya sebenarnya tapi nak wat camne kan.. mmg diaorg la hidup aku kat sini. dah real family aku jauh...takkan aku nak cerita pasal zaman aku kecik2 dulu plak kan. sabau je la korang ekk..

so..now im 21, i had parties for 3 days in a row, [ahaks so much for being 21... ngeee] and enough with the parties. have to get back to the reality... lets start by clearing my just-been-hit-by-tornado-looking room, and then we can start living in the reality again.. erghh that means 2 assignment n an exam paper! huhu

yup now, i am super positive that i can get through this life... with friends like all of you...who can't? last but not least... restu ayah bonda kuharap selalu, demi anakmu yg kini jauh....[apa kes la aku dok dgr lagu raya ni...hmm]. lagi satu..aku tukar template blog ni sbb aku dah boring tgk template kaler purple tu..tukar kaler la plakk.. esok bila aku boring, aku tukar lagi...hehehe..

still looking forward to a better n stronger me..but for now, aku nak masuk tido.. lagipun aku ada Bunny [thanks!!! menambah koleksi haiwan peliharaan kat bilik aku...Lion, Polar, Koala n now Bunny...] hmm... tido la eqin.. semoga hari esok menjanjikan seribu lagi sebab untuk hidup..

i had the greatest time ever....

i had a great day yesterday... started at sharp 12am on 28th of July, LAYLEE give me a kiss.ngee thanks babe!! that nite, i was buried under piles of cloth, making the costume for the ulek mayang dance. when i was about to ask Sally to try the skirt..they sang the birthday song. suddenly, out of nowhere, they started to throw flour at me...huhu sadistic giler!! it was tempting just to stop working n celebrate my birthday.. but i have to finish the thing for the performance!in the morning, i woke up, n was really tempted to ate my birthday cake, of course baked by my favourite iron chef, SOPHIE [thanks so much for the lovely lemon, covered in choclate n fruit cake!! LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!] ngeee...then i was super busy with the 7 princesses, giving final touch to their costume. only till later that evening i had the chance to sit with my family for an early dinner n cake-cutting ceremony.. Thanks ABAH for the well wishes, and WOO for the pink candles n wishing me to be less pinky [contradic huh?].

sadly, we can't stay long and be merry like what we did on Sally's birthday... because of the international student party last nite, we have to get ready to rock the show. so..yada nada.. all went well last nite! and now its disco time! ngee.. *gulp* guilty as charge..i was just trying to forget all the misery and pay for my hardwork for the last 2weeks. i dont think im going to dance like that again.. ahaks!! malu-fying!!but im super happy!!!

but the party did not end there...me n Sally are going to have a combine birthday party tonite..of course it going to be great! last but not least, my almost-to-be twin SALLY [born 3days apart] thanks for the great party we are hosting tonite!! and tomorrow we are going to spend some quality time as a family [again]...thanks to all the birthday and well wishes from UK, M'sia, NZ and Ausie! thank you Allah for blessing me with such wonderful friends.. looking forward for a stronger n better me!!

me? 21? nahh!! no way...

wokeh..i will be super deadly busy dealing with 7 princesses, doing their costume and all, so i would like to take this free hour to write my last blog before i officially turn 21 years old...

so here i am..trying to find out what are my feelings now towards life today. and i cant think of a single feeling to be put forward. frankly speaking, i only know two feelings..happy n feelingless. for now, its feelingless.. bcos it certainly not happy...[baiklah..sat lagi aku pakai la perfume happy aku tu.. bior happy2 sket!] still wishing for a brighter and happier life as an adult. so here.. i would like to share some being-an-adult-promise..[some wont appear here is this blog but what the heck...]

as an adult, i NURUL YAQIN BAHRUM AZHAR promise to

*be more responsible for my own actions[like...u have to study for ur own sake!!]

*develop a more mature way of life [like bangun pagi for a start..ngeee]

*cherish the life who i met alot along the way to this adulthood [family n friends mostly..]

