another goodbye..

hello there. its all over now. 5 and a half years. i hope it really over now. i now have to serve for at least 5 years. given the circumstances i pass the KISSM exam. it was bloody hard ok? if i did not*touch wood*, i might want to consider give up working for the gov. the idea of me going through kissim all over again was just too daunting.

i have 3 weeks before the letter that detemine the rest of my life arrive. in that mean time, i should worry how to live without sayang being just 10km away from me. huhu.. i have 10 thousand things on my mind right now. like how to live for the next 3-6 months without allowances!!!

the idea of me blogging tonight is to tell how i dread this place. IPBA. the so called the prestige teacher training college. the list of complaints will take up to a year to be completed. thus i skip that part. remaining the only selected few wonderful and great memories from the moment i say Hello to Laylee [my first friend in IPBA and we still are very dear till today...] till the tears that fell when i say goodbye to those who are dear to me.. those who vanish the silence in my life... those who colours my days.. those who laugh and cry with me..those who climb the endless stairs in ipba with me... [promise never to forget that 'Tangga Kejayaan'.. ever!] those who left Malaysia to the wonderland with me.. those who i will remember my whole life..

Those are

Foundation class D
the girls of 306A 2002-2003
the girls of 302B 2004
the hip and happening Marjons
The girls of H33, H32, H34, H30, H31 and Sue!
...beethoven pun skali..
and the guy that i adore so much in H19! huehue
and last but not at all least...the gorgeous babes of 506A.

... another year another goodbye. but the tears are the promise to get back together again someday. . i am going to miss all those times we had together. IPBA is the place u depend on friends to be able to go through the day. and i depend on you...

fuyoooo.....

hello. hi there. how are you? have u been busy lately? have you had restless nights lately? have you been wondering alot as u are unsure of something? well, i have. and its all over as i am back in college before Maghrib yesterday feeling better about things. well one thing. and i have to bother about alot of other things. =( for e.g passing my Kissim, going to BTN this weekend, and wondering about my posting. damn its tiring to be a working adult. huhu...

anyway, about that one thing. it might be a small matter to others. but..huhu damn it bothers me like crazy mad. you see...i am the first daughter. i wasnt there when it happens to my brothers. i wasnt there to see how my parents deal with it. anyway, it happened to my brothers..my parents reaction to me might be different from my brothers. thus this is totally a new experience and i have no idea how it happened in my family. T_T

Last saturday, i went back to Kuantan with my boyfriend to be introduced to my parents after being pressured by his parents and demanded by him. Demmit dia sket punya rilek..aku lak yg gelabah. confident giler aa..tension tol aku.

Fortunately everything went well... things that i fear the most does not happen. and i dont want to think of it anymore. well, considering his long list of excellency, he always pass with flying colours in everything that he does. punya la dapat green light from my parents, sampai my mom bought a green shirt for him...haih~~~ di sayangi abis la tuh.. *eyes rolling*

now i am more happy to be working in Kuantan while he is in KL. about making it official? uiks.. let me breath ok? let me have some deep quality sleep for a few weeks.. then we talk ok?

life goes on..now im trapped in this college until 4pm every weekdays. damn does my end of year be this stressful every year??

i am a teacher. i should be getting long holidays at the end of every year!

hey people!!!

yeah i dont know when i will be back permanently! but hey.. its better than nothing. anyway, just had my graduation dinner the other day... every one look damn lovely and gorgeous. and i must say SEXY!!! except for a few sakai ones laaa... huhuhu.. nonetheless.. hear are the pix..

sneak peak of the sexiness...

on a scale of 1-10 this pix rate at 5 ;)

the unlucky table 10...=( tak menang pun..

Marjonz reunited!

The gediks unlimited!

The dress make me feel like im a cake..ehhh princess!

yaqin: most likely to make a living from Ebay....

eh? betul la kot...we will see after im done teaching... ;)

thats the final year and graduation dinner. guess we will bringing husbands/wives and kids the next time we meet... hmmm in 5 years time? perhaps!

2002-2007

the good, bad and ugly. memories that will be cherish forever. experiences that prepares me for the real world. friendships worth to hold a lifetime.

im here...

for tonight im here. i will be missing again... soon.

there has been alot of things happening. im completely done with my practical. puasa. and raya.

puasa in malaysia mmg best. one reason: pasar ramadhan. walaupun menu aku sama jek hari2.. huhu puasa kat UK: kul 4.30 leh buka puasa dah...hehehe... tu jek la..tapi kena masak sendirik..

My raya was ok. Yeah no doubt raya with family is great... i dont have to worry about a thing. i dont have to stay up all night to goreng kerisik and teman sophie to masak rendang... i dont have to worry about kuih raya or kemas rumah.. i just wake up on hari raya...mandi n get ready with my baju raya... and collect duit raya yg banyak...=)

but yeah.... i miss my raya wif friends... i even miss my raya alone in london last year. it might sound lonely...but helll yeah...i like it. after raya prayer i head to Starbuck to get my fav latte and grab a cinnamon roll...then i walked slowly to Hyde Park and slowly sipping my latte and reflecting on my life... damn i miss it.

perhaps next year, i will be raya-ing with my in-laws.... ngaaaaaa.....


yesh. i have met the whole family. its high time for him to go and meet mine... in fact we are planning to go back to Kuantan sometime next month.

before that. im attending my graduation dinner soon. 3rd November. and i have a great big dress for the occasion. =) wait for the pix...

thats all folks. selain daripada itu... i have nothing else to say... i will try to be back more often than once a month... =s

take care!

Here i am..

yes. i am here. nothing to blog in my mind bcos i have a few issues which makes me worry sick.

first of all, how am i going to survive till my next allowance arrived in my bank account.

secondly, how and when am i going to start doing my research task.

thirdly, the state of darling's health is worrying me sick.. with no obvious problem when diagnossed, i have no idea whats going on with darling. perhaps i should send darling to a professional for more in depth diagnoss. hmmm im worried. =(

the death of darling is freaking me out... help!!!!!!