penantian penuh debaran...

akhirnya.. masa yg ditunggu sudah tiba. akhirnya penantian itu akan berakhir beberapa jam lagi.. akhirnya tidak lagi bersendirian. akhirnya tiba... *sigh*

persoalan baru timbul.. adakah best? adakah seronok? atau membawa masalah? adakah lemas dikelilingi? adakah? adakah? *sigh*

hati ku masih berdebar2. debaran itu semakin memuncak. mampukah aku? buat muka selamba? buat tak tahu? bukan sikap aku untuk meminggirkan.. mampukah aku mengikut kata hati? sesungguhnya bukan semua itu dalam fikiran aku.. tapi..

cuaca bumi peti sejuk [sophie, 2005] ini selalu mengecewakan. sinaran matahari sungguh jarang dijumpai. jarang sekali menunjuk muka! jarang sekali bersua..semakin jarang...dan semakin jauh... mungkinkah sinaran itu bukan milik ku lagi? perlukah aku berkongsi sinaran itu? musim salju akan berakhir.. bunga2 akan tiba tak lama lagi... mampukah sinaran matahari memancar seperti dulu? membuatkan aku tersenyum... wujudkah gelak tawa yang diselangi tekanan assignment dan exam? mampukah aku? mampukah dia?

TIDAK!! sinaran matahari itu milik aku.. senyuman itu milik aku... gelak tawa itu milik aku.. jangan kau rampas sinaran matahari yg terbaik dibumi peti sejuk ini!! Dont you dare to steal MY sunshine!!

huhu...sibuklah korang ni!! berlambak2 uni kat UK ni.. nak jugak duk kat plymouth yg best ni!! pegila cari uni lain... menyampah tau!! T_T

kanak-kanak itu bakal tiba 12 jam lagi... *sigh*

apa sajala yang aku merepek ini...huhuu...TAK MAU!!

the value...

the value of a phone call home...the best thing of living abroad. i think this is the critical time. i have left home for almost a year now.. few days to go! at first..i dont like making phone calls home.. cos everytime i did. i felt sad to put down the phone.. [ok la..i admit...there are times i felt like crying just bcos i have to end the call.] suddenly realise that i havent been making call frequent enuf....so i call more often. then, it doubles when i get to know that my bro is getting married. i called home almost like every other day.. ohh i hate him for that!! then, it slows down again.. more like twice a week or so. and somewhere along the line.. i get to know that mom expect me to call every sunday. it does not matter wheater i have called on saturday..but i need to call home on sunday! and it happens to be, i was particularly extra busy last week and i was away during the weekend. so i didnt get to call home! and i was so uneasy bcos i keep on remembering that i havent called home that week...so i called mama a while ago...

and this is what i got... abang An dah kahwin! WHAT??? ohhhh...thats not fair! by the way he is my cousin from mom's side..he is 2 years older than me. and he has a sister who is 'as young as' me getting married too.. SOON! OMG...thats like 4 cousins getting married this year![erk..2 cousins from my dad's side..]. am i missing something here??? and so..that left me and Fifi from my mom's side..and.. me and Tina from my dad's side.. not planning of getting married any time soon.. tho im not so sure about Fifi. but i think she is along the same line with me.. GOSH! why does everybody wants to get married when i cant be around? do i really have to miss all your weddings?

there goes.. life updates and latest gossips from Mama. thanks mom!! so i now can sleep soundly that i have called home this week.. if i cant pay the bill this week. i have to forget about calling home this sunday.. hehe... hope to call home on Valentine's Day.. thats one year away from home!!!

all this n all that

hmm... seminggu dah masuk bulan february. elaun aku tak nampak bayang lagi....its no where to be seen.. aku plak semakin galak di medan ebay. sungguh tiada kesedaran diri.. sudah sudah la tu cik eQin oi...

entah kenapa..sejak akhir2 ni, sejak aku stop updating regularly..i always felt my thoughts are not important to be put into words. thats what happen..thats the reason as for me not updating regularly. well i think...thats the only reason i can think of rite now.

and as i said before, my extended christmas holiday has come to an end.. and i shall be in class this thursday. whole day! and my weekend shall be buried under piles of chocolates.. as we are getting ready for the our Chocolate Day. it should be fun!! it has been fun.. hope it turns out fabulous..

and next i have more to come.. and i shall be missing in action again and again very soon.. and i too have been wasting my precious time today doing nothing. and again and again...

i should hangs head in shame..

bad eQin...
bad eQin...

*_*

yahuu!! aku kaya!!

yea.....aku kaya!!

nope! Hishammudin tak naik kan elaun...[blom masuk pun lagi...bila tah..] copat la weh...aku nak bayor credit card pulak ni! bil talipon pun tak bayor lagi..huhu...

actually..aku blom kaya. tapi ramai org antar email nak bagi aku duit. kenapa la ramai sgt org nak bagi aku duit ni?? cam tau tau jer aku tgh miskin.. dulu takde plak aku dapat email cam tu.. dalam masa 2 minggu jer aku dah menang 3 loteri!! bukan sikit.. juta2 tu..bukan rupiah.. atau yen...tapi in pounds!! takpun in USD.. pastu lagi satu... hari2 ada orang hantar email nak bagi aku waris duit.. orang tu mati la...orang ni mati la.. betul ke tak aku pun tak tau. mana dapat email aku pun aku tak tau.. hmm hentikan la semua itu. bohong!

hehehe.. anyway. i wont be around till monday. i hope to be back by sunday night! cos i have to go to school on monday. next week my week shall be fill with loads of activity. and my extended christmas holidays shall come to an end.. sob sob.. tiada cuti lagi.. huhuhuhu...

again..and again..

gosh...i have no idea why my prolifik blogger status has change to no-update-blogger status.. nak kata aku busy..takde la busy sangat..leh jer kalau nak blogging. tapi takde hati nak blogging apa...tak tau nak tulis apa. banyak jer benda jadi..

currently busy dgn preparation chocolate day.. posters dah tampal. promotion esok. hopefully kitaorg kaya la.. project besar-besaran pertama MAM. hmm weekend ni plak..maybe aku kena ganti farah untuk pegi Birm. sebab..cik farah tu dah kena ciken pop la plak. [pesanan ikhlas untuk cik farah: ko jangan gatal-gatal [walaupun aku tau ko tgh gatal-gatal...hehehe]nak ke mana2 ek...duk rumah diam2!! kecian kat orang..]hmm tak nak pegi Birm hari tu sbb takde duit. tapi aku belanja hari2 cam banyak duit.. membeli cam orang dapat gaji sebulan £1500. betul la ko ni eQin..tak sedar diri betul yg ko tu berada dibawah paras rakyat termiskin. hmm maybe i should write....

Dear Hishamuddin.

im happy to tell u that i get 65marks for my last assignment. if this continue.. i can graduate with a 2nd class upper. and if i work harder i could get a first class degree. maybe what u could do is raise our monthly allowances so we could buy more things from ebay and we could tour UK and europe more frequently. i know thats not the reason u send us to the UK, but if we are to go to work to earn the extra pounds we need.. it will be vey tiring for us and we could not study well. maybe we have to skip some extra classes to go to work. the free hours we have could always be put to independent reading instead of going to work. hmm i didnt discuss this matter with my friends before writing this letter. whatever it is.. please consider my request. =D by the way.. i think u are a very good looking guy...hehehe..

wish us all the best in our study..

one of your best future teacher
-miss yaqin-

hahaha.. you wish...