keterlaluan...

hmm terlalu lama rasanya aku tidak berkarya..

haha..ewah...karya la sangat. but lately i have failed to put into any thoughts into my writing. sebenarnya aku ada jer idea nak tulis...tapi i failed to give it a deep thought and put it into words. so sebelum aku tertimbus di bawah kerja2 yang sangat banyak..aku nekad malam ini satu soalan yg pernah di ajukan kepada ku akan ku jawab. tapi ini sekadar my shallow thoughts. apalah sangat pemikiran aku yg singkat ini...

anyway here is the question.. so kita dah tgk kebagusan sistem pendidikan UK. apa kejayaan sistem pendidikan kita?

so here is my answer. this i pick up during my 6 days at the *horrible* school.

satu kejayaan sistem pendidikan kita ialah melahirkan manusia yg boleh bertanggungjawab at least ke atas diri sendiri. i mean.. look at us. we are totally responsible to our books, homeworks, and stationery. i remember never once in my life my mom kemas kan my bag skolah. never once in my life, my mom check if i bring my pencil case. kerja skolah pun sesekali je mama check. tu pun to see if i did my homework which is almost to never. haha.. but at least im responsible enough to my own education. i did check if i have books, pencils, and etc. and even when our parents didnt check we always have teachers. if we do not bring it to school..hmm siap la kena ngan cikgu. while here, the sistem is different. students comes to school only with their packed lunches [prepared by parents or guardian], gym kit [also prepared by parents or guardian], and one homework book or a piece of paper [tu pun seminggu sekali jer...on friday!]. i have came across incidents that a 9/10 year old students [we are talking about year 5 here..] just sit there and stare until i came to him and asked why he didnt do the work assigned. and he looked at me and said.. I DONT HAVE A PENCIL. huh... dalam hati menyumpah2 aku!! pemalas punya mangkuk ayon! pencil pun nak tunggu aku bagi ker? sebelum bagi pencil tu kat dia.. aku cakap CANT U GET YOUR OWN PENCIL? tu la.. nak kata budak2 kita ni spoon fed.. hmm aku rasa diaorg ni lagi dahsyat! pampered! it even go to the extend that they dont want to think. takde KBKK langsung! ok la take this as example.. last tuesday. cikgu tu ajar pasal kg n g. 1kg = 1000g, 1/2 kg= 0.5 kg = 500g. so bila cikgu bagi latihan suruh buat... suruh padankan kg ngan g.. ramai yg stop bila diaorang get to 1.5kg = x g... duh? ok la.. sorang tanya.. aku terangkan. 2 org tanya..ok lagi.. tapi nak semua yg aku tgk berhenti kat situ...aku pun malas la nak terangkan 15ribu kali kan... so aku cakap la.. u know. take a look at the numbers n white board. answers are there!! THINK! give it a thought. bila aku naik suara sket.. mula la budak2 tu.. I DONT KNOW!! so aku pun psycho la.. do u know how many grams in a kilogram?*yes..1000* and how many g in half a kilogram? *500* whats a kilogram and half then? *buat muka irritated sbb aku make him think..* so u do know.. u dont want to think! kalau kita dulu.. berlumba nak tunjuk pandai kat cikgu... berlumba nak siap cepat.. ye la kita dulu mana ada Teachers Assistant nak tgk kita boleh buat ke tak. mana la cikgu tu ada masa nak pegi tanya sorang2 kan.. even kat sini pun..sorang cikgu dgn 3 orang TA tak dapat nak beri perhatian pada 28orang dalam satu masa.

and during playtime n lunch hour, the students are reminded to think about consequences of their own actions. to be responsible of their own actions. honestly! how many of us...even up to this stage of age really do think of the consequences of our own action. [ok la maybe some of u do think about your actions. i do so... but i dont think of every action. what more to ask from a kid..duh??] kadang2 aku rasa cam kelakar plak.. nak rotan tak boleh.. nak marah pun tak boleh. nak denda suruh berdiri atas kerusi pun tak boleh! [hm.. there u go Izham, your briliant suggestion that i really make homeworks before telling the teacher goes down the drain the moment i finish my sentence.] some parents boleh marah kat cikgu sbb cakap anak dia ada behaviour problem. duh!!??? kalau budak tu tak tahu dia ada behaviour problem...camne dia nak ubah perangai dia? duh.. if dont know a problem, how can we fix it?

so..sebenarnya.. sistem pendidikan UK ni takde la best sangat pun. diaorg slalu highlight benda yg best jer.. kita pun jangan la highlight kegagalan sistem kita je..banyak yg bagusnya sistem pendidikan kita. malah diakui..antara sistem pendidikan yg terbaik seluruh dunia. tak nafikan banyak yg kita boleh belajar dan adapt dari sistem diaorg ni.. tapi sistem kita tak gagal sepenuhnya.. kalau gagal..aku dan kawan2 tak sampai untuk blajar kat luar negara.. korang yg baca tu pun..leh gak membaca kan?? kalau gagal..mesti kita semua tak reti baca kan?? kan? lagi satu kejayaan sistem kita ialah.. melahirkan students yg dapat A in english and B in BM masa SPM.. hehehe... [aku tidak keseorangan rupanya!! YAHUUUUU.... ].

maka dgn ini cancel la idea aku nak kutuk sistem pendidikan british dalam disertation.. terpaksala aku cari idea lain untuk ditulis... hmm...ideas?

saat waktu terhenti lagi...

hahaha... saja nak join the club! sebenarnya waktu tidak terhenti buat aku... cuma aku jer yg takde idea nak blogging! ntahla kenapa...

