get a life bitch!

this is totally insane..

i never thought i would be this sad...

but it felt too empty...

this morning...i cried... before i go to bed, i usually put my hair scrunchie on my right hand. in the morning, it sometime tangled with the bracelet.. to realise its actually not there.. i just cried..

its felt weird as it usually in the way when i write and type...and its no longer there.. i get so used to having it.. the sound of it.. T_T

but weeping over it wont give my bracelet back... i have totally wasted a day today...

i am absolutely and completely shattered... not to mention 100% heart broken..

damn this is worse than breaking up...

but this needs to stop instantly..

dem yuh bitch... GET A LIFE!!!

what would you do?

what would you do when something has been with you for 10 years suddenly disappear? something gave by your mother... something which has a pair..and part of a set.. something that your mom said she will only bought for you once...something you always had with you.. suddenly you realise its gone..T_T

ohh i am soo sad... i cried a bit.. bcos i like that bracelet so much. it was bought 10 years ago.. when i was 12. it is part of a set of my necklace n its pendant and my anklet. My sister [whom i claim i hate so much] has a similar pair.. only mine is bigger. gosh... i am sad... very very sad...T_T

T_T air mata srikandi gugur lagi...

this is how i felt when i lost my lucky charm... [here]

and this is how i felt when my darling died... [here] and [here]

inspiration needed

i need inspiration. my usual source of inspirations semua nyer tak update!! grrr...

i have a few things i could say here.. but since this blog is being used as a way of stalking my social life, and used it against me and my fellow friends i prefer to keep it to myself... *sigh*... but social life, now as it matter most, is running slow.. i rarely go out now...since the only person available to take me out is Faizan..tu pun he is always busy...keje keje keje...T_T huhu Aishah is busy preparing for her exam, Fariza wit her wedding, Sal is not around..prolly working on her love life... Doreen and Linda on INTERNATIONAL holiday... Sudi n Julie [inc me] are totally broke, so our social activity terhad dgn menonton movie kat bilik, masak2, and sleepover thingy. My usual chat buddy still blom balik lagi...[weh balik la...i have tonnes to tell u!!!] My new [not really new la now] friend is pretty busy babysitting and moving house..or most likely trying to transform the new room into IKEA showroom..=P ahaks..selamat mengemas n menghias la ek..im sure your room is much more better looking than mine..[syok seh org bnyk duit nih... bilik pakai furniture IKEA seh...]

ohh speaking of my room, as i came back from London the other day, i found my room as usual TELAH DIKEMASKAN...ala2 bilik hotel gitu. my bed was made nicely, all my teddy babies all nicely lined up.. my room was hoovered..and best of all my sink is squeky clean...SUPERB! i like my sink clean..=) gosh i love Sue so much..i dont know what i'd do without her..T_T

i have a few more days before i start my new term.. i plan to stay home this week and read for my Dissertation, and prolly next week i wont be spending much time at home...i might be at my refuge camp =)

i know i havent been particularly looking forward to autumn and my new term... with Ramadhan coming..and Raya..and everything...it just scares the hell out of me.. and as much as i have digest the fact that im going back at the end of the year... i still havent been very indulge to the fact that i have to go back to IPBA.. for a year.. *sigh*

hold ur head high.. there might be something good for you.. oh, for two days in a row i recieved unexpected birthday gifts..=) goshh people!! thank you very much!! *muah muah* i soo love them.. gifts are the best when u least expect it..[i must count my blessings...one gone thousands come running to you dearie...].... i wish i could enjoy this life as much as i could...because i have so many good things come running to me...

[this entree is written in between my daily chores...phone call, check surat, etc etc]

weeee...

i just got back from London, in the wee hours again..haih.. but London never fails to amuse me... =)

had great fun in London..lovely weather except on Saturday morning..almost spoil my perfect picnic breakfast i plan... but we did went for it anyway! =)

Thursday, went to the Arsenal's new stadium..shopping bla bla..then evening lepak kat hyde park..then went to Princess Diana Memorial...ingatkan leh ar pau bunga..takde pun..huhu..

Friday, went to Harrods..to check out the Vera Wang's Princess..

aiyoo..siot sey..murah gila.. 30ml for £30..50ml for£40...100ml for £50...gila la...4 ml pun jual £50 kat ebay..baik aku beli kat harrods..leh dpt bag, free gifts, sampel, bla bla bla..huhu...tapi...plastic ku tidak bersinar lagi..udah max pun! [mati la aku..duit takde..credit card max..adoi la..huhu] then i took Ainee for her Sushi shopping spree in Chinatown. later that day, we had dinner in Picadilly circus.. then stroll in Soho..ahaks =P lalu depan gay club..haha...

Saturday, Picnic breakfast in St James Park..=) then jalan2 kat Camden town..fuyoo!!! i should have been there earlier la..like last year..serius best oo!! then, Sushi for lunch as planned =) then went to Harrods again..and bought 5 dozens of Krispy Kreme Donut..erk.. well not me la.. i bought 1 dozen jek..huhu.. ada org tuh beli sampai 3 dozens seh..dia sorang jek leh blasah satu dozen..huhu.. i have yet to taste apa la yg sedap sgt donut nih..haih...bikin aku rindu Dunkin Donut jek....T_T [nasib baik kitaorg tak jadi bukak outlet Dunkin Donut kat kuantan..kalau tak.. tamau kawan!! =P]

anyway, before balik..i get my birthday present!!! =) it was nicely and perfectly wrapped..siap ada ribbon tuh..dah tu plakk..ribbon matching seh dgn pembalut hadiah..haih ~~...sungguh perfect! I totally love it..=) thank you very much! although i still weep over the fact that my friends are not with me on my birthday, im actually glad u r there with me on that day..=) Thank you again. and its perfect too! i totally love the colour! PINK!! [*ching*...20 points] its the exact pink Julie n me love soo much..=P but this time round..Julie cant say 'kalau hilang tu..kau tau la ada ngan sapa ek..' bcos..it has MY name on it!! [*ching* ...another 20 points...] and...its the exact same way i usually write my name! 'eQin' ....haih ~~~it is perfectly written!! [*ching ching ching*...60 bonus points.. perfect 100!!! =)] thank you for noticing..terharu neh...*sob sob*

i already intended to take it everywhere wit me.. so i put it together with my keys..so i wont left my keys or my swiss knife again [ngaaaa...]. yesh i do have one.. but i think this one is perfect for me! its more practical to be carried around compare to the one i bought for myself..haih..~~why la u so clever..

....why am i writing like ainee nih?? anyway, she has been throwing tantrums since Friday night.. maybe thats why la kot, im writing like her..huhu.. but it has been great fun in London..=) as always.. thanks babe!! love u soo much tau.. and thanks to my friend who was in London for less than 12hours..=)

Hopefully my next London trip wont be so far away..=)

uwek..=P

huk alos...dia yg call kita...then, bila free minit dia abis..salah kita plak..huhu... =P ahaks!! lenkali tipon la kita lagi ek...bior berbaloi bayar tipon ratus2...hehe..=P i c u when u get here!!!