*remember the life lesson i pick up along the way [in relation to the guide on How to live LIFE for idiots!!]

*always remember what does it feel like to b a child [super important!!]

*be a better overall person, friend, sister, daughter, student and God's servant.

tomorrow -on my 21st birthday- i shall be buried under meters and meters of cloth..trying to put it together for our 2nd malaysian show here in UK. we will be doing the ULEK MAYANG dance.. ngee i hope it will take my mind off some stuff that were not so great to think of. and i hope we will party all night long... gee eqin! the college put up a party for u on ur birthday!!! ngeee....

so thats it... ergghhhh i miss my family, sisters[in ausie n NZ], my good friends all over the world [mostly in M'sia]. well on a brighter side of it..i have my family n sisters here in UK, and also some of my good friends with me..so cheer up eqin dearie..the SUN WILL SHINE TOMORROW...JUST FOR YOU!! [i promise u again...]

life updates!!

hi everyone..[tho im practically sure no one reads my blog more regularly than me my self...anyway, here goes nothing]. yakitiyak..ngee!!! sesi menyusun dunia telah tamat jam 4.30ptg tadi..yahooo!!! at last it ends!!! im more than relief to hear that. and it also ends the worse week in my life here in the foreign land ever!!! so all in all..we went out to celebrate it..the end to a stressful week n SALLY's 21st BIRTHDAY!!! [gee babe!! tua dah ko...hehehe...me turning 12 this coming thursday!!!] ya..it was great..but nothing much change tho i tragically need some sleep [after i have my dinner n a few slices of Sal's birthday cake!! of course..]. well other than that..no more updates! thats all folk..

me counting days to left this super wonderful life of a child!! hoping for a more greater, happier, fuller life as an adult soon...and ya...HANG IN THERE eqin dearie...LIFE IS NOT GOING TO BE THIS BAD ALL THE WAY!!![i promise...]

menyusun dunia..

hmm..what a title for today's blog!! nak tunggu waktu subuh sambil mengeringkan peluh setelah berjaya berjalan pegi dan balik dari ASDA tetengah malam buta ni.. hebat ekk duk kat UK ni. dulu kalau memalam begini lepak kat warung kat bangsar, minum fresh oren ngan makan nasi goreng kampung...[abang opie!!balik nanti bawak kitaorg jalan2 lagi ekk]tapi bila duk kat UK ni, memalam begini.. turun naik bukit, meredah semak samun ke ASDA untuk membeli belah..siap beli telor, tepong, gula..ehh macam2 la ada!! sbb takde org kat ASDA tu, kitaorg pun sempat la buat keje gile sket2. main bola dulu seround dua.. aku ajak budak2 ni wat race trolly..tapi terbantut akibat kesesakan lalu lintas ngan trolly pekerja ASDA yg gabak2 tu. ngeee...saje je wat kerja keji setelah berjaya meng-squeeze otak mendapatkan ayat untuk presentation next monday.

tadi abah ada cerita pasal kejadian terbaru di bumi asing ini. hmm ntah la..takut plakk aku nak cerita kat sini.selepas 2 kejadian letupan di kota london, aku semakin malas nak kluar rumah. aku nak pegi city centre..nak beli barang sket. next week birthday aku, and seperti tahun2 sudah, aku nak masak la untuk budak2 ni. hmm korang..aku masak speget je bleh?? tgkla kalau aku terasa berani nak jejak city centre.

hari ni aku habiskan dgn meng-digest artikel menyusun dunia tu..lagi aku baca, lagi berserabut otak aku. lagi tak tersusun ada.. sowee la, otak aku ni simple jer, tak leh nak pening2 ni. ahaks.. sbb tu results aku pun simple jer.ngeee..[now i know the reason...ahaksss]

apa la yg aku tulis hari ni, tak de isi pun. as if im writing for the sake of writing but at least its a good practice. journal n reflection for the day.hmm oklah aku nak tido dulu sbb esok aku nak sambung proses menyusun dunia lagi... [ada je explode anak abah yg sorang ni...ngeee!!!]