it will never be the same...

it is gone..
forever!
im sure..
im sad..
it is lost..
not sure how...
not sure where...
not sure when...

cant replace it...
it will never be the same...
the one and only...
may it rest somewhere more wonderful than at the top my favourite pencil...

i have had it since i was in school, form 4 or form 5 i cant remember. but it was given to me.. i took it and have no intention of keeping it this long.. it was nothing at first, but it turns out to be my favourite thing about my favourite pencil. its unique to me. its definitely mine.

it have been with me thru thick n thin. it was with me during the SPM and many other exams. i play with it when im stuck while doing assignments. its there when i stayed all night doing assignments. i held the pencil during various presentations. it distract me when im tense. it help me focus when im distracted. i love turning it round and round... it was special...

now its gone...my pencil will never be the same...

i first realise it was gone when i was in class yesterday. i refuse to use the pencil, i use pens instead. i hope it fell down when it was in my room or laylee's room while we were doing the preparation for our micro teaching. oh no! what am i going to hold during the micro teaching session tomorrow? *sigh*

i never believe it was lucky or anything. it was just special. bcos it has been with me all this while.. i call it my lucky charm bcos i dont know what else i would call it. it was never lucky...it was just special.. bcos its always with my favourite pencil. now i have lost it. and never to be found again.. and my pencil now, is just like any other Black 0.5 Pilot Shaker.. ordinary!

thanks for all the wonderful moments together... i will remember you..and definitely im gonna miss you.....

*sigh...another sad pathetic case*