hari ini waktu tidak terhenti lagi...tanpa sedar hari dah pukul 6ptg rupanya... kat luar pun dah gelap. dah masuk pun waktu isyak.. hmm..apa aku buat hari ni? takde apa... satu lagi hari berlalu tanpa apa2 hasil...

hmm...eQin kata nak wat folio hari ni? apa kes??? apa sudah terjadi?

hangs head in shame!!!


hmm...semoga esok aku lebih produktif!

and thats it...

huh..and today i really had it! ohh that class is soo out of their way! if its up to me.. argghhh!! sekor2 kena gantung dah kat kipas...opps... skolah kat sini takde kipas? umm...gantung kat dinding? haa...gantung kat dinding! mmg patut dan layak...

anyway..thats not what i want to write about. let the memories die as the time pass.. tomorrow. i get half an hour to introduce Malaysia to those students. i put in loads of pictures for them to see.. i will get them to do some work! im not using the power point.. im using a local programme called ActivPrimary. and i really hope it will work!! ohh God..please let it work!

i just hope they will listen and i hope i do have patience to deal with them. its no longer gaining courage to stand infront..its whether u have the determination to keep going or sit down n cry! those students are the toughest ever..

please wish me luck! ohh just lets see what happen tomorrow..hope no one decided to commit suicide!

nafas baru...

ye dgn ini saya merasmikan laptop lama yg telah diberi kehidupan baru..

bertarikh 20 Jan 2006..setahun yg lalu..pada tarikh inilah, kali pertama aku memegang laptop ini.. [erk?? setahun jer laptop ni tahan kat tangan aku???]. dan akhirnya aku mintak sophie reformat...sbb aku give up tgk laptop ini menggila... maka dapat la laptop baru.. dan aku yakin! tahun depan aku format lagi!! =D biasala.. mana2 alat elektronik mmg tak tahan kat tangan aku ni..

tapi...*sob sob* windu... sbb peberet site dulu seme ilang.. esp blog2 yg aku slalu baca...ntah berapa kali lompat tah..entah dari mana sampai kemana tah aku melompat.. akhirnya hilang begitu saja...mana la aku nak cari balik???

kuang kuang kuang...ada jer kalau aku nak baca! leh ajer gi melompat kat partition sebelah.. hehe.. saja nak test XP propesional ni kejap..kalau rasa2 mmg tak best tu..leh jer mintak sophie adjustkan pakai home edition semula.. kan sophie kan??? kan?? =D anyway thanks for doing this.. really appreciate this. tidak tahan lagi aku menanggung derita..

ohhh...this is soo me.. i like familiar things. i dont like changes. i dont like my routine to change. i dont like my stability to be interupted. thats why i use classic start menu.. thats why my documents are arranged in such a manner. thats why i dont like my stuff to be 'touched'.. i know when my things are moved..

and frankly..this habit of mine..do transfer when i meet stranger. i dont like to mingle with people i dont know. i realise this..whenever i meet somebody new..its always my friends who make the move to introduce us first. i would only exchange friendly smiles. i dont feel comfortable to even sit and talk with anyone. i would just sit there and smile. it takes awhile for me to warm up.. its like i automatically turns into 'safe mode' when i meet somebody new. i dont judge them..its not i dont like them. some of them turns out to be really nice people and be some of my good friends. its just me. i hate unfamiliarity. i hate things to go out of control. i hate things that im not sure of. i hate thing that i cant figure out.

erk..how did we get to this when all i wanted to say was.. my laptop has just been reformated and now, it does not support the font i use in this blog!

there..i have said it.. and i will do something about it later. malas nak pening2..

after all i have so many things to do..

yup so many things to do yet nothing is done..

*yawn* ngantuk la plak.. off to BED now... esok je la aku wat folio.. [hmm...tangguh lagi!]

so much yet nothing..

yup...so much to do yet nothing is done..

my 2 poor fellow housemates cum sisters are not in their pink of health.. [while i am not in the pink of WEALTH.. ehek...] what eva it is girls.. DO GET WELL SOON! i hope the air kelapa tua will do u guys good.. i will get some more if u guys still need more tmrw. anyway, we had fun trying to pecahkan the kelapa ek? and kukur kelapa using cheese grater? hmm ya.. maybe we should make some nasi lemak using the kelapa.. i bet it will taste good. for now u guys dont have that much variety to eat.. but it wont take long. i promise we will have food feast when u guys are feeling much better.. =D [macam la selama ni tak de food feast kat umah ni???]

ohh when will i have the urge to start sitting down n do some work.. maybe what i should do one of this day is..unplug my internet connection wire..and give it to someone like sophie.. or for more torture..abah..[jauh sket nak kena jalan..then have to make appointment first to go to his room n pick it up..]. i know some one who did that.. he could still go online to check his email twice a day..at his friend room. yup. his exam is coming.. and ya eQin..he is only first year student! and u..although u proceed to your 3rd year.. u ought to do much better than this.. and ya.. that 10k words essay u have to write. isnt a head start in reading n digging up stuff to put in the essay would do u good? or much better... isnt deciding on what to write really will put your mind to ease..and when Liz come into the classroom and ask who have decided on what to write u would have something to say?? and when she finally wants to see us one by one, u might already have 100 words to show.. and a good list of things u already read? and some advanced planning and that sort of things? or maybe even better..a summary of your dissertation?

hmm....ya..i guess it would be good! but am i going to do all that?? NAH.... =P
extended christmas holiday worth soo much more than to be spend drowned under piles of academic books!

off i go... to the kitchen.. i have 2 or should i say 3 hungry friends to be fed..or they could eat me instead..

i promise to do some work afterwards..after i clear up the clutter in my room.. and laylee: no. i dont lipat my selimut cos i dont like it too be lipat-ed.. =D